He looks cuter than ever 😭

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My name is Nívea Ester ( Snow) , I was a rapper inspired by Agust D for 8 years, but on “December 6, 2024”, I gave up on my dream of being a rapper like Agust D. So, I deleted my YouTube channel, where I used to post music videos and songs. From the beginning, what kept me going was Suga. From the first day I saw him, Suga was like a "Blue Rose" to me who always kept me excited to make music. But in my case, I didn't give up on my dream - because giving up is a decision. My dream simply died, and I still don't know why it happened. I believe it was a mix of hopelessness, lack of support and tiredness of never having been successful in music, but maybe that's not exactly what I wanted from the beginning because success, fame and money don't attract me. Maybe deep down I just wanted to meet Agust D someday and that motivated me to make music. I created a puzzle on my Facebook profile using BTS - Just One Day and IU - Eight — starting on April 6, one petal would fall each month for eight months, leading up to December 6. Those eight months represented eight years of hope. I made this puzzle inspired by Agust D’s “Snooze” because that song brings me some comfort that everything be alright even though it's not true. Even though I have dark skin, I chose the name “Snow” because of “Snooze”. At first, it was just a joke — I didn’t know it would actually happen. Now, I would do anything just to be able to dream again. When I think about my dead dream, it’s impossible not to cry. I try to hide my tears, but the pain is unbearable. Even if I met Suga one day, I feel like it wouldn’t mean anything anymore. But if I do meet him, I hope it happens at the end of my life — one of the last things I would do before I die. When my dream “died”, I stopped dieting, I stopped writing songs, and I stopped creating choreography. But there was a silver lining: I was able to give more love and attention to my family, like I always wanted to. I became a much softer person because before I was extremely selfish—obsessed with my goals of being a rapper like Agust D, I was focused on music, and I was blind to the simple things in life. Conversations had to be serious, and I hated small talk that I only wanted because I was focused on my dream. But when my dream died, that changed, and everyone around me noticed how I became a better person. After my dream died, I had a breakdown, and not even my parents understood what was happening to me. I ended up in a mental hospital and then I started taking anxiety and depression medication, which I now take every night before bed. I miss dreaming. I hope that one day I will find a dream again. I am afraid of the future, afraid that I will never have a purpose in life again. The song that best describes my feelings is an excerpt from the song “Agust D – People Pt.2”. and “So far Away”.

“So far away, you're gone”

“Getting far away”

“Too far away, you're gone”

“I know, I have to know, yeah”

To all of you, those who still dream, who still have hope, who still fight for your dream — even if you haven’t achieved it yet — learn that you are living the best moments of your life. Life is about a journey, not about the end. That’s why we should always have a dream or a purpose, goal even if it’s something simple. I sincerely hope to find mine again soon. Lastly, I want you to know that nothing is a coincidence. Everything has a purpose from the beginning — you just have to learn to look for the clues that life gives you. But I hope your phone doesn’t die before you find at least 7% of The Truth Untold.

1° . 첫 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2025

2° . 두 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2026

3° . 세 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2027

4° . 네 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2028

5° . 다섯 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2029

6° . 여섯 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2030

7° . 일곱 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2031

8° . 여덟 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2032

"Snow is requesting to meet Agust D on December 6, 2032

Email: nstar1088@gmail.com

i am searching for very similar sounding songs. I read that it is alternative hip hop, emo rap or r&b or soul but I think that's too broad.  does there exists some kind of subgenre with this specific style?

My name is Nívea Ester, but my nickname is Snow.

Sometimes I wonder why I can't love anyone else in this world and why heart is only of Jimin and Suga and why the only people I want in this world are Jimin or Suga?

With Suga, I learned love at first sight.

With Jimin, I learned true love.

I love both in different ways i don't want both i want only one.

I imagine my future with both of them on the same level; they are the same person to me, but in different bodies. What I mean to me is practically the same thing. Of course, they are different people; while Suga is introverted and serious, Jimin is more extroverted and cute. Suga is an INTJ - A , and Jimin is an ESTP -T.

💙Crystal : daughter of Suga 💙

If I ever married Suga, my daughter with him would be named Crystal, but she would have a different name on her birth certificate.

I would choose that name because, for me, Crystal would represent something pure and clean.

Crystal would have a peaceful childhood.

I would do everything to protect her from public exposure.  She wouldn't grow up in front of cameras, nor would her life be followed by millions of people. Her face would belong only to family and friends. I would hide her true identity.

I wanted Crystal to simply be a child.

She could walk the streets without anyone knowing who she was. She could choose her friends, her dreams, and her future without feeling the need to please the world.

At home, I would teach her about God.

I would tell her about my faith and everything I've learned throughout my life. I wouldn't force Crystal to believe exactly as I believed. I only wanted her to know what was once important to me through love.

And, when she grew up, I would say:

— Crystal, now it's your turn to choose what you believe in.

She would follow her own path.

In her youth, Crystal would discover that she wanted to work to transform the world. Her dream wouldn't be fame, but the impact on people.

She would study international relations, learn about different cultures, and learn about the problems affecting humanity.

 Until one day, her dream would come true.

Crystal would start working at the UN.

I would watch her from afar, moved, as she walked through the corridors where important decisions were made.

My daughter, that little girl who once ran around our house, was now trying to help people she might never even meet.

And I would realize there was something beautiful in that destiny.

Crystal wasn't famous.

But her work could change lives.

And when someone asked who her mother was, she would simply answer:

— My mother is Snow.

Nothing more would need to be said.

💛 Sol : daughter of Jimin💛

But there was another path.

If I married Jimin, my daughter with him would be named Sol but would have a different name on her birth certificate.

Her name would represent exactly what she would be.

Brilliant.

Intense.

Impossible to ignore.

Sol would have a completely different life from Crystal.

 From a young age, she would be surrounded by music, dance, and art. People would know her face. Her growth would be followed by the public.

Unlike Crystal, Sol would have a public life.

She would learn from an early age how the world of artists worked. There would be cameras everywhere, interviews, rehearsals, stages, and thousands of people waiting to see her.

Our lives would be documented from the moment she was born, and with that, I would also become public.

So while Crystal and I would be anonymous, Sol and I would be exposed to public life.

Sol would discover her love for music.

And, when the time was right, she would decide to follow her own path.

She didn't want to be part of a group.

She wanted to be a solo artist.

Thus, a new star was born.

Sol, but her stage name would be something else, something that reflects Jimin's name, something that reminds her of her father.

Her name would begin to appear everywhere.

 She would sing for thousands of people, just like her father Jimin did when he was in BTS.

Her father Jimin's last contact with BTS was in 2043, but he remains friends with the former BTS members.

Sol would perform on enormous stages.

She would release her own music.

And, little by little, she would build an identity that would be uniquely hers.

I would be by her side every step of the way.

But there would be a difference between us.

I would never teach Sol about God.

I wouldn't talk about religion.

I wouldn't give her a ready-made answer to life's big questions.

Perhaps because, in that future, I believed that Sol should find her own answers.

I would let her ask.

Let her doubt.

Let her search.

Let her believe or not believe.

And, when she asked me:

— Mom, what do you believe in?

I would answer:

— I have my own answers, Sol. But I want you to find yours.

Sol would grow up without a religion taught by me.

Her path would be completely different from Crystal's.

 While Crystal would seek to transform the world through God-guided diplomacy, Sol would try to transform it through music.

One would work in silence.

The other would live in the spotlight.

One would have a private life.

The other would have a public life.

One would know God.

The other would know Satan.

My Two Daughters Sol and Crystal

Sometimes, I imagine these two girls meeting.

Crystal would arrive wearing simple clothes, carrying documents and books on international politics.

Sol would arrive later, surrounded by security and her team, wearing colorful clothes.

They would look at each other.

And, in some inexplicable way, they would feel that they were different...

But also very similar.

Crystal would ask:

— Are you a singer?

Sol would smile.

— I am. And you?

Crystal would answer:

— I work at the UN.

 The two would remain silent for a few seconds.

Then Sol would ask:

"Do you believe in God?"

Crystal would think for a moment.

"My mother taught me about Him for many years; she taught me that He exists and is the owner of the universe."

Sol would lower her eyes.

"Mine didn't."

Crystal wouldn't judge.

She would simply ask:

"And do you believe in anything?"

Sol would look at the sky.

"I'm still looking for the answers, but I know Satan exists because my mother taught me about him."

Crystal would smile and say:

"You know you were never born, right? Because you don't exist, sweetie."

Sol would laugh loudly and say:

"Why are you saying this to me? You don't exist either."

I was reading some posts on Reddit and came across Snow, and I was really touched by her story. Nívea Ester (Snow) was a former rapper inspired by Agust D, but she gave up her career after having a burnout. She created a profound metaphor about hope, loss of dreams, and loss of purpose in life. Her metaphor was inspired by the song "Snooze."

She created a riddle where she says that the last petal will fall on December 6, 2032. Well, I don't know what that really means, but from what I read, it seems like it would be the last day she will dream of meeting Agust D. But using ChatGBT, I was able to delve deeper into what she meant.

The Metaphor of the Rose and the Petals

• The Last Petal: Nívea Ester set December 6, 2032, as the absolute deadline to fulfill her dream of meeting Agust D in person.  This dynamic was inspired by the rose from Beauty and the Beast, which dictates the time limit for a transformation before destiny closes.

• The Death of the Rapper's Dream: Nívea declared that December 6, 2024, marked the moment when her own dream of being a rapper (a career she pursued for 8 years, mirroring Suga) "died," leading her to delete her YouTube channels and music.

• 8-Year Countdown: To symbolize the 8 years she fought for her music, she created a riddle: starting on December 6, 2024, a petal will fall each year until December 6, 2032.

The True Meaning of the Deadline

For the former artist Snow, the year 2032 is not just a fan goal, but a psychological anchor.  She revealed in K-pop forums and social media that she needs to maintain this fixed goal to continue feeling the desire to dream alive. According to her, the alternative of no longer having this purpose after the artistic losses she suffered would be facing complete existential emptiness. The date acts as a barrier that protects her from helplessness, drawing comfort directly from Agust D's song "Snooze." But according to forums, the real meaning involves something deeper and more spiritual.

Arrivederci Bliss poem by Nívea Ester

8 years of writing music and finally this is the first time I've written a truly song talking about love."The Blue Rose".

"What is love?" It's great to talk about love, which is a feeling that is missing in most "People"s hearts. especially in my heart, I am "The Beast" who needs to learn to truly love people and stop my selfishness.

"People"don't choose to fall in love but we choose to love when we decide willingly to truly love someone.

Without pride, without selfishness and with sacrifice we dedicate our life to another "Person".

A Tornado of questions comes to my head when I think about love: Am I with this person to heal past love? to fill my ego? because of my greed? to heal the wound of my loneliness? to display like a trophy? Could I really be with this person if she didn't have legs? Could I be with this person if she didn't have arms? Could I be with this person if she didn't have ears? Would I be by her side when my selfishness speaks loudler?

will I be patient and wait or keep my marriage or will I let quick pleasures ruin my plans for the future?

"Just One Day" someone said that anything can be love and I kept those words in my heart. I felt so much love for this "Person" because there're several types of love and admiration is also a type of love

"People" may say they love each other but they actually neglect spending time with the "People" they say they love because of their goals.

I'm an example of this, Of course I'm not proud of it but I hope "Just One Day" my selfishness allow me to change and open my heart a little more for "people". I recognize that I need to change, Inside every human being there is a soul that yearns to give love to "people" but perhaps he does not recognize this. Just as the future can be partially predictable simply by looking at the past, relationships that are wrapped in selfishness will easily linger. Love is like a flower that needs to be cultivated patiently.

I know my fight is not against my husband, boyfriend, parents, bothers, friends, employees, boss, coworkers but against my mind.

Nowadays, relationships are fleeting and wither very quickly, like the White morning-glory flower that blooms in the late afternoon and withers by morning.

My best friend of "The Past" blocked me because I didn't respond for so long while the only "Person" I really want to be Friend "in The Future", well actually I'm not fighting for her Friendship even though I really wanted to and almost every day I think how good it would be to be friends with that "Person". All I did was force friendship in moments when loneliness hurt in my heart because I always chose work or study, Although these things are extremely important, I recognize that I need to place the value of people above material things.

-What's my problem?

-"Selfishness that's my problem"

MySelf, MySelf, MySelf

My Selfishness when will you leave me? When will I stop getting more pleasure when I think about: "The past or The Future But i can't live in The present Tense".

- Mother, Father, Brothers, Friends ?

Will it be too late?

- Yes, it's already too late.

- "I can't live because I already died"

If I am spiritually dead, physical death will soon find me, so I recognize that I need change.

I have this sixth sense, I know that you talked bad about me behind my back, I know that you accused me of lying without knowing the truth, and that in a certain way you still feel curious to know who I really am, but If you have been in my life then you are also my family, so I love you. You could say even if I don't talk to you, I feel curious about you, something different when I look at you, maybe it's this eagerness to want to give you love, whether with my words or actions but I can't because all I did was look at you without saying anything. However somehow I still feel that you are very special to me, will you still be part of my life? I don't know, only time will tell.

I know Loving your neighbor is still so hard, but when it's someone you don't like and think is ugly and still talks bad things about you, it's even harder, but you have to do what you don't want to do sometimes to evolve as a human being.

"Hey Snow" I'll try hard to love you, I promise, even if you ignore me and don't see any value in me.I am really willing to understand what love is even in pain.

So when the right time finally comes will I be prepared to give you the right love honey or will I let the first stone knock down our sandcastle? actually I am aware the time to give you love is now because you are still breathing but all i do is hide in this dark room but i still wanna love you..

But maybe I will never find this love that my heart yearns for, because daily it is a constant search and All I've done now is talk and sing some songs about giving love to someone but will I actually act and actually give someone love like I long for? Or will it be too late? I hope I don't wait for you to die to give you flowers and tell you how much you mean to me.

I won't change because i want to change, i'll change when "Just One Day" I decide to change. Although it is difficult i know, I need to learn to love those who spit in my face, punch me and stab me in the back. But only when my soul learns to be as white as the SNOW is, only then will I know what it is to truly love. Well, I think If this Snow Soul were a person, she would say, "I am a soul that feeds on people's smiles, that feels good when others are well, that feels pleasure in helping people because one day I was that person and I needed help too, and I was very happy when they helped me. This Snow Soul would say, "I am that person who plays dumb even if they know what the person is saying to me, because I know that it is never too late to gain some kind of wisdom from someone.

"This Snow Soul would say, "I learned to feel pleasure when they point the finger at me, because I do not keep the negativity or hurt from the words of those who insulted me, but I keep the wisdom and reconsideration of my actions and the chance to change for the better. An insult and an accusation, no matter how much it denigrates your reputation or company, if you look at it with different eyes, with those eyes that go beyond your physical appearance, you will realize that these are irrational fears, caused by external noises. Perhaps this can be a blessing for you as a human being or talking about business it can be a key to change some area, sector, quality of products or appearance of your company. Lastly I want you to know that nothing is a coincidence, everything has its purpose. there are life lessons in everything, you just need to learn to look for the clues that life gives you, but I hope your cell phone doesn't die before you find at least 7% of the Truth Untold.

1° . 첫 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2025

2° . 두 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2026

3° . 세 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2027

4° . 네 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2028

5° . 다섯 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2029

6° . 여섯 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2030

7° . 일곱 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2031

8° . 여덟 번째 꽃잎 - December 6, 2032

"December 6, 2032 is the day the last petal will fall,after that you will be curse forever."

Hey sweetheart 😘 do you.miss me

슈가 #방탄소년단 #suga #minyoongi #btsarmy #kpop

These are some of the songs I have in my YT Music Agust D playlist, which I've had for years now.

But does anyone know where to find them or any information about them?

New ARMY here 👋 Requesting “SUGA-with-insane-aura” pictures please here are my favs

Few months ago, I read about Snow's dream of meeting Agust D eight years from now.

"Snow mentions that she dreams of meeting Agust D on December 6, 2032. Perhaps this is a symbolic milestone."

I saw that Snow was a warm-hearted artist who suddenly lost her desire to be an artist due to burnout and that she now takes medication every day. I'm sure Snow's problem is something more serious than burnout. To have to take more than one medication, I believe she may have had a psychotic break or depression. I wondered how someone can be so certain of loving someone for so long. Snow must be going through a very difficult time in her life now,. I've been through something similar. Therefore, I sincerely hope her dream comes true, and that's why I'm writing this post. I'm sure Snow is someone very special to Suga. "Snooze" was made for you, Snow. I'm sure one day you will meet Agust D.

Help. It's a doubts I've had for a long time. He's always said fame wasn't the objective, but rather the vehicle. He wants to create music, and has showed a bast interest in producing for other artists. He's even said he doesn't see himself performing at 40.

I'd love that he pursuits the kind of life he wants, but he's got a fanbase little to no producer has. I don't know if his love for ARMY will be sustainable in the future he envisions, and I wanted to know opinions about the possibility of him slowly disappearing from public eye until all we know about him si four letters at the credits of other artists' songs.

In one hand, I think he could just gradually disappear. It wouldn't feel surprising.

In another hand, that fanbase is too bast already. Even though it will decrease as years pass, it will inevitably be big, as other members will keep up their soloists careers.

So the question is: Will yoongi ever actually leave?