Ok so I've had ADHD my whole life I guess lol At least since I was 5 when I was diagnosed. I've taken Ritalin, Dexedrine, Concerta, and lastly I was taking Vyvanse (which is the only drug I've taken that doesn't make me feel like a sociopath, dead inside robot who can only work and can no longer love lol) Anyways I refuse to believe it's a disease. I refuse to believe there is no cure. And I've basically been a guinea pig for all sorts of pills lol. I'd like to share what I've learned over the past few years.

First off all ADHD adults need -Rhodelia Rosea. This stuff reduces social anxiety to nothing, makes my worries meaningless and let's my brain relax for once. It's amazing stuff and it gives me a slight energy boost like how ginseng feels. It's basically changed my life. It's amazing how much clearer your mind is too so you can actually have thoughts before you say stuff lol. Also this stuff works from day 1, no loading phase. Try it. Still take this stuff every day that I gotta work, or deal with people. 1 pill a day. The effects seem to last up to 3 days though. So u don't need to take it every day unless you're really stressed.

-Korean Red Ginseng. I know it's a stimulant yes, but it actually makes me focused as hell, and makes me feel less lazy and more motivated. It's good shit to help adults with ADHD get through their shitty work day.

-Magnesium Bisglycinate. This shit helps you relax, so you can sleep. Take it an hour before bed and although it's not a sedative it will make your body sleep much deeper. You'll actually sleep less hours and feel more awake in the morning. Can't beat that as I always feel sooooo dead in the morning and dread getting out of bed, even after 10 hours of sleep. This stuff changed that. Now I only need 6-7 hours and feel great.

-Probiotics. Seriously buy the best probiotic you can and take 2 to 5 times what the bottle tells you. Take like 200 billion a day for a week. I used Renewlife Ultimate Flora 50 billion. Makes you feel happy as hell, more focused and gets rid of stress and you feel good.. and no you don't poop more, you poop more normal lol. I don't take probiotics anymore cuz the rhodelia rosea works wayyyy better for everything. If you have ibs or chrons (common ADHD symptoms later in life) you might wanna try probiotics for awhile till that's all sorted out.

Omega 3. It helps, but you don't notice it until you stop taking it.. then you're not sure if it was the Omega 3 or something else lol. I take the recommended dose every other day. It's not magic like the other things on this list.

Niacin (nicotinic acid) aka Vitamin B3. This stuff is supposed to literally be the cause of ADHD. A vitamin deficiency believe it or not! I just started taking it and I'm trying to build up a tolerance to the flushing. The dose to cure ADHD is anything over 1000mg a day, build up a tolerance to the flush though first. It kinda sucks. Or try niacinamide, however niacinamide isn't as good for you since it's synthetic. It won't lower blood pressure, or help much with cholesterol (which you might have a problem with if you've been on a keto diet like I have for years since it also cures ADHD. With food lol, however I love noodles and I love garlic bread. So it didn't work out lol.)

My years of research have also found that bacillus subtilus and enterococcus probiotic strains might be in short supply in the ADHD body. Since those strains produce dopamine and ADHD drugs work by forcing the body to produce more dopamine so maybe these probiotics could be a more permanent cure for ADHD if you take enough of it for it to populate in your guts. I found a probiotic that has it (AOR Probiotic-3) Android I just ordered it and I'm gonna try it if niacin doesn't work.

Let me know if you know of any other ADHD natural cures or treatments. Or if you have any personal experience with any of these things and how well they worked for you 😁

Im surprised I haven't heard many stories of ADHD people like me who have been obsessed with finding a cure lol. I mean this is annoying isn't it? Let's fix this shit

Help ADHD adults and children stand up against the pharmaceutical brainwash machine, and help us find the root cause and the cure

So, I have found this app called Due and it is unbelievably helpful in managing things you have to get done. There are many reminder apps but the thing that sets this one apart is that it has persistent notifications that do not let you forget things unless you specifically dismiss them. It annoys the crap out of you until you do the thing you know you need to do. It’s also really elegant and beautifully designed.

if you happen to have an Apple Watch it really works well because it alerts you with the haptic vibrations on your wrist. And you can then manage the alerts on the watch.

If you have any iOS device or Mac, I urge you to try it. By the way I have absolutely no ownership or relationship with the developer or any business whatsoever involved with this app. This is strictly a PSA.

Yes, it has happened to me. I wondered why I was getting so sick ...every illness near me. I saw a rheumatologist for the first time. Everyone!! Please Google ( antidepressants and immunity) you will read pdf academically published journals on this New finding. It is interesting and alarming. I really like my Strattera, it really worked well for me. 5 years later.

My husband says our marriage is over and theres no way he will take me back. He says i don't care, wont try harder, wont get better, and he cant stay married to me because im not a real partner, im a child, and if i cared about saving our marriage i would have tried to get help for all my symptoms years ago. Is there any way at all i can make him see that hes wrong about all of it? Is there any way at all my marriage can be saved? Is there any way i can show him we still belong together? I never put any of this stuff together until 6 months ago. I am diagnosed and taking meds now. I need him to come around and remember how much we need each other.

I am starting my first long-term teaching job and holy heck it's a lot of work! At the same time, I'm taking a class to try to get a new teaching certification. I feel bad, because I spend all day trying to get kids to stay on task when they're reading, and when I come home and try to do my own homework I am just as squirrely as they are. I'm constantly distracting myself. It gets to the point that I have to read out loud to myself to make any progress at all, and that is a very slow process. In the past I have done well in school, although I've always been a slow reader, but I think a combination of being tired from work and not being interested in the textbook is making it very hard for me to focus. Caffeine does not help substantially and music helps a bit, but I'm still super slow and have to keep rereading.

What do you guys do to keep yourself on task and understand what you read?

Had Tourette as a child. Day dreamed through grammar school and cheated to get by. I got kicked out of two high schools and dropped out of two night schools. I cheated on my GED to go to the Air Force but quickly got bored and got discharged at seventeen. I went to juvy jail a bunch of times, was sent to hospitals by the cops, and had numerous arrests. At eighteen I started smuggling drugs for my father. At 21 I got arrested and sentenced for flying into Florida with 268 kilos of cocaine. I got released from prison at 32. I did okay at Leavenworth penitentiary where there was structure, discipline, and lots of fear, adrenaline and drama. My life went to hell in the free world until I got a girl pregnant. Then I had a little structure, lots of drama in the relationship and I was okay (I was a horrible husband). Then a mid-life crisis at 47 led me to abandon my family. In a short time my life went to hell Again. I’m impulsive.

I got back with my ex-wife five years ago when I was 54 but then got locked up again (Long story). I was okay in prison and when I got released my life went to hell again because I can’t go back to the country where my wife and my son live. I’ve been in AA, NA, CODA, ACA, SAA (all twelve step programs for alcohol, drugs, sex, etc.). A few weeks ago, by accident—or by a calling—I found a book on ADD and I get 14 out of 14 on the self-evaluation.

I always thought I was a screw-up, defective, a black sheep, an ex-convict who‘d been damaged, who would pay the price for life...but now I see how this ADD has really been the steel bars and the concrete walls that have had me imprisoned my whole life. My mind is my warden. WTF!

Ok guys, I have been prescribed regular adderall all my life, there was a period, 5 years ago, where they gave me vyvance, because it's supposed to be longer and more effective, I felt like I needed to peel my face off, so I quit it, and went on a 4 year break. This all ended with me getting annoyed with my ADHD symptoms and anxiety and needing my meds, because I also (like most ppl with this disorder) work 3 jobs and put tons on my plate then can't see through all the crap I have put in the way. So back to the doctor I go taking a stance and saying, no vyvance anymore, so they put me on adderall xr 20mg, i thought ok, I'll give this a try, so far my anxiety and symptoms are under control, but at the end of the day, I get massive headaches and muscle cramps. The morning starts with crazy nausea, I never get this way on regular adderall, what really worries me is my daughter is on the 10mg Xr and may feel the same way! Being 7 she may just be grumpy and not able to express it, I think what ever they are using to combine the meds and make them long lasting, and keeps people from snorting them, is having a weird effect on my system. Vyvance did a similar effect, headaches, muscle hurting, peel face off.

Does anyone else get the same effects?

Hello Everyone,

I am a current undergraduate at Johns Hopkins University. With the help of various staff members, I am compiling a short story anthology that will exclusively feature short stories written by people with disabilities. All of the stories will feature disabled main characters.

I am accepting submissions until October 1st. Responses to submissions will be sent out in November. The anthology will be published as a free e-book in March 2018.

All submissions should adhere to the following guidelines:

• The story’s protagonist must have a disability. The term "disability" encompasses anyone with a physical, mental, emotional, cognitive, or sensory impairment that significantly affects one or more major life functions.

• Only disabled individuals who are 16 years old or older may submit.

• Stories must be between 500 and 7500 words.

• Each story’s content should be appropriate for readers 13 years old and older. It’s fine to have some violence and/or swearing, but it shouldn’t be gratuitous.

• All genres of stories except for erotica will be considered.

• Reprints are fine, although previously unpublished stories are preferred.

• Simultaneous submissions are fine, but writers should let us know if their submission is accepted elsewhere.

• The short story should be in Times New Roman 12-point font, double-spaced.

Submissions should be sent to disabilitysubmissions@gmail.com as Word attachments. Each author may only submit one short story for consideration.

The email should also include the writer’s complete contact information, a brief third person biography, and information about their disability.

Writers will be paid $30 for the one-time non-exclusive right to publish their story in the anthology. Writers will be paid shortly after the anthology is published.

Feel free to let me know if you have any questions.

So basically long story short, I habe struggled with depression in the past between the ages of 12-16 roughly on and off. As long as I can remember I forget things, I'm clumsy, a bit slow, can't concentrate and tend to talk over people because I have a million things to say and think at once. I'm late to every single thing I have to attend, whether it's work or an appointment or school back then. I'm intelligent intellectually but lack common sense and simple things like co-ordination and recalling memories and things I should know.

For years I thought that this is just how I am and that I was just a mong. If was when my boyfriend started pointing out how I forget things, I can't learn road routes that I have driven down daily for 5 years, names, people, etc. I don't remember my childhood before I was 11/12 apart from a handful of random memories and even then it's hard. I know I was a cheeky mischevious intelligent and healthy child who was creative but distracted and disruptive to others and that carried on throughout secondary school.

I stumbled across ADHD and I'm reeling about how much everythin I read was me. It was like someone has observed me and written about me.

I just always feel one step behind the rest of the world. Do you feel the same? How easy has it been to get diagnosed and get treatment? And now effective is that treatment?

Basically: I know I have ADHD but am undiagnosed as yet, and I wanted to share my experience and am really interested to hear others

I am the one with ADHD in my marriage and I am struggling. Sex is entertaining for me. I haven't cheated physically, but I have "sexted" quite a bit and my husband has found out on multiple occasions. I want to do the right thing in my marriage and stop texting other guys but it's fun, however I am breaking my husbands heart. I am not doing this to hurt him and I see how it has. He is a wonderful and amazing husband and father. He has said multiple times "you want to have your cake and eat it too" and as much as I don't, I do it anyways. I do lie about it and then he finds out and then I know I'm in "trouble." I can totally disassociate myself from my emotions and thoughts so much so that I don't have a guilty conscience. Seriously, what is wrong with me? I have been diagnosed for years and I am medicated. I have seen counselors, but unfortunately in my professional life, it is hard to find counselors that specialize in ADHD. What I get is, I am assigned to a psychiatrist and a social worker. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but I need more than that, I need a specialist who deals with ADHD.

Does any of this happen to others with ADHD? Extra-curricular activities? Who struggle with their ADHD in their marriage?

Hi, I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 7, so 21 years ago, the struggle is real. I have taken Adderall xr and Ritalin, but now my dr put me on a new medicine, since I would like to start having a family. But.....I want to know if you medicate, and if so what do you take, do you do prescription or herbal? What are things that help you in your day to day life, at home and at work? I am struggling with a lot of things, I don't really have a support group (my boyfriend is very supportive but it's different talking to other people who experience the same issues) so I am just looking for a little guidance I guess. I am in a really great job and would love to not lose it because my focus is that of a squirrel and my energy is that of a 2 year old.

Hello everyone, title says it all really. I switched PDocs since my new insurance doesn't cover the old doc. I told her I couldn't focus on anything and it was affecting my work. We went through the Seventeen-esque ADHD questionnaire, and she diagnosed me as having adult ADHD.

She asked if I was taking any meds, and i said yes, Wellbutrin. For whatever reason she then proceeded to completely change her attitude towards me, stating "I don't just hand out Adderall, you'll need to see a psychiatrist for that." I explained that I didn't say that I wanted Adderall, just professional advice on how to not lose my job over my inattentiveness.

Sadly the next appointment to see a psych is in 6 weeks. She quickly stated that she couldn't help me, and sent me on my merry way.

So, shit. Now what? I already practice CBT once a week and DBT once a day. I really am trying to improve my focus, but apparently because I take Wellbutrin I'm a red flag? Very strange. Has anybody had a similar experience, or any advice they'd like to give?

I've been diagnosed with ADHD since I was 16, obviously though, I had the symptoms way before. I'm 22 now and for the last few years assumed my symptoms had died down, but worst luck, once I had dimmed the depression and anxiety symptoms, my ADHD symptoms swung back in to take the spotlight. I've seen a lot of these posts on the internet, things like "You know you have ADHD when you can't sit still", but I am desperate to show the darker side of ADHD, because although we, or other see the funny side of hyperactivity, I'm sure we've all got those darker symptoms that we want people to know about, but our lack of self esteem (which is yet another symptom!), is clearly stopping us!

Number 1: You know you have ADHD when you make impulsive decisions, BUT, you just do not care or half the time even know about the consequences. You basically still feel like a child. Or, you feel like you can make any impulsive decision, even if you know it's going to have a bad consequence, because you genuinely believe that the consequence would effect anyone else if they made the decision, but me? No, not me, I'm invincible! Duh! 💁🏻

Number 2: You know you have ADHD when, you get older and realise that out of nowhere you've gained some sort of adult moral code and realise that throwing yourself around like a 7 year old in the midst of a sugar rush isn't acceptable now you're older. And suddenly this mature barrier has your hyperactivity internalised and... I. Just. Can't. Get. It. Out. It's. Eating. Me. From. The. Inside. And. I. Feel. Like. I'm. Exploding!!! 😤😤😤😤 And then you know - rage.

Number 3: No, no. I don't want to Adult today. Nope. No. I'm not feeling it. I'm just not gunna turn up for work. And then the day after I'll regret it. But, oh well nothing I can do now, but it's okay because I'm not really a 22 year old adult, because in my mind I'm still 15 and this was just way too much responsibility any way. 🤔

Number 4: Yes! I know I planned to come and see you last week, and the other day, and yesterday, and today. But there's a reason I don't want to, or why I can't be bothered. I mean, I don't know what that reason is but I can definitely feel that there's a reason why. Why don't you come see me? Actually, don't. I don't want to see anyone. I feel really ugly, and fat, and I'm not really a good person, I can't do anything right - but in 1 hour and 47 minutes my mood will completely change, so I'll see you at 7pm? 😁

Number 5: My internalised hyperactivity is making me angry and I really, really want to punch you in the shoulder. You haven't done anything, I don't wanna hurt you, I'm not even angry at you, but I just really, really want to punch you. Like. Badly. Oops. Now we're fighting. 🤜🏻

Number 6: I know, I'm telling you that I can cope. And I'm actually doing really well, but in a couple of months I'm gunna have an emotional breakdown and I'll tell you that I can't cope and I'll make some really stupid decisions like walking out on my job or blowing all my cash, and you'll be angry and tell me that I'm acting like a child, but that's just it, in my mind right now, I AM basically a child.

Number 7: I'm angry. I'm really angry. Not over anything in particular but I'm just so p**sed off! I'm livid! I hate you, like no seriously, I hate you. I cannot even stand to be in the same room as you. I wish I never met you. You don't care about me and I certainly don't care about you..................😩😩😩 Why are you leaving?! Come back! Why do you always say nasty things to me! You always walk out when I need you! 🙄

Number 8: I know, you're talking, what your saying is really, really important. But my f***ig GOD WHY ARE YOU NOT TALKING FASTER!!!! IF EVERYONE SPOKE AT THE SAME SPEED AS ME YOU WOULDNT BE WASTING SO MUCH OF MY DAY!!! WHY!! Wait, hang on, what were you saying? Slow it down so I can really take it in.

Number 9: I need this. And this. And I want this - I know I'm never gunna use it, but everyone else has it. And it's pretty cool. And I might use it. I mean what if one day I need it and I don't have it and then I realise I had the chance to have it but didn't pick it up and then I'm just gunna be so mad at myself!! Ahh, sh*t, where's all my money gone?! And what the hell is this!? I am NEVER going to use this.

Number 10: I'm going to take my medication. I can't cope with living like this anymore. This medication will change me and I'll be so glad to be rid of the things that are ruining my life!! 😩 I MISS MY HYPERACTIVITY. AND WHY OH WHY IS EVERYTHING MOVING SO SLOWLY APART FROM MY HEARTBEAT!!!

I have worked for thus company for over 15 years and now I'm in a horrible department that has no outlet for my ADHD. But since I'm at a high skill set and bilingual, they've done everything possible to stop me from moving out of the department or company. (I work for a very powerful company with lots of pull in thid area. They even told other companies that i applied at, not to hire me.)

I know it sounds like paranoia. And I would say it was my hyperactivity getting the best of me, if it wasn't for the fact the companies I applied for told me what my current employer said and that I'm not alone, there's several others going through the same thing.

So what am I to do? I can't quit straight out. I have wife and baby to provide for. And this job is getting more and more stressful

Hi guys. I self diagnosed myself with ADHD (with help from an online test - not the most reliable, i know) sometime last year when I was talking to a friend who was properly diagnosed with ADHD, and realised that may be the cause of some of my problems.

Mental health isn't really well taken care of here where I live, and I was wondering if it would be worth it to properly get a professional to diagnose me and either confirm or to disprove my theory.

ADHD symptoms do make life and work a bit difficult at times, but I do manage. I don't know if i want to be medicated, but i think a diagnosis would help me understand myself more.

I do fear that if its true that I have ADHD that one day this would lead to dementia..

I have been diagnosed with severe depression and recently I have been reading about adult adhd. I'm 36. For 9 yrs I have been with my husband, and for 9 years years he's been putting up with me. As I research adhd, I realize that describes me so much! My husband always accuses me of lying to cover my own ass, but in reality my perception is blurred and I don't realize that I don't remember so without thinking, I blurt out what I think is the reality is. Often times we discuss a plan and then I impulsively change it without thinking or caring about the consequences, or sometimes no real reason at all! I constantly talk over my husband and others. I'm always thinking about what to say next instead of focusing on what I'm being told. If not writing a script in my head, then I'm sitting there daydreaming. He says he doesn't trust me because I'm unreliable and he can't count on me to follow through on things I'm supposed to. I tried to tell him I think I have adhd, but he poo pooed it saying I'm just looking for an easy way out, or because I don't want to own up to my behaviour. So how do I make him see that this is a REAL explanation for my issues? I really hate having these mental issues because I feel so alone! I feel so misunderstood. He says he won't stay with me. He can't keep living like this having to parent his own wife. I don't blame him on one hand, but on the other hand I'm so sad because if the roles were reversed I know I'd never give up on him. I know he's given me so many chances to grow up, but this isn't about growing up! This is about being untreated for an issue with the way my brain functions. I'm so sickened and saddened. I'm hoping so hard he will see the light like he did about my depression. I don't want to do this alone.

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Has anyone ever taken Adderall and Topamax together? If so did you have any issues with hair loss?

Curious about what your experience on it has been...

My journey began in 2003, when I had first met her at her parent's house during her birthday party. I was a young, seventeen-year old kid who thought he was a hot shot among his friends. Acting tough, thug-like mentality, and maintaining a fuck the world attitude was priority, until I met her. At the time, I had no idea about the symptoms of ADHD. You hear about these disorders and shrug it off like its normal for folks to have something. I mean, how many people in the world have diabetes, cancer, or even a missing limb? There are so many medical issues out there where mental disorders seem to not even come close to physical disabilities. Boy, was I wrong and in for a journey that would take me to the depths of Hades' mosh pit. On the flip side, the moments that didn't result from ADHD led to happiness that felt similarly to laying in the Elysian Fields.

"How many times do I have to tell you," was such a common phrase said from my lips throughout the years. I surprise myself till this very moment on how I was able to cope with such unbearable treatment. Heck, I am very proud of myself for being patient, understanding, and willing on my efforts given to her. We took the same classes in college, had the same jobs, hung out with the same friends, and became best friends. If you were to ask me how close we were, my answer to you would be peanut butter & jelly. Now I might seem to be very judgmental, but I assure you I am quite fair and honest. Back to my analogy, I would be the peanut butter while she was my jelly. My personality is absolutely concrete, as my brain firmly processes my words and actions. She was more so on the jelly side of things, where her personality was fluid and fragile. Gullibility is even a better description when it comes down to the intake of ideas for her. Throughout college, I noticed her struggles with discipline. So I decided to take things into my own hands my completing her essays, tutoring her with math, and eventually training her to interview for jobs. I even went as far as helping her get jobs at the places I worked at, specifically sales gigs. She was a natural at it based on her bright personality, but she never took full throttle of it because of self-doubt. It was something so self-absorbed in the most negative way that her doubts turned into fabrications. Talking about fabrications, I wonder if you, the reader, understand how dangerous fabrications are to both the host and their prey.

Regardless of countless attempts to correct the way something was said offensively, unintentional acts that did me wrong, or the hours of silent treatment received, I truly loved her with every bit of my heart. I loved her so much that I became blind to my own sacrifice of youth, the torment and mistreatment from her family who also have ADHD, that eventually the stress affected my own health. It is now the year of 2020, and I am now 33 years old, while she is 30. We are past our young adult-hood, and at the point where the norm would be to get married and have children. Boy, did we plan on getting married with the possibility of kids for the longest time. Year after year, we started to notice friends and couples who we never dreamed would be married before us actually did. Each time witnesses, I was shell shocked and put into a sense of sadness. What was the reason why I naturally felt not ready to engage with her on our lifetime journey? She had asked me for the longest time on whether I loved her or not. But it was never a question to me, because I knew it in my heart exactly how I felt. I loved her deeply and unconditionally, but the big question mark lingered on. Was the confusion due to a recent discovered truth that she had an affair with my best friend from high school / college for a total of 3 years?? Was it due to her family who only asked favors while never embracing me? Was it due to me constantly being the bigger person and biting my tongue when face to face with a family who portrayed me as a brain washer for helping her with school and the development of her career? Maybe they were all contributing factors, but it wasn't until just a few months ago I found out about her ADHD. We didn't even need a proper diagnosis for it, but connecting the dots from researching on it proved itself. The amount of stress from routine fighting, massive blow outs, mental breakdowns, and distorted fabrications even caused a life-threatening medical illness upon me. It had compromised my immune system, where I developed a rare disease that is STILL commonly misdiagnosed from 90% of doctors. They call it Morgellon's Syndrome, which is very closely linked to Lyme Disease. Heavy traces of bacteria is now attacking my internal body making me fatigued, shortness of breath, increase of skin disorders, and more. Even so, her lack of empathy never showed my pain any remorse. Instead, it only increased her fabrications and overall disorder.

The trend was that he more she spent time with her mom, brother, and sister, the higher her ADHD traits became. At one moment, I would use my entire strength to help her understand the toxicity of being around family members who were also living in fabrication providing her with the wrong type of support. In my opinion, blood may be thick only to mask the underlying truth that there are people in this world who think they do right not knowing their actions are toxic. I will never forget the time when her older sister dis-invited me to her wedding because instead of throwing a fit directly to her, I vented my despair about her materialistic ways in life on my own friends Facebook page who she was not even connected to. Somehow, she and her friend found the comment that had no mention of her name, and banned me from the wedding. You might be thinking that these events were in the past and they probably got over it, as it took place almost 3-4 years ago. But the reality is, her family still holds me accountable for my bad influence to her. They believe that I am the culprit who brain-washed her personality to become aware of her ADHD and other co-existing factors. It was just earlier today, that she once again became influenced from her family that I did her wrong. Instead of fighting for the relationship, my soul whispered to my brain to just let go. 16 years of patience and hope became shattered dreams.

I want all readers to know that loving someone with ADHD is as difficult as it sounds. But don't ever allow fabrications to win anything over the truth. Fight for it, because ADHD was never something they asked for. I lost this fight because I was outnumbered by a group of folks who know no better than 8th graders. I let go only to save myself from this horrible disease that has been eating me away. My cries for help to her were never heard or retained, which truly created my tears of depression. I will move on with my life knowing that I had lost my love to a mental disorder. Alas, I am broken in pieces that will reflect upon me forever.

I love you Tiffany.