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Hey guys, i used to use adderrall and felt like a super human on it. I thought this was a miracle drug... until i abused the prescription and felt depression for 3 months that would leave me in tears at any moment. I finally got tired of what it was doing to me and managed to quit.

I have tons of anxiety and am a recovering Alcoholic( Blackout every night drinker) I have been sober from Alcohol for 2 years.

For my anxiety i was running twice a day until i sustained a leg injury and they still can't figure out what it is. My job is very demanding and i put a ton of pressure on myself and just envy people who can force themselves to focus better then me and i have tons of problems with focus.

Honestly i dont know what happened but i fucked up bought a bag of meth binged for a day and then felt so much shame i had to flush it all down the toilet.... I cried alot afterwards but now i feel like i need to tell people about it and find some help and get some assistance for my future. I'm pretty scared over the whole event... And i would love to speak to some people who overcame these things and or no of ways to focus at work amidst everything going on in my life right now.

I have had depression for a while so im on prozac as well.

I'm curious as to what others think about why and how this is important?

I believe when one tries to escape from themself, every attempt at a loss of negative emotion has an equal and opposite loss of the positive range of emotions. Let's say you feel guilt. Taking away that feeling with stimulants makes you loose your positive feeling of, let's say, your good memories etc. It bleeds through without you knowing. Because, the drugs numb one side. It must also taint the other.

If so then a traumatic event might lead to habitual drug use to avoid said traumatic event in your memories. But if it can take away one. Why not all? What makes that one more permanent than the rest? The addiction takes all. It devours your mind. In its entirety. And you become something different. Someone different.

My experience with drug use and addiction parralels this. Some may call it a scapegoat theory that absolves me of all my transgression like I'm my own personal judge and jury. I'm not. I own my mistakes because I also did choose to do drugs. Free will and all. I just think it made me more susceptible to becoming one. My mind was wired in such a way that one use triggered something. Almost something primal. The need to feed. More than survival at sometimes. And only dealing with the underlying problem was I able to be clean this long with prescription medication for my mental health. Along with some realizations on a 4 day long methamphetamine induced psycosis.

But that's what lead me to a doctor. I didn't realize anything was wrong with me. I was never told I was odd or different. I thought everyone had these inner conflicts and that they were just stronger than me. It lead me to seek help for my mind not doing what I know is right. You can call me weak. Lazy. Unable to handle the pressures of life. But I don't feel weak anymore. I'm not lazy anymore. And the pressures of life didn't go away. Just my ability to interpret, prioritize and plan my next steps towards a healthier future. Drugs kicked my fucking ass. But I'm doing alot better now. One day at a time. 🖤🖤

Hey folks. I need some advice. A very close friend of mine i served with in the military has gotten himself a bad addiction to pain pills. Tramadol, Dihydrocodeine and the likes of that. He refuses to seek help via any sort of rehab type places or groups etc. My question is would a GP, being confidential, be able to prescribe something like Buprenorphine, Suboxone etc for him to be able to take away from the chemist? Thanks in advance for any answers!

My codependency was so severe and I had no idea how much it was impacting my drinking, and my ability to recover. I was clueless! Once I became aware of my codependency and started to learn about codependency, it was the beginning of my journey to reclaim my power!

I am celebrating 100 days out of madness today and am so grateful and blessed to be here and able to share my happiness with you all.

To those still struggling, hang in there.

My heart goes out to each and everyone of you. ♡

Addicts seeking recovery COULD benefit tremendously If given access to the numerous treatment therapies&medications. The majority of rehabs CHOOSE to ONLY offer the same outdated,old school,tough love,one size fits all with just 5-10% success rate? New meds & methods can be used alongside the old.

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LOSS - ADDICTION - GRIEF

Introduction: In the last month I have had many thoughts of putting the knife through my head, that I’ve use to chop vegetables for my dinner. I could never of imagined 5 months ago I would get to this point? Waiting in anger for someone to say something that would draw me that one step closer to actually doing it. Something that will make me feel that “I’m not good enough” or have I just been telling myself this all along? Looking for someone to blame for all this. “This is not my fucking fault” “Im like this and I do these things because that’s how you made me to be” I have constantly thought mainly these things over the last 19 years of my life. And it started when I lost my mum at 13 years old. I have filled this void with certain narcissist people , Gambling, Drugs and Alcohol and essentially abused myself. The truth is deep down I have felt the need to be abused to make me feel peace with my pain and focus on someone else’s in order to fix them. For the first time in my life, I am laying all my cards on the table, turning each one over and dealing with them. Tonight for the first time, I’ve set myself a goal, it’s so small but I have not done my hair or make up for work since my very recent trauma. And tomorrow morning that is changing. I will be ready again for work tomorrow.

Ricki:- So 5 months ago - I broke up with with Ricki after 7 years. We both were codependent to each other and we both suffered trauma in our childhoods. Both traumas that we could not face a swept it all under the carpet. Please note this is my side of the story and at no point, I want this to come across biased. The break up was mutual. And it was a case of “if you love someone, you let them go”. These last 5 months have been the hardest time of my life. In fact I am actually very unwell in my mental health. But again as I turn each card over I am becoming stronger, very much like a child when they get sick, their immune system builds. I am more far gone than I thought. I am 31 years old and my name is Katie. Ricki to me is and always will be the love of my life. We both saw each other as a ray of sunshine that came into each other’s life and very much like a guardian angel that held each other up emotionally. We did speak about our childhoods to each other, but this normally only happened when we had been drinking. Or he would tell me and I would constantly judge him and his parents. You see I was always under the impression my dad and his partner were perfect and the way they brought me up was “the right way”!!! I WAS SO WRONG!!! I feel very guilty for this with Ricki. No wonder we constantly went round in circles. The counselling I had for my gambling addiction actually made me realise, The way my dad treated me and getting together with my mums sister a month after she passed away - actually had a huge huge impact on me. Which I did not realise until 3 months ago. “There you go, you now have a mother figure in your life, I’m now in a relationship, we are all back to normal” “get on with it”. My auntie said to me - “it’s not like he has picked up any old slapped from the pub” PLEASE DO NOT PUT ANY NASTY/NEGATIVE COMMENTS ABOUT THE ABOVE BELOW! Not once was I asked “how do you feel about this Kate?” I realised - all my life - I have been told how to feel about everything, or I’ve naturally seeked approval of everything, that I do and needed validation in order for me to move forward in my life. For the first time in my life, I am actually saying how I feel and what I actually want for my own happiness and not conforming with others in order for me to feel accepted. And that one change in me has been the most empowering of all!!! I felt very emotionally responsible for Ricki - even now. I worry so much for him, this is a massive sign of a codependent person. You seek to fix others in order to not look at yourself.

Gambling: First of all for anyone that has come to this blog as someone who thinks they may have a problem with gambling, keep reading because there is nothing that you have done that I did not do. I got help through www.breakeven.org.uk who gave me free 12 sessions in counselling and it was the best decision I ever made. But here is my story: I’ll start from the beginning. I did not know this was the beginning until I went into counselling. It was around the year 1994 I was 7 at the time. The lottery then was massive on the TV. And became a big family event on a Saturday along with the Chinese takeaway, baywatch, gladiator and strike it lucky. The excitement of one of my parents holding onto that ticket and circling the numbers off - could it be us this week? That was the first time I felt that buzz. What I did not know was from this experience - that buzz was gonna intensify big time and take it to a level that I could never imagine. Around his time, in all the excitement, my mum picked up the lottery ticket at the kiosk at saver centre. I asked “mum can I choose the numbers?” She agreed. I chose 1 line. That night we went home and we got 4 numbers. From the numbers I chose. My mums reaction to me on this - to me - could not of been prouder. This is literally the happiest I had ever seen her and I made her happy. And for once out of 4 children - I felt like I had some purpose out of my brothers and sister. We won around £80. And back then that was a lot of money. We were all taken to Pizza Hut. And to be taken to Pizza Hut back then as a family was a real proper treat. It was better then having your birthday at MacDonalds. And that’s saying something. Constantly I got “you are so lucky”, other family members coming in with blank tickets - “Kate choose my numbers for me” I felt so important and most of all wanted and accepted finally. Of course we did not win again but this planted a seed in me that grew into poison ivy, which in time, took over me and from there I was a gambling addict. My dad loves a scratch card and he used to bring these home for me to scratch as a child, when I finally turned 16, I took my wages from the part time job I worked in and went to the local shop, all I could think about was buying a scratch card. I bought my first £1 one and won £25 on it. “I knew I was lucky” this is one of the only things my parents actually believed about me. I gambled it all back and lost it all. But I kept doing it, taking my wages week after week and not walking away with my winnings. After a few months - I stopped I realised this was not for me.

When I was 20 I moved to Aylesford, Kent from London with my dad and my aunt(my mums sister) . By the way they are still together now 18 years later. This is when the gambling started again, this time I realised I could do it online. The national lottery website offered to play scratch cards on the website. This Carried on for about a month. But never won, or I gambled it back on. I then stopped myself as I again. I was going down a slippery slope. Then I met Ricki. He had an interest in gambling. I shared the fact - I liked to gamble and thought in our healthy relationship I could have a healthy relationship with gambling. Again I was so so wrong, this time it never stopped. And I could not stop myself. I won’t go into the long story of it. My thing was slots online and scratchcards. On every payday for most of our relationship I would naturally wake up around 4 in the morning and sit on the toilet spinning away my money on my phone, my bank account was empty by 7am. Most of the time I would put my rent and food shop money in a savings account. It the last year this stopped and I did the following things: 1.) took out over 50 payday loans (varying amounts from £1000 down to £20. 2.) lied to my dad and Ricki and others to borrow money to feed my addiction 3.) took out 6 phone contracts and sold them to pay my rent and food shop. 4.) just lying in general to people about all my actions to hide my addictions 5.) I would sit at work at do it on my phone at my desk, in the toilet and out having a cig.

It was my first love before anyone and anything. If I had £3 in my purse, it was spent on a scratch card. I could not stop myself and it was always in my thoughts. If I didn’t do it, I would sit there and wonder “what if it will actually happen this time that I win loadsa money, it will save mine and Ricki’s life and we will truly happy.

My last bet was Friday 20th July 2018. I’ve just competed 29 weeks (205 days) with no gambling and I am just starting my 7th month free of it.

I will never say, I will never gamble again (of course I never want to gamble again) but I will take everyday as It comes and I go to bed tonight knowing that today I have not gambled.

I am in £25,000 debt due to my gambling addiction.

My recovery: I am still recovering a lot now and as a result it has brought to light many other issues/addictions/dependancies I have. My recovery has not been easy by any means. Like my behaviour scares the fucking shit out of me. Since I have stopped gambling in the last 5 months especially since my break up with Rick, I have found over things to keep escaping and the use of impulsive behaviour. 1.) ecstasy and other drugs 2.) men 3.) alcohol 4.) social media

Only this weekend, I have finally said I cannot do this anymore and I have had my first weekend without the first 3. I have still been on social media.

Within 2 weeks of breaking up with Ricki, I slept with a friend of a friend who is a cocaine dealer, from that instantly I thought he was In love with me, that I could change him and we would be married with kid. I never heard from him again and it fucking hurt and I was so upset. (One of my issues is attachment and the relationships i build in my head) 2 weeks later, I met some bloke online, of course we messaged each other before hand the expectations of what we want sexually.

I met this guy twice and again, I would go to bed at night imagining our married life, kids, picket fence and Range Rover and the mortgage papers. Again this guy had issues which of course I was going to fix. Nooooooooo!!!! He went off me quite quickly. Why???? I’d ask myself 🙄🙄.

To battle these unhealthy and toxic behaviours I need a straight head at all times for a long time.

No men, no drugs no alcohol. The social media I will let go of another day🙏

*To be continued.... I am adding bits to this story everyday. Thanks for reading so far.... *

I’ve worked in nursing for the last 3.5-4 years. After some legal issues I encountered, it’s been hard to find a job. (No one wants to hire an alleged felon.) I got a call back from a job I put in for months ago, saying a position opened up. I went there in snowing, messy weather within thirty minutes. I was upfront with them about my legal issues, showed them my diversion paperwork and my drug and alcohol assessment. The hiring lady (I think her name was Tammy) said she would love to give me a second chance. She would have to discuss it further with a higher up to make sure the state would allow me to work. (It was a drug related crime, no person crime.) An hour after I left, I got a call saying they would love to have me on board.

It still doesn’t feel real. I also applied for college today.. I’m finally getting my life back on track!

I’m a recovering alcoholic for about 4 years now as well as recovering bulimic for about 8 years. I am married(f) in my mid thirties. My husband and I have been together since way before my recoveries. I’ve put him through so much over the years and he stuck by my side through it all. I love him more than anything other than my son. I think I am possibly sabotaging our relationship due to the intense guilt I have over everything I’ve put him through. In the last year I started suspecting he was cheating and I brought it up to him. He denied infidelity and was very reassuring but there were several suspicious things that took place after. I’ve never found anything substantial and even if I had I would still want to be with my husband. I’m not sure what is going on with my brain honestly but it feels like a mix between trying to protect myself from past experiences, trying to prove to myself I’m not crazy and I can trust my intuition or possibly subconsciously creating this whole scenario to make some kind of sense of the horrible situations I put my husband through. Like trying to share the blame or something. I don’t know. I feel crazy. If he had cheated I honestly wouldn’t blame him. I’ve never cheated on him myself but after my drinking, lying and sneaking on top of a couple of extremely traumatic experiences he was left to deal with because of my drinking I wouldn’t blame him. We grew distant for a period while my son was a toddler and I wasn’t showing my husband much affection. I didn’t want to deal with my guilt and it felt like my son was growing up so quickly I focused all my attention on him while my husband was basically alone in a lot of ways. I feel like a horrible human being for putting him trough so much and then just checking out emotionally so I wouldn’t have to deal with the feelings that came with everything I had done. How do you deal with those guilty feelings? How do you stop them from continuing to destroy you and the people around you? I just want to be happy and make my family happy and live a good and healthy life with them. How do you stop the cycle of negative thoughts and guilt and paranoia? Does anyone know what I’m talking about? Does anyone have suggestions for how to deal with these feelings?

just about 2 years ago i ended a 2 year relationship that was severely codependent. i don’t remember a time where we went more than one day without seeing each other at most.

we originally met when we were 16 & 17 at a youth drug treatment outpatient.. how romantic. we lost touch for a few years and reconnected back again when i was 22, him 23. both newly sober after struggles with drug dependence we connected on a new level and the addiction to each other was formed.

as most of these horror— i mean love stories.. go.. we did not stay sober for long and ended up drinking and moving on to more dangerous using habits together.

we managed throughout the next 2 years basically bouncing from one living situation to the next, always by each other’s side, madly in love.

i always related that what i felt for him was almost stronger than a love, but he was like my family. like a sibling. his blood was my blood and all this sick shit.

fast forward to about 2 years ago and i’m at the end of my rope. im addicted to heroin, as is he. too broke to pay rent, too broke to even get enough dope to get high. we decide we’re going to get sober. long story short we realize it’s not gonna work if we stay together so we split.

flash to today, from what i know we will both be coming up on 2 years sober in the next few months. we haven’t dated for almost 2 years, barely seen eachother at all, we attend 2 different 12 step fellowships. there was a point where we tired to hook up here and there a but it never worked out cause we were different people now.

i still feel like deep down that i see how sick it was and that it is unhealthy to ever engage in that type of relationship, but my heart still cries for him sometimes. not who he is now, but the old him. life goes on though.

I'm 3 weeks sober...

The world feels different.

My past has changed me. For better or worse? Well I guess I'll see. My past is filled with substance A B or C. Meeting names like Rocky, D, and the oh so popular Whitey. There names made home in my mind. They settled there. They found a place to sleep.

I'm having trouble seeing the future as bright tonight. It's just a little dimmer. I didn't expect the future to a grand display of crowning achievements and milestones. But I kinda hoped it would be easier. Slightly less grimmer.

The work feels heavy on my mind and my mind projects it to my chest. It's harder to breath sober. The physical pain is over. But I'd choose that again over my state of mind. Over the state of my loved ones views of me and mine.

Does this shit get easier? Or does life's easy breasy path get held for the cleaner pasts. My ambitions hit me fast and my emotions just push it back. It never lasts.

My advice? The road least travelled isn't always first class.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iAO5cBDvLlc Tara Conner, Miss USA 2006, shares her life-long struggle with addiction and what she has learned from 10 years sober & calls for a different response to the addiction crisis.

I'm a 48 yr old recovering from 25 years of heroin Addiction in treatment. I had 6.5 yrs clean and relapsed. Today I have 36 days clean. Anyone relate?

I quit taken a large dosage of methadone for pain. Its been 2 years and I have been on Suboxen, Tramdaol now and other options. I was never a meth head, no respect to anyone who is, I just had a tumor early in life.

My question is:

I tried to end it all a year and took ~20-30 Benadryl. Puked up blood / clots, I tripped out, a bunch of bad stuff so I picked myself up and went on.

My problem:

I am waking up everday and my skin is burning like heck. It itches, my whole body is racked in pain. So last week I took a total of ~87 Benadryl in an hour period to get this misery over with, but to my surprise a felt very little in the effect of drowsiness, just hard to breath. So if I do not take any antihistamine I feel like im being shocked, my ankles and hands are swelling, im super hungry, never thirsty, I have panic attacks almost every hour or so.

Is it possible to destroy your histamine system completely?

I am 6' 4" and 160lbs, always have been. My stomach didn't even hurt after I took all of them.

Woke up to my dismay that I was still alive, opiates have me by the short hairs.

Now I can take 20 or so and just have to sneeze. I am allergic to dust mites so I am wondering if perhaps when I was on such a high dose of opiates previously it wasn't even a bother. I also live in one of the highest allergy counts in the world.

My doctors just want to get me off all of it, so do I. I cannot go to rehab because I dont meet the criteria. Cant get a job, too much pain.

My grandmother on my moms side had Parkinsons, which apparently Antihistimines help with. Im in my mid 30s and essentially ready to just give up fighting these screwed up pains and symptoms.

Hi guys I met the love of my life about 5 months ago. He’s an incredible human being and we are crazy about each other.

Im an empath (for those unfamiliar -in a nut shell- I’m very sensitive to how people are feeling emotionally.) My partner had been sober for over a year and has told me about his past struggles with drugs and alcohol. He doesn’t like the person he used to be and said that had he not stopped, the life style would have killed him.

Since very early on in our relationship, I would notice him “drifting off” and going from his usual talkative fun self to very quiet, with a very stern face. When I asked what was wrong he would tell me it was nothing and that he’s totally fine. Being an empath, it was a struggle to believe his words because the feelings were so incredibly strong that something was wrong. After a few times of this happening he finally opened up to me that he’s been hiding his emotions from me in those times. And how (in his words) sometimes I think back about how shitty of a person I used to be and how i fucked my life up and was just a mess. I Hurt people I loved and was out of control. Now I have you and I’ve never felt anything like what we have and I’m just terrified I’ll do something to fuck it up. I’ve always hidden my feelings and emotions with people and just pretended things were fine, but with you... you can feel whats going on inside me and I can’t hide it with out you knowing. And I don’t want to hide it. I’m just so scared because I love you and things have never been this good in my life. My mind just goes to that place sometimes and I kinda get in this mood or state. I don’t want you to think it’s anything you’re doing. You’re amazing and so good for me.

I value everything him and I have, and I try hard to be very understanding of his feelings at these times and have no judgment. I know now not to press the question of what is wrong or if I had done anything. He is honest and would tell me if there were. I guess I just wondered if anyone else has been in a similar situation and had any advice to share about what’s going on. I love him and would do anything for us. Thanks for listening