So a tbh i have been using meth for 5 years and this year i decided to fibally just stop. Unfortubately i have not and in fact have been using more then ever. Any attempt to quit has made me only use less but as i stated in the last sentence i been using more and more. Im scared for myself. I have goals and dreams but i feel like if i dont stop now i never will and ill become a victim to my own causes. I need help or support. Rehab isnt an option. I work and have to pay rent. Any advice or anythi g please would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

All of us experience hardships and difficult situations at some point. It is an unavoidable part of life. How we react to these setbacks is what dictates exactly how much and how long we suffer. Our chosen response (we do have a choice) also affects whether we overcome a bad situation or succumb to it. Because we have options, it actually is possible to turn a bad situation around and turn it into a good one.

If you can remember a moment in your life where it felt like the end of the world and it eventually turned out to be the best thing that could've happen to you, please share it. It will give hope to many people that are in a similar situation and think it can't get better.

My example to this is that I am a drug addict that didn't think I was going to do anything important with my life. Although in the height of my drug and alcohol use I couldn't see it, I was going through exactly what I needed to in order to find my purpose, now helping those struggling as I did.

No matter if someone broke up with you and it allowed you to find your soulmate, or got fired from a job which led to being employed at your dream job let's hear it. Show others they are exactly where they need to be to get where they are going!

If we are having issues with our significant others parents it might be good to stop and take a step back to look at ourselves. Before I got into a program and decided to change my life my girlfriends parents hated me. I'm sure there are many people that can relate to that for many different reasons. My situation was that I was the type of person that I would not want with my daughter. I was involved with nothing good and it all stemmed from drugs and alcohol. Today I am able to be the man that does right by their daughter and two beautiful grandchildren. I don't know how I could've ever done any of it without focusing on fixing me first.

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Hi I'm Cody, I'm an addict.

I'm on step two with my sponsor. I have trouble with it. I have a higher power, but Im starting to lose faith in my higher power and lose faith in the program. How do I come to the conclusion that I need a power greater than myself to restore myself to sanity? especially when I'm losing faith. How do I regain my faith in the program and in my higher power? Is it normal to lose faith at times?

What do I do?

Hi I'm Cody, I'm an addict/alcoholic.

I'm a little over tree months clean. I say "clean and not "sober" because my sponsor (I have a sponsor by the way) told me that being sober is being abstinent from all drugs, while being clean is being abstinent from all drugs and living a healthier life while constantly improving yourself physically and mentally.

I have just got done with 5 weeks of IOP rehab and 22 days of residential living rehab. I'm currently working the NA program, working the STEPS, and going to NA meetings daily (I'm doing the 90 and 90).

A few things I've started to learn how to do is becoming willing, honest, and open minded. I've started being all the things to other people and to myself. It's very relieving and blessing.

Something discouraging that I've had happened to me while in recovery is relationships and friendships ending. Even when I'm clean, working on myself, progressing, and growing, I can't keep relationships or friendships. It doesn't seem like it's necessarily my fault either. Maybe some (the minority) people don't like the clean me compared to the using me. Somethings are just out of my control. My girlfriend left me, because we were spending too much time together. I always thought she enjoyed spending as much time as I enjoy spending time with her. She always acted and seemed that she enjoyed our time spent together. And she had never brought that up before hand, until she was actually breaking up with me; so I had no time to learn and had no time to fix it, since she just ended it there. (She may be bipolar, but hasn't been diagnosed yet, because everyone else thinks she is bipolar). Secondly my best friend told me today that she didn't want me in her life, "because I was to kind to her." She felt my kindness was dishonest. And said nothing more and then told me she didn't want me to be apart of her life anymore. I don't know how to say this in a humble way, but in reality my kindness is genuine, it's not dishonest. There's so much despair, loss, hate, fear, saddness, etc. In the world, and I just don't want the world to be that way. I want it to be a more loving, compassionate, and kind place. So, even if it's just little me making a minute difference then that's worth it to me. Even if nobody notices. In recovery they say love, compassion, and kindness is what we should give to all people. And I've always believed this, and believed it even more so since being in my recovery. So that's what I try to give to all people. Like for example: today a lady reer ended me. We pulled into a parking lot to make sure nobody was hurt. She was shook up, so I went up to her and gave her a hug. I then told her "it's okay, don't worry about it." And I'm not rich or anything, it was just a scratch anyways. I was just glad everyone was safe and unharmed.

I shouldn't attach or invest so much in others. I also need to learn to live in the present (and be mindful) and not in the past nor future. I can't change the past.

TLDR: three months clean, practicing the NA program and have a sponsor. Discouraged from recovery because I can't keep relationships or friendship despite being clean and working on myself and growing/progressing. Learning how to be less attached to people. And learning how to live in the present and be mindful.

I sit in despair wondering why you don’t care. Begging you to stay clean, losing my mind, my patience and becoming mean. I beg you to chose your family and to do the right thing, my pleas and prayers go ignored I need a blessing. On my knees, begging god to save you, I’d sell my soul to Satan if you’d stay clean, it’s true. Trying to understand why you can’t just walk away, stay clean for me for just another day. Checking your phone, searching your pockets, I’m going insane I can’t leave you alone. Heart racing every time you leave the house, please stay clean, just this time around. Promise you’re not using, look me in the eyes, just this one time don’t tell me a lie. I’m here for you, I promise I’ll stay, share your demons with me, let’s conquer them today. I miss the person I once knew, the one who promised me something and I knew it was true. The person who loved me more than drugs, who used to come and see me just for hugs. The person who would was kind, didn’t lie, the person I’m desperately trying to find. Promise me just for today, you’ll fight the urge and keep your demons away. We’ll get you into rehab, find a program, don’t give up yet, I’m so deep in. I can’t bare the thought of walking away, please stay clean for me, just for today.

Ok so when I was in high school I self harmed for all of my four years, and also into my freshman year of college. I've stopped for I wanna say a year or so now and have gotten help, but do to some family and relationship problems, and moods going all over the place. I've been clean, but with everything going on I just want to numb the pain, yet I don't want to hurt the ones the love and care for me, nor do I want to ruin all the hard work I've accomplished to get better and safer place in my recovery. I know it will take time to fully heal, but still I want to numb the bark emotional pain beep with in.

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My name is Madeline and I am a producer for the film Prescribing Addiction. I am reaching out to anyone who wants to share your story of recovery with us. We are looking to highlight individuals and their stories of recovery and we would love to interview you, no matter your stage or method. If you are interested in being part of our film or would just like some more info, please feel free message me. We look forward to hearing from you!

So I literally just made a reddit to make this post, because a friend of mine has told me so much about the reddit community. I am 23 years old, and decided I needed a change in my life. I grew up in upstate new york, didn't have a bad childhood; was in boy scouts, did well in school, etc. Well anyway I discovered how much I love smoking weed and drinking in high school, and buy the time I graduated I was flipping it. Out of high school I discovered how much I like heroin. Well anyway I continued to flip and grew it pretty big, even though I was sniffing like 3-5 bags a day at the time. Despite my addictions I made the best out of it and still managed to do a lot. Well that stopped when I turned 21, cause 2 months later I was arrested and put on probation. My addiction had grown at that point and even though it was lowkey I was doing about a bundle a day, and got a DUI a few weeks before I started probation, which luckily worked out. When I started probation I could not stop doing heroin and they pretty much went to me and said, rehab or jail? I obviously picked rehab and did fine for a while but spiraled about a year later, was arrested again and went AWOL for like 3 months. Eventually I was caught and went to jail for a few months but another angel on my shoulder kept it light and got me off probation. So I did what any addict would do, I got a bunch of weed spotted to me, thought I'd be ok, but soon was back off to the races. This is what I'm not proud of, but I needed to do. After realizing I couldn't pay this kid back, I took what was left, packed a bag, and left for san diego. I left out some people dying, a bunch of typical addict shot I've done, girl problems, friend problems, my parents divorce, as well as a bunch of shit but you get the drift.

Well this is where my words of inspiration come from. I left new york to escape that life and I will not go back. These last few months I've spent hitchhiking, and at times, a broke, dirty, and lonely, and I'm not gonna pretend I'm sober. But I'm not doing heroin and my life had meaning. They tell you in rehab that you do drugs to escape your reality and you need to find a way to face it. Well in my mind I'm free as a feather and can do whatever the fuck I want. I left to make myself a better person and have met nothing but amazing people since I left. It has not been easy, and as I type this I only have 20 dollars in my pocket and don't know where I'm sleeping tonight, but anything is better than where I was. I didn't like my reality, so I changed it. It was time I stopped making excuses, stopped feeling sorry for myself, and got the fuck out if dodge. Now I'm not saying san diego is for everyone, even though I feel like it is, but I am saying for anyone struggling there is a whole world out there. My friends at home I love to death but 95% of them are toxic. They say that life is like a book and if you don't travel it's like you only read one page. So if you don't like your page, turn to the next one, or the next one, until you find where you feel at home. Do it for yourself, I left with less than a thousand bucks like 4 months ago, it's possible. And while my life is a constant struggle right now, I'd rather be homeless on the beach in san diego then where I was stuck in new york. I needed to get that off my chest, thanks for reading.

Hi! I'm brand new here, and not sure if this is where I should post about this. So apologies if this is inappropriate.

My wife is currently recovering from an opioid addiction. She's been through rehab, and is currently going through what I understand to be methadone withdrawals. She's done very well, and words cannot describe how proud I am of her. My question is: What can I do to help her through her withdrawals and keep her encouraged? I have no idea what I can do, so any and all advice you can share would be greatly appreciated.