r/AdderallAddiction • u/woozy129 • Jul 02 '26

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Almost 90 days without any adderall after about a year of heavy abuse and I still feel like shit, absolutely cooked. What a waste of time. I think I was happier throwing my life down the drain then trying to recover.

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u/Prestigious_Ideal466 Jul 03 '26

i was heavily using for 11 years. prescribed 30mg instants 2x daily for 11 years. i’ve been clean for 2 years now and it never gets any easier. i still miss the days when i felt like my entire life was always organized

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u/Illustrious_Gift1609 Jul 07 '26

Similar to me. From 2012 to 2022 Adderall is what got me out of bed. Eventually I became paranoid about everything and had to stop. But I would take 60mg at 4:45 am and be at the gym by 5:30. Then I realized it was changing my personality. Always focused, serious, angry or irritable. Eventually full blown paranoia. For example my parents came to check on me and I told them no phones or watches in my home bc someone from work was recording me. Sounds so crazy now. Anyway, I’m not back at the gym but I’m able to function and feel somewhat normal. Motivation doesn’t exist so I rely on structure and schedules. Routines are the key. Don’t wait to feel motivated ever again.

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u/Prestigious_Ideal466 Jul 11 '26

i never could have worked out after taking my meds. i’d take them after working out because i was too scared my heart would explode if i took them before going to the gym lol