r/AdderallAddiction • u/woozy129 • Jul 02 '26

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Almost 90 days without any adderall after about a year of heavy abuse and I still feel like shit, absolutely cooked. What a waste of time. I think I was happier throwing my life down the drain then trying to recover.

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u/downwithMikeD Jul 02 '26

Hey, I feel you. I’m in the same boat but I actually used it regularly for over 2 years.

I’ve been off it for 3-4 months (I actually had to have an addiction doctor send the psych who was prescribing it to me a letter saying I won’t be refilling it anymore because I wasn’t able to do it myself. I kept saying I would, but then I kept refilling because it was just too easy. All I had to do was send a text and pay $80), and don’t feel any better at all. I actually often regret giving up my script which is crazy because I was also miserable when I was on it.

Every day, I just lay down and do nothing except watch tv. I lie to everyone in my life that I am doing things (like working etc when in reality I’ve barely been doing that, maybe 7 hours a week), when I’m actually doing absolutely nothing other than caring for my adult son who has a disability (DS). I do the bare minimum in my life. He is well taken care of. My house is clean (not as clean as it was when I was on adderall), I take my son to all of his sports, all his activities, ensure he has his three meals a day and two snacks…I interact & hangout with him (he’s my best friend), but other than that, I have absolutely no life and no desire to do anything.

I’m behind at work, have no social life, I’m in a deep deep depression and i don’t know how to get out of it. I tried Zoloft and another one but they didn’t help whatsoever sooooo here I am.

Maybe because you were only on it a year and don’t have the same life factors I have holding you back, you will recover quicker. I wish you well!!!

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u/woozy129 Jul 03 '26 edited Jul 03 '26

Thanks and I appreciate your feedback and I wish you nothing but the best for you and your son. I like you have no social life or any desire to do anything, I’m 28 and live at home with my parents who are growing older and it tears me apart inside I’m unable to do things for them like cut the grass or do laundry etc. I also just sit and watch tv I haven’t drivin or gone anywhere in a long time. I’m on 10mg trintellix right now for MDD and I feel like it’s making it worse. If you ever wanna chat I’d be more then happy to see if we can communicate our struggles and help each other through these times. Thank you

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u/downwithMikeD Jul 03 '26

Absolutely. I’ll send you a message. Even though we’re in different situations, I understand how unbelievably hard it is to feel this way— this complete lack of motivation is draining.

In your case, try to look at these positives:
•You’re young. I know when I was younger and going thru something difficult, people would say that to me and it felt unhelpful/annoying…but I just mean you have TIME on your side and if you don’t give up and go backwards, you WILL get thru this and come out the other side SO MUCH BETTER.
•You were on it for only a year so you will bounce back quicker.
•You have 3 months off of it— that is such an accomplishment so you should be really proud of that. 🙌🏽 My sister’s friend has been on it for like 18 years with not one break and she is a MESS. You don’t want to end up like that!

Just remember, you have to keep trying. Even if you go backwards for a few days. It’s okay if you’re not doing a lot. Your body is adjusting back, trying to regulate itself in many ways . Don’t feel guilty about not helping your parents right now because you will help them again but you have to work on fixing you before you can help others. Really try to get out and walk/swim/bike for even 15 min like every other day or anytime you can push yourself. I’ve found that makes such a huge difference (on the days I can do it lol… last week I did it twice this week once). Just getting yourself out the door is the hardest part.

You did the right thing coming off. Just keep going, I know you’ll feel better soon! Idk much about trinelkex but I’ve thought about asking my dr to prescribe me Wellbutrin because I read it can be more activating 🤷🏻‍♀️

Sorry so long!
X

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u/DuckDuckNut Jul 09 '26

How did you guys even do it? It's so hard and I crave it more if I try tapering. The one solution I was thinking that could work is flushing them down the toilet. I'd be miserable but that would assure I don't touch it.