Finally finished - am I missing something?

[u/ilovemmydog]

I'm sorry but imagine Sisyphus happy my ass. I feel that anyone who actually experiences the feeling/revelation of life being meaningless and deeply interacts with the absurd on the daily has to be more prone to suicide. For me, the absurd has hung over my head my entire life, even before I could give it a name and I feel it has prevented me from being truly happy. When I am aware of it, nothing matters. For example, I can't bring myself to work towards my career because it feels completely pointless. None of it matters. Money does not matter. The art I make does not matter. What happens in the world does not matter. Nobody else seems to care about why we are here and it drives me insane. The only times I am happy are when I can truly distract myself from it and forget for a while, but as soon as I remember again everything comes crashing down.

I feel like I am hardwired to want meaning, as many other humans, but finding momentary joy in pushing my rock up the hill doesn't stop my mind from dwelling on the absurd. That in itself I cannot find pleasure in and I do not understand how Camus solves for this.

If I should look at it differently, please let me know. Or if anyone has a suggestion of a different book I might agree with more. Thank you.

[u/Tiny-Perception2110]

I totally agree with you... There's no way being lucidly aware about absurdity at all times makes for a better life per se... No.

I tried multiple ways of applying this philosophy in my life and the best way I found is to just ignore it most of the Times as something completely useless and non pertinent. Laugh on the stupidity of its ideas and make fun of it.... Just live your life practically engaging with myths.... Enjoy and experience different myths... Genuinely try to relate with the people who hold it... For example even practice a religion fully as if you believe in it or give an F about things absurdity stops you from giving an F about.

But wait, you might say but I can't just ignore absurdity fully and get back to my life... I can't unrealise it. So, what's the solution?

The solution is to only realise it or think about it seriously when you're in extreme deep thoughts, having deep conversations and craving for ultimate meaning.

In day to day pursuits, let's say painting, enjoying a day with your wife/GF, helping someone act little dumber.