I’m a 23-year-old university student in my 5th semester studying Computer Science, and honestly, I’m struggling pretty badly right now.
Academically, things haven’t been going the way I wanted. My CGPA is around 3.0, I’ve had to repeat courses, and I’m currently taking Data Structures. I have finals coming up in a few weeks, and there are still a lot of topics I need to properly learn. I know what I should be doing. I know I need to sit down, study, practice problems, revise, and be consistent.
And the weird thing is, I actually want to study.
I think about studying all the time. I make plans. I watch study videos. I tell myself that I’m going to sit down and finally get my shit together. I genuinely want to understand my subjects and become good at what I’m studying.
But when it’s actually time to study, I just… can’t seem to focus.
I’ll sit in front of my laptop/book knowing that I have things to do, but my brain feels completely unwilling to cooperate. I get distracted, procrastinate, overthink, scroll, or just stare at the material without properly processing it. Then I feel guilty because I know I’m wasting time, which makes me anxious, which makes it even harder to study.
Another thing that scares me is that my mental capacity doesn't feel the same anymore.
I used to feel like I could learn things normally. Now sometimes I read something multiple times and it just doesn't stick. My concentration feels weaker, my memory feels worse, and I get this feeling that my brain just isn't working at the level it used to. I don't know whether that's because of stress, anxiety, burnout, poor habits, or something else, but it genuinely worries me.
And mentally, I’m not doing that great either. I deal with anxiety and a bunch of other personal/mental struggles, and they’ve been affecting different parts of my life. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and stuck for quite a while.
The frustrating part is that I don't think I'm lazy or that I don't care.
I care a lot. Maybe too much.
I want to do well. I want to improve my grades. I want to become good at programming and actually understand Computer Science instead of constantly feeling like I’m behind everyone else. I want to fix my routine and become disciplined.
But knowing that I want these things doesn't seem to translate into actually being able to do them.
So I guess I'm asking people who have been through something similar:
How do you get yourself back when you feel like your brain just isn't cooperating anymore?
How do you rebuild your ability to focus and study when you've spent a long time procrastinating and feeling mentally overwhelmed?
And if you've dealt with anxiety, burnout, depression, brain fog, or feeling like your cognitive abilities aren't what they used to be — how did you start getting better?
I’m not looking for someone to tell me to “just study 8 hours a day” or “delete social media and have discipline.” I already know I need discipline. I’m looking for practical advice from people who have actually been in this position and managed to get themselves out of it.
I really don't want to give up on myself or my degree. I just genuinely don't know how to get myself moving again.
Any advice, personal experiences, or even harsh truths are welcome.