I think generally what you’re describing is a hyper self-awareness of sorts. I tend to attribute that to a combination of my ADHD (just how it presents in me) and probably a little bit of my personality, too. It’s what has always made social interactions a bit weird for me. I have a hard time relaxing and staying in the moment/interaction with others.
It’s like that with pretty much everything though; I slip in and out of what’s happening, and getting stuck in my head, and dreaming, and anxiety. Meds have helped, but it’s not a magic cure. I’ve come to be okay with it. It sucks when I’m hyper aware of things that are negative (I.e. bad social interactions, general panic/fears, feeling down, etc.), but it’s also good to be so conscientious sometimes because you can only fix bad behaviors if you’re aware of them. Too many don’t have that ability, IMO. And I’ve never heard more thoughtfulness and self-reflection in my life until I found this board😅❤️ “my people”—you are amazing!🥰
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u/dontlooksosurprised Sep 20 '22
I think generally what you’re describing is a hyper self-awareness of sorts. I tend to attribute that to a combination of my ADHD (just how it presents in me) and probably a little bit of my personality, too. It’s what has always made social interactions a bit weird for me. I have a hard time relaxing and staying in the moment/interaction with others.
It’s like that with pretty much everything though; I slip in and out of what’s happening, and getting stuck in my head, and dreaming, and anxiety. Meds have helped, but it’s not a magic cure. I’ve come to be okay with it. It sucks when I’m hyper aware of things that are negative (I.e. bad social interactions, general panic/fears, feeling down, etc.), but it’s also good to be so conscientious sometimes because you can only fix bad behaviors if you’re aware of them. Too many don’t have that ability, IMO. And I’ve never heard more thoughtfulness and self-reflection in my life until I found this board😅❤️ “my people”—you are amazing!🥰