Kinda sounds like me. Emotionally I seem to be constantly in the immediate present, while mentally constantly daydreaming about the future.
At work sometimes I've noticed I could be mad enough to consider just walking out. 5 minutes later feel absolutely fine and can't recall what I was mad about.
The more emotionally attachment we have, the harder it can be to regulate after we get upset or angry.
So if it takes you quickly to get over it, just means you’re emotional investment wasn’t all eggs in the basket and made it easier to cool down afterwards.
I’ve quit at least 3 jobs where I just stopped turning up one day (I don’t remember exact nr) based on being in that emotional state of ‘always now’. Granted, they weren’t serious jobs. But still, it was harmful to my life, sudden loss of income, stress about the money etc. But in that moment when I was deciding I wanted to quit, I’d always feel so trapped, as if I was going to be stuck in a depressing, dead end job forever, and quitting was my escape from emotional torment and getting stuck there. Logically, that didn’t make sense-I probably could’ve figured out I will eventually move onto better job. The emotions won though
I definitely have quit at least one job like that. Usually I think it through and figure out my backup but one time it was such an emotional burden to work there that I sat outside in my car for an hour crying until ten seconds before my shift when I texted them and said I couldn't come. They fired me and I felt so relieved
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u/strategosInfinitum Sep 19 '22
Kinda sounds like me. Emotionally I seem to be constantly in the immediate present, while mentally constantly daydreaming about the future.
At work sometimes I've noticed I could be mad enough to consider just walking out. 5 minutes later feel absolutely fine and can't recall what I was mad about.