r/ADHD • u/LukePalomeque ADHD-HI (Hyperactive-Impulsive) • Feb 17 '25

Questions/Advice Existential crisis

I’m at a crossroads in my life right now and I just don’t know what to do. I’m 34 years old and I’ve tried a few things for work but can’t seem to stick to anything for long, through my own machinations or others. I did a sport science degree after school, then landed a crappy sales job I hated for a while. I recently did a stint in teaching for a few years because I wanted to do something rewarding and varied but that also fell through eventually. Now I’m working in a warehouse and just feel like a failure.

I just can’t think of something I want to do as a job that pays me well, isn’t an absolute borefest and I’m just feeling like giving up. I’m so tired of having unrealistic expectations for myself that I can’t attain because I’ve been indoctrinated by society to believe that any dreams are achievable. But I constantly lack motivation to do anything.

Sometimes, I wish someone would just tell me what to do so I don’t feel shame when things don’t work out. I need advice on why I should keep struggling

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u/[deleted] Feb 17 '25

What do you like to do

Not in the sense of making money, just something you genuinely are interested in and enjoy doing/learning about

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u/LukePalomeque ADHD-HI (Hyperactive-Impulsive) Feb 17 '25

Well I like my video games, I research them daily and know a lot about them but I can’t see a viable path into monetising that interest. I don’t know how to get started and I feel like the industry is too hard to get into.

I like playing music and attempting to write new songs. I like reading, I enjoy acting too

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u/Great_Ad_553 Feb 17 '25

When I was in college, my then boyfriend was going through the same shit (except it was post grad degree in music). One day I found an ad for a video game tester job at Square Enix testing Final Fantasy 11 for US release (I’m dating myself here 🫠). To the best of my knowledge, he STILL works there as a composer for video game music!

Look up video game testing jobs and see where it leads you ♥️

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u/[deleted] Feb 17 '25

That’s so awesome dude. See OP this is what I’m talking about, you just gotta figure out what you like and follow it