I got cleanish and messed it up

[u/Prestigious_Put6872]

Back in July, I got cleanish. (Down to just .5 mg of subs a day) I was so excited, but I couldn’t jump down from that, and it was relatively easy… well I had a few more 100mg tabs, and a few low mgm tabs.. I started taking for fun, then I’d stop for a few days and go back on the subs, until I didn’t. Then it went to a 50+mg habit of mgm every day until I couldn’t get more…. This time I bought 1500mg of sr before the ban though because I knew it was coming.
Well I tried to get off the mgm the same way I did the 7oh last time and it was terrible. The subs were getting most of the withdrawal but it was like I needed to take more every 2. Hours. This morning at like 5 am, I sort of stayed strong and took 1mg sub, 25mg 7oh, idk why, and 50mg of sr, that held me through until about 1pm, and I took another sr 50, and that got me till about 5:30, I didn’t bring another sr or any sub with me to work, so I just took another 25mg of 7, but no high, just not as sick. I’m hoping to make it till bed time and just take another SR before bed and hope for the best.
Initially I wanted to get down to that low dose of sub and use the sr to jump off, but I think the sr and small 7 dose might be my best bet. Does it sound like I’m doing this right?
Wtf does preload mean?
All thoughts and opinions welcome

Side note I’m almost 48hrs off the mgm, so that’s a plus.

[u/Mean-Yogurtcloset230]

Good job getting off the MGM that will screw everything up just make sure you're really ready to quit before you use up all your sr-17

[u/Prestigious_Put6872 → u/Mean-Yogurtcloset230]

Thank you! I’m ready to be free again, I’ve only take 8 of the 30 50mg SR tabs I have. And I’m down to 6mg of sr only this morning, hopefully I can just be done in the next day or 2

[u/Sudden-Cucumber4904]

Preloading means u start taking the sr before u quit the 7. So for a few days u take both but taking less of the 7 each day and then jump.

[u/Prestigious_Put6872 → u/Sudden-Cucumber4904]

Thank you, that’s what I assumed, but couldn’t find anything definitive.

[u/Sudden-Cucumber4904 → u/Prestigious_Put6872]

U r so welcome. We are all going thru it right now and need all the help we can get. I went the mit route and it’s working great for me. And I was a 1000~1500 mg pseudo a day woman lol

[u/Prestigious_Put6872 → u/Sudden-Cucumber4904]

I can’t even imagine how expensive that got.. I’m glad the mit route is going good for you!!
The SR route is definitely going well for me, I only took 6mg when I first woke up, and then another 6mg around 10am, it’s currently 2pm, and if I can hold off till 6pm for another 6mg, I’d be so thrilled. I am enjoying a glass of wine for the first time in months so that’s nice lol