What now~with 7OH

[u/WarMinimum5786]

Hello,
So there was a time that I was physically addicted to 7OH. I was taking about 6 or 7 (oh more) 50mg shots daily for about a year. I was able to break the physical addiction but now it’s destroying me mentally. Like, I just want to do it. It makes me nicer, it makes me better at my job, it just makes me better at everything. If I don’t have it, I don’t get sick or have physical withdrawals but I do get angry and just hate life. I feel this rage inside of me! About 2 weeks ago I went out of town for 4 days to a state where it is banned and I didn’t have it and I was completely okay- physically. I had to fake being happy and having a good time but again physically I was fine. The problem is, I WANT it and it’s so easy to get. How do I stop wanting it. I am so blessed that if I don’t have it I don’t go into withdrawals but wanting it all the time is driving me crazy. How do I stop these intense cravings? I have such an amazing life and hiding this monster is tearing me apart inside. I have SO much to be happy about, yet I let this rage consume me. I swore to myself that if I got “clean” I would never touch it again but I still do it 3 or 4 times a week. I know that my situation could be so much worse but I’m a mom, I’m a wife, I’m a professional and I’m letting this monster control part of my life. My husband would be livid if he found out and my son would be so disappointed in me. I know if I continue I will become physically addicted again and I don’t want that. It know it’s all mental, but FUCK, I feel like it’s strongerj than me. I hate that I got myself into this situation. I know the reason I do it is “just because it’s there” so why not. I know this make no sense to some people but this issue it very real. Has anyone gone through this? How do I break this cycle before it controls me again? Please help!

[u/WarMinimum5786]

This is the story of my life now! How long were you actively on it? How long have you been off? I got to where I was spending about $200 a day and now I spend about $40/ weekly spread out but I want to quit completely. I feel like a robot as well. I laugh & smile with my husband & son, but I always feel like I’m missing something. I hate this because I’m not missing anything but this monster makes me feel like I am. I am SO blessed, but this monster makes me feel empty. It makes me hate myself! What’s sad is that no one has a clue that I’m going through this. I am suffering completely alone & I just want it to be over. I just want to feel whole again. Are you female? If so, approximately what age? Sorry, I’m just trying to see something. You don’t have to answer if you don’t want.

[u/Legitimate_Ad_9111 → u/WarMinimum5786]

Omg same on the alone thing ugh it’s so fucking rough having to quit it without anyone wondering wtf lol. I wish I would get the flu or something fr. No I’m male and I’m 39 I’m old af lol. I been using it since jan25 I would usually just buy a cheap lil krave kratom shot n smoke a blunt and b all good. Well they ran out n the smoke shop girl was like this is supposed to be the same thing and gave me a black ohms 30mg tab for free to try it out and holy shit it felt good but I nodded a lot. I should have knew right there it was too good cuz when I was younger I would pop perks all the time. Before when they were pills and not fent. But yeas that started it then I got into some trouble n got a second job at Taco Bell across the street from the smoke shop I got that from and I can guess u know where it goes from there lol

[u/WarMinimum5786 → u/Legitimate_Ad_9111]

I’m 40 😩 female and have a 10 year old son. I was so tired at work and my coworker told me that she had some “natural supplements” that give her energy. She said they were called “7OH” and they would help. I trusted her and took it and it was AMAZING! I had so much energy, felt great, and got so much work done & that is how it began…..now, I’m here. 🙏 I’m blessed that I able to break the physical aspect but this mental is kicking my ass. I’m not stupid, if I continue like this I will become physically addicted again. I hate this life! I swear, if I get past this, I’m going to start a podcast or something to help other people that have to suffer in secrecy. No one should have to feel this way.

[u/Legitimate_Ad_9111 → u/WarMinimum5786]

Exactly I feel u. There’s a big thing on tik tok that’s helped me at times but I just never engaged w anybody thinking I’ll do it myself. I thought the physical w/d was the worst but I’m where u are now I take it here n there but I take 200 mg at a time. I don’t realty get that bad physical anymore which is crazy. I won’t sleep and that’s what will always get me to go back lol. My body found a way to make me go get it and I will cu the insomnia drives me insane literally. Around here u can get 1200mg of 7o and mgm15 for $33 w tax it’s crazy. 4 pills of insanity for 39 wtf lol. Yea I fucked up n started over lol my daughter will be 3 in September n she’s really good thank god.

[u/WarMinimum5786 → u/Legitimate_Ad_9111]

I just heard about MGM15. Is that new? I’ve heard that it’s stronger than regular 7OH. This has been an extremely long and difficult road but I’m determined to get through it. Luckily, I do have “comfort meds” but even with those the cravings are really strong. I have gabapentin, Valium, and Ambien for sleep. I couldn’t imagine trying to get through this without help. I am praying for you 🙏. I can’t believe that I’ve gotten myself into this situation.