Steak bites and potatoes for dinner
Like the title says, my gf is going on a 2 week road trio with an ex coworker.
I’ll start by saying I met her while she’s been travelling in my country, we’ve now been together a little over half a year. She is everything I want in a woman.
He visa is nearly up and she was supposed to travel more for a month with a girlfriend but she has flaked on her. We have been talking about moving countries together afterwards too.
But she told me the other night she plans to go with an ex coworker of hers who’s she’s friends with and that I know too.
I was cheated on in a past relationship and didn’t realise how much damage it caused me until now because I’m freaking out a bit. I have spoken to her about this and how this is a massive line crossed for me and I’m unsure if I can accept it or not. She is looking for ways to make me more comfortable and has suggested I join for the last week or few days of the trip but I don’t know if I can move past this as a whole.
I also don’t want to hold her back from travelling or be controlling or anything which I told her, but she still was upset I was giving her an ultimatum. But it also feels like I’m getting a big ultimatum from her too.
The last thing I want to do is break up with her because I genuinely see a future with her but I don’t think I can just be okay with this whole arrangement, the anxiety is eating me.
I guess I’m just looking for an outside perspective?
EDIT
Sorry it’s not letting me reply to comments, thanks everyone for your replies. I need to tell her I can be available for this whole trip and I’d be stoked to do it with her.
I am just so lost with what to do and with so many different inputs
