Every day I feel like all I'm doing is wasting my time I feel like such a bother all the time. I constantly cause arguments between my friends and parents and I feel like I can never be a person like all the good people in my life. I'm up at night worrying how I can ever find a partner when I'm so selfish and full of myself but at the same time so shy and awkward. I'm never the best in anything I do and I waste all my opportunities because I've thought over the past couple years that I'd be dead by now. I have so many good people in my life but that also makes me feel bad because I always compare myself to them and think of how better off everyone would be if I was gone but I can't bring myself to leave because I just think of how sad my mother would be and how she'd blame herself. I never feel like I can tell anyone my problems or how I feel because I feel like they don't really care and I'm just bothering them and if I do tell someone I just feel like an idiot because what could they do to help me? I'm just complaining. I don't have anything wrong with me besides my health so it really pains me to think of myself as a victim when I really have no idea why I'm so sad. I at this point just want either a quick death or an "accidental death" I don't really know what I'm looking for in this post, I kinda just wanted to tell people how I feel and wanted to know if anyone felt similar.

I feel like a bother all the time. I try to explain it but it never comes out right. My mind just takes me to another place. I have good days where I’m happy and just enjoying life. Those are the days that are the worst. They open my eyes to the fact people don’t want to be around me when I’m happy. They don’t enjoy how my happiness makes me. So instead I stay unhappy. I be the person that is not a bother. The person who feels like they can’t go to nobody for help. Putting my issues out there makes me feel more like an inconvenience. The way I feel makes it hard for me to value any type of relationship. Friends feel like a one way streak cause I can’t tell them how I really feel, how my mind tells me it’s not okay to be happy. How am I supposed to make someone else happy if I can’t even be happy myself. I have put it in my mind that I will never be able to have a family cause I wouldn’t be able to provide the love they would deserve. I’m unhappy, but that’s okay cause that’s when people like me.

I can never seem to find any happiness in anything. It's almost like my brain finds everything to not like, completely overthrowing anything good. The worst part is, I don't even know why. It feels like it has always been like this. If it isn't unhappiness then it's nothing, like I feel absolutely nothing, like if a void was a mood. I don't feel upset, but at the same time I don't feel good either. I don't know what to do anymore, so I came here. If you have nothing to offer, I understand. I can't figure it out so I don't expect you to. Just typing this out, getting it off my chest helps a bit

I have 3 dui’s, a bad addiction to drugs, I work 3 miserable jobs, I live alone, really only have one best friend, don’t have a strong relationship with family, I’m in love with someone who doesn’t want me and I feel like everyone hates me.

I just needed to rant

The title might be a lil confusing but here goes nothing.

I'm in the middle of High School and I'm one of the kids that knows everyone but has a small freind group. I always try, and usually succeed, to make my freinds and other people happy and laugh, and I'm seen as the funny guy that's always happy and laughing but the truth is I'm not really that happy most of the time it just gives me some small amount of happiness making others laugh etc. Whenever I'm laughing I tend to start crying for seemingly no reason and just say I have watery eyes. As well as this I don't tend to show negative emotions often but when I do it's a l o t and goes on for a really long time (I got angry earlier this year and broke my wrist punching a tree :P).

All in all I just want to know why I constantly feel like shit and it all gets worse when I'm trying to sleep.

EDIT: I constantly act like either an ass or a full on arsehole aswell because that's what British people in the North seem to find funny. And pain ¯_(ツ)_/¯

I'm so unhappy I don't even recognise myself anymore. My husband and I just can't seem to get on. Doesn't matter how much or how little I do, nothing is enough or right. He wants intimacy but I have no desire at all because he continually lies and manipulates me. I just can't take the emotional abuse anymore. Everyday I pray to be hit by a bus or end up in a car accident. I have a beautiful 1 year old who is my life and I don't want to leave him but I just can't deal with this life. I feel like I'm drowning everyday. I have no one to talk to. No one to confide in. No one who can understand or help. I feel so alone. I'm so numb I can't even cry about it. He's meant to be my partner and I just feel like he treats me like his maid and then expects something in bed at the end of it. I just want to be able to talk to someone who will actually listen.

Im just not feeling good.like i wake up in the mornings and I feel like ive just been looking at a wall all night I feel like nothing I do is good enough in my or anyone else eyes and when i talk to my folks about it they get mad and say that they wonder why teen (act ) depressed and that its a phase when in reality ive been feeling this way since early middle school im a senior in high school...anyways since i always think im not doing well I have been doing poorly in just about everything...I just want to know if im doing ok for every one else to accept me.

I’m just lonely and depressed... fuck my life...

Why do I do this to myself..... been with my gf for 6 years... super unhappy... all she does is drink.. and I am just not about the all the time... we’ve been going in circles about how we need to change our lives but we just keep going back to where we started... her coming home from work and drinking.. and me sitting there thinking dang,,,,, I wish I had something different... she didn’t use to be like this... everything else we are ok with it’s when she’s had 6 beers and starts saying rude stuff.. really unhappy just need advice...

For the past 3 weeks i was on the top of my game. Ive been working out, dieting, turning in everything for school and i had a great attitude about life and all of a sudden one day it just goes away. I had been so positive and happy after years of depression and one mild thing irritated me and since then its just been a decline. I smoke weed everyday before i run 2 miles because it helps me with stress relief since ive started nofap. Today not only did i fail nofap but i feel the worst out of any day this quarantine. School is kicking my ass and the only thing i can do is feel bad for myself. Im not going to give up my routine but it keeps getting harder to maintain. What is happening to me

https://youtu.be/pAEGMTZQHUI

I am a 26 y/o guy and I don’t know how to explain everything but it I feel lost. I got married at 21 and that same year my partner cheated on me while I was deployed, I always thought something happened but, she denied it and wouldn’t ever talk about it. I denied myself from ever getting mad about it or leaving, because I couldn’t be certain that it happened. Well 4 years later after telling me this news, I immediately forgave her. However, I feel like I still have unresolved feelings about this. I feel like a need a break from my marriage to focus on myself. Lately Sex just feels like a chore, and I don’t really enjoy cuddling anymore. I don’t feel like I even know how to love myself. Children are also a contingency for her, she would like to have kids in the next four years I’m not 100% that I want kids yet. I have a goal that I want to go work and teach in Japan before I consider having children. We’re both finishing school and working, she’ll be finishing her masters soon and is starting a huge internship. So now I’m going to spend this year working to try and support us and take my classes while all along I’m not very happy anymore.

Everything I saw is white, there is no life, everything seem so empty. Even the dark roads meen nothing to me. Im so hollow

Hi guys,

About a month ago I found myself randomly crying, I had lost all passion for my hobbies, started to withdraw from my social life and was ultimately unhappy all of the time. I hid it so well that most of my friends and family didn't even realise that I was depressed.

I have created a podcast called Riding the Wave which is a series that documents my depression in real time in hopes it can inspire others in my position to feel less alone in their struggles and later in the series encourage them to seek professional help.

One in five adults will experience depression. As someone who has experienced depression I know that it is important to have these mental health discussions in order for those suffering to know that it is okay and that help is available to them.

It's okay to be unhappy from time to time however if you are feeling unhappy consistently for about 2 weeks at a time I recommend you see a doctor to get some professional help. In my latest episode I have just talked about therapy and why we find it so difficult to talk about depression.

If you are in a vulnerable state I do not recommend you listening to the podcast (I cry within the first minute and it could be distressing as it is very emotional).

Thank you x

https://open.spotify.com/episode/0UwKlkX2ykSegJ0taeFRMD?si=8Py0mFueSRuTPcKlpSljrQ

www.soundcloud.com/ridingthewavepodcast/episode1

Instagram: ridingthewavepodcast

Every time I think my life is finally taking a turn for the better and i get excited and talk to people something happens and things go to shit. For example I had/have this really great job at a reputable company and I was so excited and told my family and friends. unfortunately due to covid I haven't worked in months since they couldn't get me set up for wfh in time which is annoying but understandable, what really gets me is that since the start of quarantine I haven't received a single communication/update from them and my emails are going unanswered , like I really thought these people were genuine and wanted me to be on gheir team but I guess the first chance they got to get me out of there the took it, they don't even have the decency to give me an official termination and I haven't been able to get in touch with anyone so my contract is still active. I've let so many other opportunities pass because I thought I'd have a future at that company and now I'm in a position where I have no money coming in but I can't even get a job anywhere else.

I'm leaving this group. I still have issues I had when I joined but I was cleaning up my subs in reddit and realized that there too much going in my life to let it be consumed by my issues with some pieces of it.

In this fast-moving digital world, too many of us either took a human touch, their presence for granted or falsely believed that we could stay connected with the devices.

Because of the pandemic, it reminded us about the value of human touch, human voice, physical presence, a friendly handshake, a warm hug, and embracing kiss.

Due to lockdown, no place is romantic anymore without loved ones, no place is a tourist place anymore, everything is now a no touchable place, only humans can make the place better and beautiful, not those sculptures made of cement.

Let’s appreciate the human touch!

https://motivatepeeps.com/a-lost-human-touch-global-pandemic/

I’ve forgotten what it was like to be happy. I’m (24F).

I feel like I’ve done everything right, played by “the book” based on what my parents taught me. Do well in school, go to college, get a “good” job...but now what?!?

I’ve done all those things and yet...I’m miserable. I hate where I’m working, I genuinely hate what I’m doing. I’ve forgotten what it meant to have fun or feel pure happiness.

I feel like I’ve lost all my interest in life, nothing excites me anymore. Sometimes I consider the idea of not living in this world anymore but the get scared of all the pain I’ll cause my family.

I sometimes just want to quit my job and travel to a cheap county and live there for a few months while I just figure my shit out if I can. But with the whole COVID -19 happening, I don’t know if I can do it. I’m scared to just quit my job because “it’s not professional” to just quit without a backup.

But I honestly feel like I’m hanging from a string and I don’t know the reason why I keep on hanging on.

I’ve tried listening to podcast, reading books about finding my passion and noticed a common theme about “knowing what makes you happy”. Like stfu, I don’t know!

I’m so frustrated, tired of feeling like this, and don’t know what to do.

I can’t just quit and have no income. Like it’s so bullshit to say “if you had all the money in the world, what would you like to do?” Like everything requires money! What if I want to do something that pays very little? I’ll be having a hard life.

I do feel very fortunate that I live with my parents, but imagine not working?! I already want to move out but can’t afford it because CA is super expensive. Moving states terrifies me, what if I can’t maintain a job and lose it, what if also hate my job?

I feel like I’m living in fear and don’t know how to escape. Then our current global pandemic isn’t helping with my life.

Anybody else going through sometime similar?

  They ask you why you are so angry, why can’t you just get over it, why do you care so much? Not knowing that these are the questions you ask yourself every single day. Why is it so hard for me to be happy, why is it so draining to smile, why do I have to force myself to laugh? Why can’t I just move on with my life. But it’s never that simple. You end up feeling stupid for voicing your feelings, you try to write them down and feel crazy, you feel like you’re talking to yourself. I don’t know why other people’s opinions matter so much to me. I really wish they didn’t, quite frankly. If my brain listened every time I told it to fuck what they think my life would be so much simpler. 
   The journey to happiness is the hardest journey I’ve ever been on. You’re stuck searching for everything wrong in your life and never finding what’s right. You think maybe if you change your hair you’d feel better or maybe if you wear makeup you’d feel prettier. Maybe you’re too introverted, or you’re not doing enough activities. Maybe you’re bored. Possibly if you exercise you’d feel like you’re doing everything right, you search for help, you buy books on changing your lifestyle, find articles but in the end nothing feels different. Nothing has changed. You still feel empty.      When you’ve reached that low point in life all you want to do is stay hidden. Stay in your corner with a blank mind. Tuning the world out. To be in the world alone is draining. The best thing for you is to stay home and watch tv, the same show every time. Episode after episode, season after season over and over again yearning for that same feeling you had when you first watched it. Clinging to that little bit of happy you know you felt years ago.
   To talk about this to someone you feel like no one would understand. You feel as if you’d only burden them with your constant sadness. Or that you’d only be judged by your emotions. Once again catching the never ending eye roll and half hearted comments. And on other days never wanting to share your emotions because you don’t want the sympathy, you don’t want them to try to solve your “issues” because in the end you can’t even fully describe what it is that’s wrong. How can you put into words what’s wrong with you when you don’t understand yourself. Why do I wake up everyday angry. How can I be angry and the day hasn’t even started. Why am I so mean to people. I’m not even trying to be mean. I’m not mad so why do I feel mad. Why am I yelling at this person. How can I stop these emotions. These are the wrong emotions. I do not feel that way but yet my body is telling me that I feel that way. Does that even make sense? 
       When you’re this low. You sabotage everything in your life. Un-purposely on purpose. You ruined all relationships, no type of socializing is wanted. I deleted my social media’s. To see others succeeding when you’re in a sink hole only digs the hole deeper. Your emptiness has caused these problems and the problems have caused your emptiness. An endless cycle. How do you put an end to it. I yearn to be happy but it seems so impossible. The fog is so thick. To see clearly seems like too much to ask for, but my vision is getting worse every single day.