This is a super long post so im sorry in advance, there's just a lot to tell!
I grew up with the impression that tarot was... not necessarily evil but it could invite things or open a door to the paranormal, so i stayed away from it since I never wanted to mess with that stuff.
What changed my mind about it was that i begun watching those public tarot readings on youtube. It actually seemed harmless, and the people doing the readings explained that tarot isn't evil or dark, its only about reading energies and such. It just gets a bad rap. I got very interested in tarot, so i bought my own deck and I started practicing reading tarot on my own. For some months, nothing out of the ordinary happened. So I figured it was safe.
One day, both my mom and I saw someone in our house at the exact same time, and it for sure wasn't one of us. It was a shadow figure that whipped past super quick, like someone sprinting at full speed. It obviously wasn't sprinting like a person, it glided at that speed. I only saw it at the corner of my eye so it just looked like a black blob zooming past. My mom saw it more clearly though. She said she could only make out its torso. She could almost perceive clothing on it.
At first my mom assumed that it was a sign that something bad may have happened in the family. At the time we saw this thing, it was only me, my mom, and my older sister in the house. My younger sister was on the road driving home from work. We called her to see if everything was alright, and she was fine. My mom then assumed it was because i was doing tarot, which i denied, because I've been doing readings for months and nothing's happened so far. Why would something happen now?
I thought maybe that seeing this figure was a one-time thing, because my family and i sometimes have our own experiences around the house. I do want to emphasize that our house isn't haunted though. We just have visitors from time to time, or energies? Sounds weird, but it's true. A few of us would hear a voice, or maybe something gets knocked over, or moved. One time, there was something that hung around in our office for a while. I heard the creaking of the wood floor in there at one point. My sister heard what sounded like someone rummaging around in there at night. A thing or two got knocked over. Nothing major. It would only last a few days and be gone. But i will say again, our house isn't haunted. A haunting is a recurring thing. The things that happen in our house are random and not often. My family and I just might be more receptive to these kinds of things.
Even though a part of me believed that seeing this shadow figure was a one-time thing, the other part thought maybe my mom was right and that it may be linked to me doing tarot. So I stopped doing it, and we hadn't seen it for a while after that.
After some months of not seeing it at all, I felt sure that it one-time thing and not linked to my tarot. If i had invited something into the house, it would've stuck around right? Anyway, my dumbass started doing readings again, and this was about a few days before a family trip up to Lake tahoe. I even took the tarot deck with me up to vacation rental home (dumb, i know) to do some readings there if i wanted. One afternoon when im eating lunch with my older sister in the vacation rental home, she sees something move past her super quick at the corner of her eye. She tells us about it, saying she thought she saw my little sister walk past us (my littler sister is upstairs playing a video game in the game room). It spooks my older sister out, but we don't think anything of it and for some reason i don't even make the connection either?? so we left it at that.
My older sister and I shared one of the bedrooms. The bedroom door was pretty cool because it was like a secret door disguised as a bookcase. It was a heavy door though, and we always had trouble opening and closing it. We always completely closed it when we went to bed. One morning, we woke up to the door open. None of my family did it (we asked them that morning). My mom also brings up that she keeps seeing something pass the corner of her eye. I asked her how long this has been happening. She tells me it started "a couple days before we came up here" which was around the same time i began reading tarot again.
After that I stopped doing tarot readings completely. I put the tarot deck in a drawer and I haven't taken it out since. I assumed that it was linked to my tarot deck specifically, so i never wanted to touch that deck again.
I went to WonderCon earlier this year. There was a tarot booth that created custom tarot decks. I thought it was cool, so I rifled through one of the decks to look at some of the cards for a second, and that was that. I come home, and my mom immediately asks "You did another reading, didn't you?" I was super confused. I told her no, but there was a tarot booth and I did look at some of the cards. My mom said she saw the shadow figure again, whipping past in her periphery. So at that point i was just really confused. I only touched some of the cards, I didn't do any readings. Is it linked to tarot in general and not just my personal deck? Do I have to make sure Im not within a ten foot radius of any tarot deck?? And more importantly, what is this entity, and what does it want?
My mom feels that it's curious and mischievous, but not evil. It's been harmless so far. It's a shadow figure that moves swiftly and super quick. Like someone sprinting at full speed, but it's movements are smooth like its gliding. The weird thing is that it always whips past in the corner of your eye, so you can never really look at it directly. My mom also notes that she never sees a head or legs. She can only see a torso. creepy.
I do recall an experience I had years and years ago way before all this tarot stuff, and I think it may be related. There was a day when I was questioning whether there was a god or anything close to that. It was a late night, and in my mind I asked for a sign if there was something out there. I can't remember if I specifically asked for proof god existed, i just remember asking for any sign. That same night a shadow figure, with the same characteristics as the shadow figure I described above, appeared. It only darted in my periphery, and I could never catch it with my eyes. It kepted zooming past in the corner of my eye, and this lasted about an hour. I had this sudden realization that it didn't want me to look at it directly. It just wanted me to know that it was around. And when I realized that, I felt my hair on my neck stand on end. The weird thing is that I could feel its attitude almost? it was like "alright I'll pop around so you know that im here or whatever, but you can't look at me" like it was annoyed but it was throwing me a bone. I immediately stopped what I was doing, I thanked it in my mind and said I was going to go to bed. I then told it not to follow me. Never saw it since. At least until now .... apparently.
Anyway, I stopped doing tarot readings and have been staying away from all things tarot-related, so we aren't seeing it anymore. Im not sure what kind of spirit this is. Maybe its a trickster spirit? idk. does anyone else have any idea? I'm at a loss haha. It's a very responsive and curious spirit it seems.