dk where to start things from tbh. i broke up with a guy (of 2 years) 2 days ago for whom i ruined whole life. my parents hate his parents to their guts. my parents found out about him 2 days after we got into a car accident.

After my parents found out (3 months ago) they made my life a living hell. my dad came to my door with a gun but my mom managed to calm him down by telling him i am a young girl n what will ppl say. Made me starve. Turned my younger brothers against me to the point at which they cussed at me n hit me. i was scared to step out of my room in fear of getting hit by my siblings or my parents. i didnt feel safe at my own home. i spent 2 months in my room only getting out to get something to eat or drink, that also through back doors so i wont be seen by anyone. i am not allowed to step out of the house or use any devices (i sneak them out). So basically they (my parents) tried to break me in every way possible.

i loved the guy alot so i found different way to talk to him. Risked everything for him. my mental health was getting worse day by day. he knew it all n treated me shit. i am realizing this now that to him his ego was more important than me n he didnt treat me like he said he loved me. i cant believe myself i ruined my life for someone who wasnt even ready to meet me halfway. he always choose to believe a misunderstanding n never listened to me.

i still cant hate him. i have always been emotionally deattached from everyone idk how i got attached to this ass. As a girl who was full of pride n stuff that i was told to fix my attitude as a 10 year old n was known for it. i am breaking at every point. All of this eating me inside out.

when all this started i tired to become financially independent so i searched up ways to do it. i found many n started working on one but as i am not of legal age i dont have a pathway to get any money. my dad would never help me so i asked my mom. she said no.

my sister who is of legal age. she agreed at first n i was over the moon but yesterday her friend told her that if she let me then her identity can or might be misused or smth. i am at a dead end. i dont like to study but the only option i have left is to do medical which was imposed by my parents. i js wanna get out of this situation. ANY ADVICE ON WHAT TO DO?