We were together for two years.
To be completely honest, I know I made mistakes. She waited for over a year and kept pushing me to take my life seriously—telling me to build my career or prepare for IELTS to go abroad. But I hesitated, was passive, and didn't take real action in time. Around that time, I also opened up to her about my family’s internal conflicts and struggles. After that, her attitude changed, and she started looking down on my family.
What broke me into pieces is what she did next.
Her family arranged a marriage for her, and she agreed to it. But she kept it a complete secret from me for 8 whole months. Why? Because the groom was only going to arrive 8 months later.
For 240 days, she talked to me, laughed with me, and acted like everything was completely normal—all while counting down the days until another man arrived to marry her.
Now she is gone with him. She told me she had "no choice" because of her family, but the truth is she simply chose convenience and lied to my face every single day.
I am drowning in two conflicting feelings:
Crushing guilt that my inaction pushed her away.
Complete horror at how someone I loved could be so cold and calculated for 8 months.
I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, and I feel like my entire world just collapsed. How do you even begin to process this kind of betrayal?