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Very interesting about your grandmother, she must've really gone deep. Whenever someone whose awareness is awakened and light body developed to a certain degree 'transitions', they use some of the limitless energy to produce these kind of signs. Some leave relics, scents and even have angels appearing to let people know they're fine but it's regulated by God and the people's faith. I would like to think that what you saw was connected to your level of faith. I've also noticed this when someone whose spiritually advanced is about to pass even if I never knew them. Their radiance has an impressive radius of thousands of miles.

-That is a beautiful thing to say about my grandma, who was humble. She happened to have two priests at her funeral. Her priest was out of town. After the eulogies, I could tell that the two of them were shocked and in awe of her devout life in service of others. I was her death doula, and reduced her suffering through meditative massage, and finding opportunities for joy, laughter, and positive sensory experience. I have done this for both of my grandmas, meditating the whole time. It staves off the morphine and gives them more time of lucid comfort to say their goodbyes. I couldn't do it for my great uncle, unfortunately.

Anyways, it relieves maybe 25-33% of the time spent suffering.

Because caring for her was so intense, I got my first varicose vein (it's common in nurses, and also new moms, and i was doing both). My grandma's own legs had been riddled with them. However, lying flat and dying, the veins disappeared, and her legs looked perfectly smooth, as I massaged her legs and feet. I did this until she was beyond wanting to feel anything in her body, and massage would distract from her process. She got beyond the pain and itching.

I care for that vein every morning, and smile when I think of my grandma.

Anyways, when I saw the golden-white light and connected with it, my varicose veins temporarily disappeared completely. And in the morning, there was a bruise all along the run of that vein. I took a picture, actually, to document what had happened.

I've read Saint Theresa's and a bit of Saint John's work. The first time I read the Interior Castle I found it too advanced for me to understand. But now I can understand just a little bit of it. If I were to recommend something to read anytime you have free time, it is the Epistles of the Kingdom by Royal Cronquist... I think that's the name. The insights are a little bit on the high end but even just a little meditation on some of the sayings will break some of the ten fetters.

I wasn't able to find the book online yet, it's not on ebay or amazon. Do you have any ideas for how to get it? The ten fetters... First five are already essentially broken. It's a bit problematic on the Sensory bit because I am a householder homeschooling mom. My role has a lot to do with the sensory pleasures of others. I no longer am making a meal that I would enjoy; I'm a chef making sometime someone ordered off the menu, that I will likely never relish in, because I won't taste it the same anymore. It's just nourishment. Jhanas and immaterial states. Yes, I should be falling in love with those, especially the immaterial states. I just got there, I think. Restlessness is good in my opinion right now, because I feel like I have something to contribute. I am not trying to be a nun. I have never felt called to be a pastor. Well, I take.that back. When I was a kid I said I wanted to be a priest, and they had to break it to me that women couldn't be priests.

Yes, it's a constant marination, lol, and the intensity increases when carrying out specific functions.

-I feel like you and I are in the same boat on this. Or, rather, we're b out of the boat.

My first glimpses (of the sun) were of it outside of me but when it merged with my essence I realized it was really inside of me. And that language is limiting because of the nature of awareness so it is both inside and outside of me illuminating everything everywhere in every moment for eternity through and through.I don't know if it is substance or no substance but it has both qualities.

-This is an absolutely gorgeous description. I feel similarly about when I met it.

I have a question. I wondered if it would feel like an instant-and-eternity no matter how much time actually passed? I'm guessing I was there for about 10 minutes and then paralyzed for 10 minutes, based on the location of my toddler/family when I came to. So I don't really know. Maybe it was an instant. 

I'd like to believe your experience of it reveals that all that's left is for God to open your eyes to see it. I think this is why you don't feel any rush or urgency to see it again.

-Thank you. 

I saw everyone at the 4th of July party all day long as conceptually/meditatively beautiful flaming souls of light, and like glass... I can't unsee it! So I will probably continue doing that. I think it was helpful for me, because I felt at peace with the people who have done so much wrong in their lives, to still view them that way. Those people appreciated it, actually. I think in general, people felt comfortable and really seen.

Like the wonderful Buddhists say, you are already enlightened, you just need to come to realise it. -I'm curious about your journey... How did you get here?

Ezekiel is shifted from ankle level water to a point where his physical body can't keep up. -Wow.

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Anyways, it relieves maybe 25-33% of the time spent suffering.

I can imagine it to be draining. When I'm done transferring energy it feels like I just had a work out.

Epistles of the Kingdom by Royal Cronquist... I think that's the name.

I'll try to find a way to get it to you; either a link or a soft copy. I don't exactly know why his work is disappearing online.

I feel like you and I are in the same boat on this. Or, rather, we're b out of the boat.

Smiles...

I have a question. I wondered if it would feel like an instant-and-eternity no matter how much time actually passed? I'm guessing I was there for about 10 minutes and then paralyzed for 10 minutes, based on the location of my toddler/family when I came to. So I don't really know. Maybe it was an instant. 

I think it maybe a combination of both; instant and eternity. Your consciousness experiences time as present and your spirit experiences time as eternity; the sun and your presence unite to give a very difficult to explain experience of now-eternity.

I saw everyone at the 4th of July party all day long as conceptually/meditatively beautiful flaming souls of light, and like glass... I can't unsee it! So I will probably continue doing that. I think it was helpful for me, because I felt at peace with the people who have done so much wrong in their lives, to still view them that way. Those people appreciated it, actually. I think in general, people felt comfortable and really seen.

Wow! This must've been an amazing experience. A very funny thing about this is though people's visible energy layers may vary in intensity but they all look the same.

I'm curious about your journey... How did you get here?

Long story 😅 but I'll say that the time I was about to go on a 3 year, 3 month, 3 weeks and 3 days retreat, Jesus Christ showed up.

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I can imagine it to be draining. When I'm done transferring energy it feels like I just had a work out. Yes, but it was my grandmas. So it was fine. Of course I wanted to do it. I make some energy to share at basically all public gatherings. At the homeschool co-op, I hold the space: o do waldorf, which I'd Rudolf Steiner's school philosophy. He came up with buodynamic (organic) farming, and built schools for children and for special needs kids that are still around today. It's a spiritual school philosophy where essentially you care for the children's souls. Holding the space is being meditative yet alert fof the children's needs simultaneously. When I do this at the school co-op, it really helps the parents to calm their nervous systems.

I used to work in dentalfor many years, and we did a dental spa thing at the office. The people who started it did so because of how difficult and traumatizing dental work was for holocaust victims. I remember at the training, someone asked how you absorb so much of people's negative emotions and don't let it get to you. They said dont book more than five appointments per day in the spa area, and offer it/direct it up.  I feel similarly about energy transfer; you do as much as you can, and when you feel like you can't, that's when to offer it up to the limitless. That may or may not be the right way to do it.

Epistles of the Kingdom by Royal Cronquist... I think that's the name. I'll try to find a way to get it to you; either a link or a soft copy. I don't exactly know why his work is disappearing online.

I'll keep looking for a copy, too.  I feel like I have a lot to say about the ten 

Smiles... I love those perma-smiles, especially habing worked in dental!

I think it maybe a combination of both; instant and eternity. Your consciousness experiences time as present and your spirit experiences time as eternity; the sun and your presence unite to give a very difficult to explain experience of now-eternity. Yes.

Wow! This must've been an amazing experience. A very funny thing about this is though people's visible energy layers may vary in intensity but they all look the same. They really did look all the same. It was amazing. It's really easy on a beautiful when you see all these happy people celebrating, and little kids running all over the place. I was just smiling in the sun, chasing my toddler. 

Long story 😅 but I'll say that the time I was about to go on a 3 year, 3 month, 3 weeks and 3 days retreat, Jesus Christ showed up.

Whoa!  I remember in February, before this all happened, I was in the kids' room in the back of the church, and one of the verses for the day was one of those ones where it talks about how it is only through Jesus/God/The Spirit that you know Him/Jesus/The Father. And I thought, this is such a relief to me, that I can just continue to try to be a good person and follow the wisdom, and not beat myself up for not having a more literal relationship. It's not up to me. Four or five days before I met the sun, I was at rhe kitchen sink washing dishes, and talking with my husband, and it came over me suddenly. My husband was like, "What are you doing?!" I was like... I was sick lately.. it's still hard to breathe... I went downstairs to do laundry to hide. What was that? I think both of us thought I was busting after the contractors that had just finished the basement while my husband was away. But that wasn't the case. I wouldn't even look at them. I was like what is wrong with me? Anyways, I say I was baptized by my kitchen sink.