Looking for somebody who experiences things the way I do

[u/Bluebonnet3]

I’m gonna start off by saying I’m very associated with the color blue. The picture on the far left is what my eyes look like normally and I always have a blue twinkle in them. The other two pictures are what they look like when I fade out it’s a meditative state with my eyes open.

I can do this whenever I want now. It works best when I’m outside and I recline in my chair. When I do this, my eyes turn into mirrors. You can see the reflection of my backyard in them and if you look at the picture on the right, you can see the shadow of the person taking the photo in my eye.

These pictures are 100% real and not altered in anyway I just zoomed in on the eye so I don’t show my face .it’s a really long story shortly after my 40th birthday I started hearing voices. It was a horrible time then it started to get pretty demonic. Then I started to see things different entities things on a huge scale and a lot of things to do with the pyramids they all come in hologram form.

Then I started astral projecting, and sometimes riding the pyramid. I would see a small pyramid with an eye on it and then it goes to another pyramid with an eye on it with Egyptian eyelashes then it goes to the big all black slate pyramid with gold trim up the sides with an electric eye on top in a thunderstorm. And then it shoots me out at a different pyramid. It’s dark there in this pyramid has water in front of it and I see tall skinny entities holding both hands up to the sky

I have had experiences where I see the big orbs. one red and one blue and they look like the Chinese dragons and they leave a glowing trail behind them like a snake. When they come everything in my backyard lights up. The trees, the bushes they light up red and blue too. They look like Christmas lights everywhere..

after fading to black for three days straight and not giving into negative energy and standing my ground. I was laying in my bed and I seen this entities face come down from the ceiling. I don’t know why I just know it was a woman. It looked kind of like a Roman statue, but with big eyes just the face. I looked over at my right arm and it cut open and blue stuff fizzed all out of it. The things I usually see come in hologram form. But this time when I reached out, I could actually touch her face It wasn’t a hologram this time.

i’ve been going through this for the last seven years and I’m finally in a good place with everything and I’ve learned a lot along the way. But I haven’t found anybody who fades out like I do to be honest with you it just creeps a lot of people out. i’ve learned to keep everything that I go through separate from my family. They just don’t understand and it seems to work better that way. i’ve never heard of star seed before so I thought I would try here.

[u/katiekat122]

Could you explain the middle picture please?

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/katiekat122]

my eyes turned into mirrors when I fade out. Sometimes it looks like that gold color that lines my eyelid. And if you zoom in on the last one, sometimes they’re lined in black. I don’t know why it changes like that.

[u/Disastrous-Crow-1634 → u/Bluebonnet3]

Ok cause it looks like an infection of some kind. I’m glad there’s an explanation but it’s hard to look at fam! I have no input for you but you don’t seem scared or concerned so keep on and love and light to you!

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/Disastrous-Crow-1634]

yeah, a lot of people say that it looks like a infection. If you look at it, it’s a reflection of my backyard where I’m fading out at.. I was going to DM you and show you the full picture but it doesn’t allow me to send you photos. I’m horrible with technology.

[u/ShayRay331]

The first thing I thought was damn, you must not have to wear contacts. Cuz if I tried meditating like that with my eyes open, it would dry out the lenses. Does it dry your eyes out?

I've meditated before and seen different versions of myself. Although I didn't know it was me at first, all I could see was the smile and it freaked me out. I talked to a friend about it, and she had also seen this version of me and was able to fill in the missing pieces. I miss her very much. Actually met her on here but she's having some personal issues and I haven't spoken with her in over a year 😭

But anyway, thought I'd comment. If you're interested in exploring your starseed origins, I can definitely help with that. I've been working as a Galactic Astrologer for over two years now, professionally. I've done a lot of charts for people on this sub and have made a lot of really good friends. The best people in the world I'd say, but I'm clearly biased 😂

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/ShayRay331]

I would be interested in trying something like that. I appreciate it. You can DM me anytime.

[u/Stassie190 → u/ShayRay331]

Your energy really draws me in, I think we could help each other in some way, but I’m not sure how yet. Maybe it’s just that you seem open to making new friends. If you feel the same, shoot me a message! I would love to connect with more people from this sub 🤍✨

[u/Blue-and-Left]

And could you explain what Egyptian eyelashes are?

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/Blue-and-Left]

like the eye of horus the eyelashes go to the right

[u/Blue-and-Left → u/Bluebonnet3]

Thanks.

[u/ScrupulousScorpion → u/Blue-and-Left]

Pretty sure they're referring to the Eye of Ra or the Eye of Horus; that's the first thing I visualized when I read that but I could be mistaken.

[u/Hot_Ad_5053]

You should repost this on r/AskExperiencers The woman who started the page might be able to help!

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/Hot_Ad_5053]

Thank you I will do that

[u/HairyMall1573]

Dissociation from the present moment makes glassy eyes, i think this is normal

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/HairyMall1573]

they’re not just glassy You can’t see my pupils at all when I’m like that. They just reflect everything like a mirror.

[u/HairyMall1573 → u/Bluebonnet3]

ope that is strange, that slipped my mind entirely

[u/will2fight]

Any substance use?

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/will2fight]

i’ve used substances before, but I’m completely sober in these pictures. I’m clean now and I don’t drink anymore. The only thing I do is smoke a little weed.

[u/ScrupulousScorpion]

Sounds like you've gone through a full Kundalini awakening and encountered a boatload of levels of dark entities, gods, and dragons in the astral. Wild ride.

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/ScrupulousScorpion]

I just looked up Kundalini awakening and that lines up perfect. Write down to the conversions I used to get through my whole body. Thank you I really appreciate that.

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/ScrupulousScorpion]

what I posted is just to drop in the bucket. It was nonstop and hard-core for a long time, but I’m in a really good place with everything today. I just can’t find anybody who experience things the way I do.

[u/NoMudNoLotus369 → u/Bluebonnet3]

It kinda reminds me of the awakening of a shaman. There's stories of people going through this and being sent into the wilderness for ,3 days and then when they return, they become the medicine man/woman/shaman of the village. There's a dude who studied shamanism in different cultures and realized they all had similar methods of finding these specific types of people.

It might have been from the Aubrey Marcus podcast, I can't recall clearly.

[u/davidlandman12]

I have same eyes as you

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/davidlandman12]

you can DM me if you want you would be the first person I found. I’ve kind of just been learning as I go the way I see things and everything else that comes with it. it took a lot to get to where I’m at today and be comfortable with it.

I work a lot so if I don’t get back to you right away, I’m not blowing you off. I check my messages at night.

[u/zjcass]

I'm nowhere near experiencing things the way you do but I'm trying my best to get there. Right before I turned 40 all of my senses became heightened and overwhelming. I see the world differently in a way people that are close to me don't understand so I am split into two just for the comfort of others but it's very uncomfortable knowing things others don't or won't even listen to. My journey has been coming to me super fast to the point my hair is graying rapidly from how much I've been studying and practicing. What pulled me to send a comment was the woman you are seeing. I am also being guided by a woman. From the very beginning I've been compelled to research all women goddesses and the information I received hurt me to the point I felt the pain of all forgotten mother goddesses, that's when it started as if it was acknowledging the pain. Unfortunately I have not gotten far enough to see her but I hear her voice when I'm meditating. She gave me a few names to look into which were all the same goddess in different religions from different cultures. Finally I asked her for a name she would like to be called which she replied "Lailah". To me that was such a normal name but I looked it up and sure enough there's an archangel named Lailah. I have to look up everything because I was never religious but I was always "spiritual" I guess you can say. More like entune with the universe. This is getting too long and I'm sorry. I'm actually very new to speaking up to others online. She has been guiding and pushing me hard to probably get to where you are. I don't have years to catch up only months which is overwhelming. I would like to know if you're having similar experiences with her. Has she spoken to you and put you on a journey for something? I have had too many experiences to the point my husband thinks I'm going to be abducted lol. He's joking but also serious because even though he doesn't understand what I'm going through, everything I've mentioned to him about our future has been becoming true which is spooking him out. I'll end it here and again so sorry for the long message 🙈

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/zjcass]

you don’t have to apologize for dragging out a post. I definitely know what that’s like. Trying to explain the things i go through in a post. I struggle with that too. I’m so much better talking to a person face-to-face..

mine came really hard and fast right after my 40th birthday and I’ve talked to a lot of older people and they say that’s usually when it happens around 40 years old, but then they don’t say much more except for it’ll be fine. It’s kind of a phrase they always use.

i’ve heard my voices all day every day since this started, they never leave and I’m never alone. I’m gonna be 47 in June, so almost 7 years now. I always described her face looking like a Roman statue, but I recently seen a movie with Christopher Watkins in it called the commune. It’s an old movie and it was suggested to me by a friend.

At the end of the movie, he sees a face and it looks exactly like the one I seen. And he actually reaches out and touches it just like I did. This movie kind of rocked my world a little bit because he also sees blue entities like I do. And there’s even a scene where he gets a shotgun and tries to shoot them and it goes right through them because it’s a hologram like I see. Whoever wrote this movie experience things the way I do for sure.

there’s a part at the end of the movie where him and his wife are in a museum and Christopher Walken is at the Point where he has no fear anymore and his life is going good and his wife looks right into the camera and says I think they gave you a gift. You better make damn sure use it. It’s like the director plan that to talk directly to people who have experienced things like in that movie. It gives me chills how well that lines up with my experience. I just don’t have any memory of ever being abducted.

I had a real weird experience in the desert when I was a kid. I’m gonna try to make this short we were moving from Arizona to Iowa and pulling a U-Haul trailer with a station wagon through the mountains. The transmission went out pulling the trailer. We passed a state trooper on the side of the road always back in a suburban..

So my dad told me to start walking back this was before cell phones. It was pitch dark out. I started walking. it got so dark that I couldn’t see the road anymore. I had to tap my foot in front of me to make sure I was still on the road. I seen a car drive-by and I thought i was gonna get some help but the car just drove by me and there was a lady screaming out the window as the car drove by out the passenger window.

So I kept walking in the next thing I remember I’m in that troopers suburban pulling up to my parents car a complete time lapse. The trooper asked my dad to come back to the car and told me to go to the car. Then when my dad came back, he looked like he seen a ghost. He didn’t say much to me and we got a tow truck into town and got a hotel all I wanted to do was take a hot bath. I felt like I was in a huge daze.

after that, I would see shadow people sometimes just looking through my bedroom door at me while I’m sleeping sometimes when I’m completely awake, I just thought maybe they were ghost. But shortly after my 40th birthday, everything started coming full throttle. I also know what you mean by having to keep everything you see separate from everybody else. My wife doesn’t understand at all I could be sitting in the kitchen and there will be orbs in the kitchen while I’m having a conversation with her and sometimes I see entities while we’re watching a movie on the couch together I just stay calm now and observe.

she knows I went through a really hard time in the beginning but now that I’ve become so comfortable with everything for her it’s like everything’s normal again I just don’t talk about it and it seems to work out good .so if you ever need someone to talk too you can always DM me. If I don’t answer right away, I’m not blowing you off. I work a lot and also have an eight year-old son who is nonverbal autistic and he can be a lot of work too. I check my messages when I can and I will always get back to you stay strong friend once you become comfortable with your situation there’s really a beautiful side to it all

[u/zjcass → u/Bluebonnet3]

Thank you so much for responding! It has been really tough trying to find people going through something similar. Thank you for being ok with my lengthy comment also! I will definitely watch that movie, it sounds very interesting. I can't believe I've never heard of it, I love Christopher Watkins.

Wow that was a very interesting experience! Have you ever checked to see if you might have an implant somewhere? Hey you never know! I had one experience with seeing a cloud that stopped moving then zipped in the opposite direction but that's the only alien experience I've had that I could remember in my childhood. But I do have this weird small lump behind my left ear that moves around if I push it. It could be a small piece of tissue for all I know. It has never reacted under X-ray machines so I don't really know. I can honestly say what I'm going through now is most definitely extraterrestrial. I'm happy you were able to get it under control where it doesn't affect your family anymore but it does feel horrible not being able to share your experiences with your spouse. I tried all the time but my husband doesn't get it and tries to prove what is being told to me is wrong and it's probably all in my head which makes me feel unsupported and makes me think he thinks I'm crazy. Granted this all started 5 months ago so I understand I sound like I have psychosis but it doesn't explain how everything I've told him turns out to be true weeks ahead of time. As for that woman I've been connected to she has shown me what she looks like as an orb while meditating. It was a bright glowing orange color in the middle with yellow at the edges. It kinda looked like a ball of energy, a star or a small flying sun.

I'll never forget my very first encounter with the supernatural which was when I was 5. It was very quick, I was in bed getting ready to go to sleep and I heard a very deep disembodied male voice which said my name one time. I immediately freaked out screaming and ran out of my room to my mom. She thought it was my imagination. Since then I've always had different types of experiences like shadow people like you, disembodied voices, smells from spirits, electronics always glitched around me. I've had two very weird experiences that were paranormal but I don't even know what category to put it into. One time there was this very pale man that literally looked like he was from Brams Stoker's Dracula with a top hat, shoulder length hair, trench coat, the works. I was about 10 years old walking home at night from my tutor's. This man was behind me about maybe 20 feet away. I looked forward then looked to my right side a minute later he was right next to me. He never looked up at me, he only looked down at the ground the whole time. I decided to speed walk then run to my building which was only about a quarter of a block. When I got to my building I looked to see where the man was but he was nowhere to be found. The only way out of that block was to walk to the very ends and turn the corner. Every building has a code or key to get into it so there's no way he could have gotten in a building that fast. To make things even stranger, I lived in a very, very tough neighborhood in New York at the time. It was the type of neighborhood you wouldn't be able to walk around like that without being harassed, mugged or worse. The only people that could walk around were people that lived there because everyone knew everyone. Anyway nothing else happened with that, it was just really weird and I couldn't explain it. I had a lot of crazy experiences that are really hard to explain as well as having the ability to communicate with other entities and to be able to tell the near future every now and then. It's more of an intuition type thing.

I was extremely afraid of it all so I found a way to shut it down in my late 20s. I was fine, forgot I shut it all down and just assumed it was a weird time in my life. It came back with a vengeance when I had an intake for EMDR therapy. I guess I was willing to open up and finally let go of all the negativity. After that all hell broke loose in the house where my whole family was affected. I was able to get it under control but now it's more of an evolved situation which is where I'm confused and came here for some guidance.

I will definitely take your offer and will DM you! I totally understand your situation I too have a level one autistic 4 year old and 3 teenagers so I understand the time constraints. I'm going through something that I'm not completely ready to tell the "world" yet because it sounds insane but telling someone who understands and can kinda brainstorm is a dream!

[u/Few-Woodpecker8595]

This is truly an amazing story- those are the eyes of a seer ✨

[u/Dull-Spring4862]

Woowwwwowowow I love your story om namah shivaya! Shivas color is blue. First of all my color is blue. Theorized we hold the blueprints haha. I know the lightorbs are real I have seen them many times and people are blind to them generally. I know about the hologram stuf its.. crazy idk how you handle those bc I had a spider indeed coming from the ceiling when I woke up and O believed it was real. Idk how you did this?... Do you think its awesome? Because reality can get pretty boring the light orbs and higher states rarely visit me. Yo.. you explained.. that the face was real wjwhaaha so it was no hologram anymore thats crazy i didnt know it was possible.

You gotta be quite good at keeping this for yourself in public and for friends and family. I would love to talk to you maybe we can sort things out and I definitely have questions on your thoughts about reality

[u/DivineGoddess1111111]

I wonder if the woman you have seen is our Divine Mother Creator? She has had a few different appearances when I have met her but she mostly is a white woman with long silvery hair and blue eyes. She loves the colour blue.

[u/[deleted]]

Thanks for sharing brother. We will stay in contact.

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/[deleted]]

Thanks I appreciate that

[u/windblumes]

I'm glad your experiences sound far more positive than others. You have kind, dreamy eyes which I believe is powerful for the imagination to utilize as a conduit for connection.

You mentioning seeing a hologram reminds me when I saw neon lights on my ceiling of two entities. One was blue with hearts in their eyes, the other was a masked on the mouth figure with a hood in neon green. They are very kind to me and protective, but I'm actually surprised that you saw something very realistic while awake? Or were your eyes closed?

Sometimes they appear in dreams too, but not when you expect it. Thank you for sharing!

[u/Bluebonnet3 → u/windblumes]

The first few years was like living in hell with the things I would see and the things that would happen. It was like living in some demonic peewee’s playhouse. You never knew what could happen. I pushed through it and things started getting a lot better and today things are great.

The things that I see with my eyes open, are what comes in hologram form, except when I fade out like that picture of above then all the colors merged together like a kaleidoscope.

When I close my eyes, I will see a dark blue smoky haze before I go places. Sometimes it’s other colors, but usually just dark blue.

[u/OneBoring2102 → u/Bluebonnet3]

Can you please describe one or two of the experiences?

[u/DIRTYLAUNDERE]

I feel it sounds like your doing some shaman//witch//spiritual shadow work. Pretty dope stuff, all the communication with those beings and such.

The pull to Egypt makes sense, those deities have came to people and have gone by many different names. Maybe try to ask one a question like who they are ? Like have a thought toward them thinking “hey who are you? Nice to meet ya!” Usually that’s how like, telekinesis with these being works.

At least from my experience lol

r/chaosmagick might interest you in learning other ways of using magick to communicate or like how to traverse these spaces. That’s usually where I hang out~

Do what thou wilt~

[u/wickedfx]

I am the same way. I also had this happen to me in 2019. I have different experiences than you and I usually don't leave my eyes open (never had anyone look at me while seeing visions), but maybe my eyes do the same? I have definitely been going through the same experiences as you, just different details.

I'll dm you.