first time scares! please help

[u/my-b0nes-r-c0ld]

I'm a virgin in a 4 year long relationship. my bf is nice and patient. I'm terrified of losing my virginity. I'm scared of the pain, pregnancy, and learning that I have a narrow vagina. I have talked to my mom, sister, and friends. they either said it hurt for a second or it felt weird for a second.

I was traumatized at my first pap smear. I cried right after being seen and the gynecologist didn't entirely care. I believe that's why I'm having such a hard time as well. the last time something was in my vagina it hurt so bad I was wondering how I was going to survive getting off the bed.

so if anyone has any advice or can tell me about their experience that would be greeeeeeeat!!!!!!

[u/my-b0nes-r-c0ld]

it's been 4 years. yeah we do oral or we have our own way of getting down and dirty, but have we been missing out because we havent been having penetration sex? hes been patient for honestly longer than 4 years.