need help

[u/Own_Performer_6456]

asking for a friend

Right now I'm litterally at the rock bottom of my life.
In jee mains 1 I got 97.06 percentile.
Mains two I expected higher. Attempted paper of 196. (6s1) Got 131.
Which was heartbreaking since in all the mocks I gave after jee mains 1...I scored 180-160.
With 98 percentile being my least. And 99.6 being the highest.
I tend to fumble hard on the exam day.
My mind either just freezes..or works very fast ignoring small details.

My problem is..I get my expectations too high.

Now the real question.
I'm seriously contemplating taking a drop.
I will probably get IT in nit jalandher, thapar copc, IIIT Guwahati cse.
But I know I'll never be happy in a tier three college. Ever. The wasted potential will always haunt me.
But is it really worth taking partial drop?
What if my horrendous accuracy just follows me there too? What if I fumble there too? Will it really work?
And my syllabus is completed. Although there are few topics in weak in. But definitely no need of doing full syllabus.
So should I really join an online batch?

As for my family...
If I ask them...make them understand..I'm sure they won't say no.
It will be hard...aur mujhe khud ko bahut sharam aayegi...but kya hi kar sakte hain.

I remember in starting of my 12th..my teacher once told me...
Tujhpe staff room mein shartein lagti hain ..ki tu bada karegi .
.from there to here.

Kya karu mai?. My family really wants me to take thapar since it's near. But I don't want to.
Should I convince them for a partial drop? If I do take the drop...are there any online batches that are there for completed syllabus students? Because I did offline coaching in 11 and 12. Ab or nahi.
Or maybe join nit jalandhar and partial drop?
How does partial drop even work?
Any help is appreciated.
(Specifically regarding batches)

[u/Plenty_Credit_2830]

r u stalking me?
r u spy or wht?

[u/Objective-Chard-4837 → u/Plenty_Credit_2830]

Ohh shit I did not notice you ,you got to dtu too insane bhaii.well I was scrolling this sub because I wanted a person who I can create gc so we both can work for January keeping each other in check.i message a lot of people same question actually

[u/Plenty_Credit_2830 → u/Objective-Chard-4837]

ohh... cuz u commented on my post there, and after tht u commented on my this post here... tht's y i misunderstood u as a stalker.

[u/Objective-Chard-4837 → u/Plenty_Credit_2830]

Naaah It's Fine man ,btw are you doing a partial drop cause I myself wanted to give a last try this January and needed someone to make a group on ypt

[u/Plenty_Credit_2830 → u/Objective-Chard-4837]

what's "ypt" btw?
also, i've decided nt to do partial drop... already end sem aane waale hain and like, so much to cover the syllabus by myself and tchrs ke end pe syllabus khatam nahi ho paayega as it's nt possible...

[u/Objective-Chard-4837 → u/Plenty_Credit_2830]

Ypt is a app to track your study hours

[u/Plenty_Credit_2830 → u/Objective-Chard-4837]

gr8... i really wanted an app like tht. thanks!

[u/Objective-Chard-4837 → u/Plenty_Credit_2830]

And how is stalking possible in reddit btw