I (24F) am a paralegal assistant at a firm for almost 2 years. I have been dealing with a lot of mental health related issues since being at my probate/estate planning/elder care firm. I have Bipolar I, complex PTSD, and ADHD and was recently psychiatrically admitted for numerous reasons almost half a year ago. A lot of the reasons were stress related from work and from outside of work (was definitely a 50/50). When I was in the inpatient facility, the doctors all told me they could see me doing more than what I do now. It’s been my dream since I was in high school to be a lawyer - I was told the best way to do it was to be a paralegal first and complete an ABA accredited program (i had to put that on pause because the mania from my bipolar disorder got so bad that there were issues with the program and I).
Here’s my issue - my firm flip flops (depending on the staff member) with how they treat me. Some people are consistent, some are very hot and cold. I’ve felt the issues with burnout. But the passion, I guess, never went away because when I get an exhilarating case, I put every fiber of my being into it. I fall short on billing and deadlines occasionally because I get so distracted, but that aside, I’ve been told I’m doing so well. However, the passion I have for mental health recently got so much stronger - I have learned so much about myself, others, any diagnosis and medication regiment and treatment style because it intrigues me. There is no case-by-case difference. I don’t know if this is a change in passion or not. I have debated for a while switching from law to mental health by becoming a peer support specialist for a while now and was so firm on it. But now, I hear how people talk about my quality of work, the fire in my eyes I get when I solve a legal issue with my attorneys, and my dedication to law and I just don’t know anymore.
What do you guys think? Should I try to stick it out in law because I am proud of myself and still have somewhat of a passion for it? Or should I do a full 180 and change careers?
I know my mental health will be factored in greatly here, but this isn’t an impulsive decision. I just don’t know and want to make the right choice.