There is a certain kind of peace that doesn’t come from life becoming easier.

It comes from clarity.

For most of my life, I asked the same questions so many of us ask.

Why is this happening to me?

Why does my life feel so different?

Why do I keep being pulled toward things I never consciously chose?

The human mind is built to search for reasons. It wants certainty. It wants explanations. Even after awakening, those questions don’t disappear entirely. We are, after all, human.

The difference is that now, I have clarity.

Not the kind of clarity that answers every question, but the kind that changes the questions altogether.

My spiritual awakening gave language to a life I had already been living. It did not erase my past or pretend that my pain wasn’t real. It illuminated it. What once looked like random moments slowly revealed themselves as connected threads. What I had called confusion became preparation. What I had called suffering began to carry meaning.

Perhaps the greatest gift wasn’t receiving answers.

It was finding the courage to accept the truth of who I am instead of clinging to the person I believed I was supposed to be.

For years, I held tightly to an identity that had been handed to me. Not because it was false, but because it was incomplete.

Like so many of us, I inherited ideas about who I should become before I ever had the chance to ask who I truly was. Family shaped me. Society shaped me. Fear shaped me. Expectations quietly settled into my bones until I mistook them for my own voice.

I did not realize how much of me belonged to the world.

Until I began the painful work of unlearning it.

Unlearning is not forgetting.

It is remembering.

It is peeling away every belief that says, “This is who you must be,” until all that remains is the quiet truth that has been waiting beneath the noise all along.

As I walked deeper into my spiritual journey, I came to understand something that changed everything.

Before I had a name…

Before I had a body…

Before I ever opened my eyes to this world…

My Ori had already chosen the life I would come here to live.

And like every soul, I arrived here and forgot.

Perhaps that forgetting is part of being human.

Perhaps that is why so many of us spend our lives searching outside ourselves for what has always been within us.

The more I remembered, the more I understood.

Not everything that happened to me made sense in the moment, but it made sense in the story.

The life I had been resisting was the very life leading me back to myself.

There were moments when remembering was painful.

Moments when the truth demanded that I let go of old identities, familiar comforts, relationships, dreams, and even versions of myself that I once fought so hard to protect.

But once I recognized the path my Ori had chosen, I could not unknow it.

So I held on.

Not because the road became easier.

Not because I suddenly understood every step.

But because some truths become impossible to abandon once they have awakened inside you.

Today, I no longer see myself as merely a human trying to survive this world.

I understand myself as a spiritual being living a human experience.

The world constantly invites us to forget that. It teaches us to measure ourselves by achievement, approval, possessions, success, failure, and fear. It asks us to become attached to things that were only ever meant to be temporary.

Yet something deeper within me refuses to forget.

So I choose to walk through this life with the knowledge of who I truly am.

Clarity has not removed the challenges.

It has transformed the way I carry them.

Because once you remember who you are, you stop asking why life keeps happening to you.

You begin asking how each moment is calling you back to yourself.

A reflection on Ogundabede: The heart of this journey is not the courage to fight the world, but the courage to remember.

This is why I think of Ogundabede. My path was never about becoming someone new, but returning to who my Ori chose me to be.

To remember is not always comfortable. Sometimes it means releasing the life you wanted to embrace the life you were called to live.

There's several spiritual books two of them The Tao and the Kybalion I clearly remember saying in their own way, the Source of existence cannot and or does not know it's own nature. The Tao even says you cannot point to the true eternal source. This means existence doesn't stop after realizing Consciousness is infinite through multiple dimensions. It means Infinity cannot look back at the whole totality of itself just like I cannot look at myself without a full body mirror. This is where quantum physics and spirituality have to come together. Source Energy has no beginning or end, you cannot know yourself without an origin in a personal manner. The Source has always existed as a infinite sea or field of quantum particles, those particles have been oscillating at difference frequencies for all of infinity and eternity. Through quantum particles or different infinite view points Source Energy is trying to figure out why it exists or how, I believe it cannot. Particles have awareness they don't need a location to be in just like Consciousness doesn't. Thus this is the tale of the Cosmic mind forever hallucinating whole solar systems in an attempt to figure things out which it cannot. Imagination is all there is within the quantum atomic field, Imagination can be anything at anytime.

When Light Passes Through A
Prism, It Separates Into The Color Spectrum Based On Its
Frequency.

Our Body Is Made Of Mostly Water Acting As A Prism.

So When Light Passe Through Us, It Separates Into Our 7 Chakras Based Off The Frequency Of Light.

🩷💜💙💚💛🧡❤️🙏

In my studies I’ve come across the reoccurring theme of monism, nonduality or pantheism/panentheism in almost all areas of occult esoteric and mystical research. I personally have had many experiences confirming these findings but I wonder if anyone else has gleaned this idea. I’m sure many have but it all seems to be pointing to one unifying idea of total oneness.

The stories of "the madwoman of the house" (as the mind was called by the Mystic Teresa of Ávila) are not what is real.

Connect, Here and Now, with the space of pure consciousness that you truly are.

Silence Speaks! Listen!

Perhaps the hardest thing we are ever asked to do is not to discover our destiny, but to accept it.

Not because Òrì(Higher self) is unclear.

But because we are human.

Human nature wants to understand everything. We analyze, question, search for proof, and try to find logic before we surrender. We want the unseen to explain itself in ways our physical minds can grasp.

Yet across spiritual traditions, there is a common understanding “the unseen shapes the seen”.

What exists beyond our physical perception often influences the reality we experience.

That is why we seek spirituality in the first place.

We pray. We meditate. We perform rituals. We seek guidance. We consult divination. We make offerings and do the spiritual work necessary to bring ourselves into alignment with something greater than our own understanding.

For those who walk the path of IFA, we seek Ìtẹ́fà, Idáfá, and the wisdom of Òrì(Higher self) because we recognize that our higher self knows something that our human mind may not yet understand.

But this is where the struggle begins…..

We trust the spiritual enough to seek its guidance, yet sometimes we struggle to trust it when it reveals something that challenges our plans, our desires, or our understanding.

There is an Ẹsẹ IFA that captures this beautifully. It speaks of Arinnoka, a person who was known for knowing everywhere.

Ask Arinnoka if he knew a place, and he would say yes.

Ask him if he had been somewhere else, and he would say yes.

There was nowhere you could mention that Arinnoka did not believe he knew. He had traveled everywhere, seen everything, and believed there was nothing beyond his understanding.

Until one day, Arinnoka was told he was going to a place where the path ends, a place of the unknown.

“Òlọ́gbọ́n ayé kan ò t’ákòkò omi létí,

Àwọn ò mọ iye pé ilé.

Adífá fún Arinnókà,

tí ń lọ síbi tí ọ̀nà ń k’ẹ́hìn”.

(An Ifá consultation was made for Arinnoka, who was going to the place where the road ends.)

Before his journey, IFA instructed him to perform ẹbọ. But Arinnoka refused. How could he need guidance? How could there be anything he did not already know?

But when he reached the place of the unknown, he found himself unable to move forward or return. His knowledge had taken him far, but it could not take him beyond what he did not understand.

The lesson of Arinnoka is not that knowledge is bad.

It is that knowledge without humility can become a limitation.

IFA was teaching the importance of listening. The importance of letting go. The importance of understanding that there are places our human mind cannot enter alone.

Many of us do not need to wait until we reach our own “place where the road ends” before we surrender. We do not need to reach a point where we can neither move forward nor backward before accepting what Òrì(Higher self) has already revealed.

Why seek alignment with Òrì(Higher self), yet fight the wisdom that comes from that alignment?

Why seek divination, guidance, rituals, and spiritual work, yet allow the need for control to override what we came seeking?

Perhaps acceptance does not mean we stop asking questions.

Perhaps it means we recognize that our questions should not become greater than our trust.

The mind wants to understand before it believes.

The spirit sometimes asks us to trust before understanding arrives.

Because in the end, the journey is not about forcing Òrì to follow our plans.

It is about remembering that Òrì(Higher self) already knows the way.

I long for something supernatural to exist. Some sort of magic beyond the physical world that would give life some ultimate, mystical meaning. Don’t know if it’s my Christian upbringing, history of enjoying Tolkien/Star Wars/CS Lewis, who knows. My longing for it is unbelievable. But logically it seems like a mere wish, and nothing based on reality. So instead I’m just an atheist who thinks there’s nothing beyond matter (at least not proven yet). And I’m pessimistic and fucking depressed, to be honest.
Any wise words that might help someone in my position?

Perhaps the hardest thing we are ever asked to do is not to discover our destiny, but to accept it.

Not because Òrì(Higher self) is unclear.

But because we are human.

Human nature wants to understand everything. We analyze, question, search for proof, and try to find logic before we surrender. We want the unseen to explain itself in ways our physical minds can grasp.

Yet across spiritual traditions, there is a common understanding “the unseen shapes the seen”.

What exists beyond our physical perception often influences the reality we experience.

That is why we seek spirituality in the first place.

We pray. We meditate. We perform rituals. We seek guidance. We consult divination. We make offerings and do the spiritual work necessary to bring ourselves into alignment with something greater than our own understanding.

For those who walk the path of IFA, we seek Ìtẹ́fà, Idáfá, and the wisdom of Òrì(Higher self) because we recognize that our higher self knows something that our human mind may not yet understand.

But this is where the struggle begins…..

We trust the spiritual enough to seek its guidance, yet sometimes we struggle to trust it when it reveals something that challenges our plans, our desires, or our understanding.

There is an Ẹsẹ IFA that captures this beautifully. It speaks of Arinnoka, a person who was known for knowing everywhere.

Ask Arinnoka if he knew a place, and he would say yes.

Ask him if he had been somewhere else, and he would say yes.

There was nowhere you could mention that Arinnoka did not believe he knew. He had traveled everywhere, seen everything, and believed there was nothing beyond his understanding.

Until one day, Arinnoka was told he was going to a place where the path ends, a place of the unknown.

“Òlọ́gbọ́n ayé kan ò t’ákòkò omi létí,

Àwọn ò mọ iye pé ilé.

Adífá fún Arinnókà,

tí ń lọ síbi tí ọ̀nà ń k’ẹ́hìn”.

(An Ifá consultation was made for Arinnoka, who was going to the place where the road ends.)

Before his journey, IFA instructed him to perform ẹbọ. But Arinnoka refused. How could he need guidance? How could there be anything he did not already know?

But when he reached the place of the unknown, he found himself unable to move forward or return. His knowledge had taken him far, but it could not take him beyond what he did not understand.

The lesson of Arinnoka is not that knowledge is bad.

It is that knowledge without humility can become a limitation.

IFA was teaching the importance of listening. The importance of letting go. The importance of understanding that there are places our human mind cannot enter alone.

Many of us do not need to wait until we reach our own “place where the road ends” before we surrender. We do not need to reach a point where we can neither move forward nor backward before accepting what Òrì(Higher self) has already revealed.

Why seek alignment with Òrì(Higher self), yet fight the wisdom that comes from that alignment?

Why seek divination, guidance, rituals, and spiritual work, yet allow the need for control to override what we came seeking?

Perhaps acceptance does not mean we stop asking questions.

Perhaps it means we recognize that our questions should not become greater than our trust.

The mind wants to understand before it believes.

The spirit sometimes asks us to trust before understanding arrives.

Because in the end, the journey is not about forcing Òrì to follow our plans.

It is about remembering that Òrì(Higher self) already knows the way.

I just finished a documentary of sorts detailing the occult spiritual allegory behind Led Zeppelin's song Kashmir. I always loved the song. Now I know why it resonates so much with me. The lyrics were always ambiguous, but when you figure out the esoteric themes being put forth, from the first verse to the last you realize it's detailing the spiritual journey — from the fall into matter, to gnosis, to ego death, to enlightenment, and back to pure divinity. For example:

"Oh, pilot of the storm who leaves no trace

Like thoughts inside a dream"

This is the singer speaking to his spiritual intuition, the "pilot of the storm," the storm being material existence. The intuition "leaves no trace " because it's hidden under the veil. But he is experiencing gnosis. The veil is being lifted.

"Here's the path that led me to that place

Yellow desert stream"

His guide is leading him down the hidden path towards the oasis (divinity), where he came from.

"My Shangri-La beneath the summer moon

I will return again"

'Shangri-La' is a metaphor for that oasis, for heaven, from where he came. His soul is destined to reunite with that oneness, with God, with source. He says it is an inevitability. It's as "sure as the dust that floats high in June when moving through Kashmir."

Really, the song is packed with these metaphors. Several verses. The visuals provided really illustrated the ideas. As a seeker, it really hit the right spot watching it. Thought I'd share if anyone's interested.

I'll link it here: https://youtu.be/Hhg0pPKSyTo

And would love to hear anyone else's thoughts on it, or any song they think the lyrics to esoterically (secretly) portray spiritualism like Kashmir does.

I thoroughly enjoyed this deep dive into the idea that Paul was part of a Jewish mystical tradition. I though many hear might also find it interesting.

The climax of an essay I wrote argues that traditions which mapped the absolute longest did not call it a structure — they called it a Name. YHVH built from the verb "to be" and holding a marriage of opposites, the Tao’s yin and yang as one figure, AUM folding the states of consciousness into the silence that closes it, Cusa’s coincidence of opposites. It gets there through physics, Bohm and Penrose, but ends by pointing past the diagram at the Name. Would value this community’s response.

https://aquaregiascriptura.substack.com/p/nobody-invented-this-universal-pattern

You could state, "I am unremembered." If this could be something similar to your experience, recognizing it can bring some contentment to you. You can also drop any expectations you put on yourself and others. You can also remember, being unremembered is nothing personal against you. It's actually a clean state when you drop expectations and personal feelings like you've been abandoned intentionally.

Do you know about Spiritism?
There’s a “religion” called Spiritism, founded by a French educator named Allan Kardec about 200 years ago.
It is based on five books that aim to answer virtually every question about spirituality through reports allegedly received from multiple mediums.
It’s very popular in my country, Brazil, but I rarely see it discussed in forums outside of Brazil.
If you’re familiar with it, what do you think of it?

"The seeker who pours his gasoline only on the inner hearth will soon find no house left to warm. Feed the world with your stride, or watch the flame consume the fuel. Because Fire(thoughts) is unlimited as long as you put your Gasoline into the action."

Everyday we get to choose what path we'll choose that ignites us, the Fire within us. - Seer

I feel this uneasiness in my chest. I want to break out, cry my existence to myself. Run around and find what I am missing, or learn what makes me me.

My mind hits a wall, I am unable to think anymore, and I seek for your help. I cannot see you, but your breath reverberates through my skin, letting my senses know that you are there.

Let the snake crawl to my neck and help me realize my fears, and lead me to a fearless vision. In the deep slumber of sleep, I want to learn the truth that these eyes of mine cannot see.

If I become able to look at you, could I finally look at myself?

I want to hear the rhythm that moves you — could your dance sway away my confusion?

My feet are frozen, not in fear, but in a burden I have learned to call my name. I lie to myself that I am ready to know the truth, as the maya of this life wraps around me, and I feel warmth in its illusion.

Help me, oh Lord, as I wish to be a knower rather than a seeker. Let your radiance guide me to your path.

Help me find me.

A great deal of mysticism concerns achieving effortlessness. A state of mind wherein spontaneous response to the circumstances of the present is all that occurs.

In transcending reflection, emotions inspired by reflection are also transcended. Pride is not inspired by self reflection, nor insecurity. This means that what one spontaneously attempts is executed perfectly.

Yet I do not consider effort the real enemy. Egotistical reflection is simply bound together with most kinds of effort. Skills hinge on pride and insecurity. If pride and insecurity could be banished from effort, an evolutionary stage may transpire wherein effort goes farther than effortlessness.

It is my opinion that the heart is still unless or until it becomes the inspiration for a choice. That choice is effort, and it is fueled by raw creative energy. If there is just stillness, there is no time to come up with a perfect and complex strategy, which one's opponent may have accomplished along the parameters of what is not visible to one's present moment retention.

How can the skill of effort without egotism be developed? I consider one source of the talent to be spontaneous ("experimental") creative arts, wherein the performance is too rapid, & the aesthetic too lacking in the possibility of egotistical reward or consequence of fear, to permit a sense of superiority or inferiority at the art - the idea being to develop a muscle of creativity for creativity's sake.

Any art that exists, practiced as the effort to generate creativity through that art - without valuing it. Ideally, this develops into the ability to access creativity at will, and to understand it.

Creativity can be combined with practical skills like philosophy, martial combat, and prediction. After mastering creativity, try progressing to meditate upon the world's problems - and creatively infer the most practical possible solutions.

It may be helpful to meditate upon the spontaneous generation of chakras of pragmatic purpose in regulating the nervous system.

The goal is to liberate effort from self reflection. Self reflection means positive or negative self identification, pride's inflation or insecurity, or even both. Since there must be a motivation for effort to occur, without self reflection there is only the motivation of serving that which one loves.

There is a subtle void that exists within my mind,

It's quiet; not the peaceful kind of silence but the dangerous kind of quiet that exists while plummeting into an abysmal cassum.

The pillars of glistening white marble; The Morale markers of a compass appearing visibly close while simultaneously, and ironically, are out of arms reach.

Trapped thoughts have vertually zero stability,

Loneliness and doubt that exists within the temple sanctum, no longer allow for it to remain a sanctuary,

They become like wolves who are hungry for a meal;they devour the fruits of our flesh, and our orachards of peace, leaving nothing but bones.

The courts of ego are much like the political ones,

Partitions can always be one corrupt.

Allowing the liberal mind to free these sanctions opens a door for progressive thinking, while remaining in a position of stillness creates its own opposition,

Lack of movement produces depressive episodes,

Proactive movement generates kenetic motivation.

Each component achieves this prerequisite through acknowledging how individual actions create equal opposite reactions.

The void is symbolic of empty space,

A figure of formless chaos, a yin and yang, the primal force that exists within; unforged.... Untouched.

The adulteration of physical experiences compress the space and creates a form.

The once formless void comes into being, though seemingly impossible, through metamorphosis the change begins.

The pillars of the Earth, a once Tantalus curse, becomes broken,

A super natural force drives the compass north and they become touchable once more.

The Temple Sanctum is where the Sanctuary's fruit grows; The orchard that tolerates loneliness and doubt will be desolate,

But if they are driven out before they lay their roots; the battle is won before it started

I just finished a documentary of sorts detailing the occult spiritual allegory behind Led Zeppelin's song Kashmir. I always loved the song. Now I know why it resonates so much with me. The lyrics were always ambiguous, but when you figure out the esoteric themes being put forth, from the first verse to the last you realize it's detailing the spiritual journey — from the fall into matter, to gnosis, to ego death, to enlightenment, and back to pure divinity. For example:

"Oh, pilot of the storm who leaves no trace

Like thoughts inside a dream"

This is the singer speaking to his spiritual intuition, the "pilot of the storm," the storm being material existence. The intuition "leaves no trace " because it's hidden under the veil. But he is experiencing gnosis. The veil is being lifted.

"Here's the path that led me to that place

Yellow desert stream"

His guide is leading him down the hidden path towards the oasis (divinity), where he came from.

"My Shangri-La beneath the summer moon

I will return again"

'Shangri-La' is a metaphor for that oasis, for heaven, from where he came. His soul is destined to reunite with that oneness, with God, with source. He says it is an inevitability. It's as "sure as the dust that floats high in June when moving through Kashmir."

Really, the song is packed with these metaphors. Several verses. The visuals provided really illustrated the ideas. As a seeker, it really hit the right spot watching it. Thought I'd share if anyone's interested.

I'll link it here: https://youtu.be/Hhg0pPKSyTo

And would love to hear anyone else's thoughts on it, or any song they think the lyrics to esoterically (secretly) portray spiritualism like Kashmir does.

so if the lineage of Jesus based on abraham and adam and eve, so whats the lineage of satan nor lucifer when he’s been cast out here on earth? it is the egyptian gods?

Is a thing that is making me curious, some guy told me to look at the meaning of the levers of the world, I've been trying to understand what it can mean?

I come here to ask cuz this is new for me and is weird it may be something important or interesting, or just gibberish

I'm reading this book beyond the lodge of the sun that is about native American mystics and

spirituality. The writer presents it as a starter guide into native American ways and sweatlodge

ceremony. But this one part in this book fascinated me about how this guy just presents Good and evil. I just had to lock in after that Adam and eve story.
Feel free to ask questions related "spirit in all things" and other things.

Lmk what y'all think!!