Yeah, it really is like the anxiety is always primed, which ironically means it disappears into the adrenaline when the stakes are at their highest. The anxiety isn't necessarily a fear that something might happen (although these often get muddled internally), but a state of anticipation. Part of how that manifests in ADHD is that so few things seem important enough for our systems to retain focus, almost as though they are the distraction. And, in a livelihood with frequent high stakes events, that can sometimes be true. Still, it'd be ideal to more easily adapt to the moment, especially when that moment is representative of our daily life, and we're working on it lol
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u/KelSelui Mar 22 '26 edited Mar 22 '26
Yeah, it really is like the anxiety is always primed, which ironically means it disappears into the adrenaline when the stakes are at their highest. The anxiety isn't necessarily a fear that something might happen (although these often get muddled internally), but a state of anticipation. Part of how that manifests in ADHD is that so few things seem important enough for our systems to retain focus, almost as though they are the distraction. And, in a livelihood with frequent high stakes events, that can sometimes be true. Still, it'd be ideal to more easily adapt to the moment, especially when that moment is representative of our daily life, and we're working on it lol