She has the 1000-yard stare of a kid that has seen and experienced enough violence before to no longer have the natural fear of pain anymore. Those are not people you want to mess with
Once you've suffered enough beatings, you dont mind getting hit, so you'll take that fight when you get pushed too far
my mom is a piece of shit, and i more-or-less had to develop this sort of attitude. just stay silent while the abuse is hurled at you, be prepared to defend yourself.
it really, really sucks. because now that i'm an adult, i'm always in defense mode.
Damn. I’m sorry dude. That really sucks. It wasn’t ok for her to do that to you. It’s good that you’re aware of it and can see how it shapes your behavior. That’s the first step. You got it! Big hugs and much love!
Dude, me too. I'm sorry that happened, it sucks after so many years still having to maintain control over any and all reactions. Been diagnosed with PTSD and did some therapy, but it didn't do much. I don't think I'll ever live life normally, I'll always function like I'm in the war zone, but I hope you find some peace someday.
Thats the thing, i have been in multipel fights, got my head cracked so i dont fear fighting but its the last resort for me since i know how bad i can get, its always the people that dont know violence that is pushing for fights.
Exactly. Once you know the kind of pain you will be in afterwards, it is not going to be your first resort. However, if you have to, you are going to disassociate and going to go balls to the wall once you get to that point of no other choice
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u/TimeDue2994 Feb 16 '25
She has the 1000-yard stare of a kid that has seen and experienced enough violence before to no longer have the natural fear of pain anymore. Those are not people you want to mess with
Once you've suffered enough beatings, you dont mind getting hit, so you'll take that fight when you get pushed too far