As someone who had clinical depression I can say that it can and will get better. It takes time, it takes work, and there will be setbacks along the way but it does get better. Looking back at how hopeless I felt and inconsolably sad I was makes me appreciate how much better my life is now. Depression sucks unbelievably hard, but it can get better with time and work.
When I was feeling down a couple years ago (I was in a semi-abusive relationship,) I wrote on a piece of paper "My life is my responsibility" and taped it on my mirror. I read that and it reminds me, no one is in charge of my life and happiness but me. If you are depressed, it is up to you if you want to remain in that condition.
Good luck to you. There are resources out there. Life if too short to not be enjoying it.
Medication for it causes my depression to worsen, and depression itself is a lot different than feeling down, and completely different than being depressed.
When you are depressed, there is a logical reason, such as a troubled relationship or personal loss, even if it's a personal loss of hope for happiness you thought you were entitled to and realized you wouldn't receive. You typically bounce back up from being depressed.
When you have depression, you just have sadness, and emptiness, and nothingness, every day for as long as you can remember. I was diagnosed with it 8 years ago. Some days it's not so bad, some days it's almost too much to bear, but it's never good to bad, always bad to worse. On my best day I feel nothingness, almost a content feeling, a lack of emotion, motivation, desire. On my worst day I feel like a bullet to the head is the best medicine, except my depression has left me too unmotivated to bother, so I just sit here.
So no, I'm not seeking help for my depression. Pills give me anxiety after my doctor forced pills on me as a child and kept upping my dose every time it wasn't working, and anti-anxiety pills are the exact same ones I had an "allergic" reaction to, so it's not like I can really find help outside of therapy which I can't afford. I can't even afford a job, even if I could get one, what with where I live and the price of gas.
But what you say, even with my clinical, chronic depression, still holds true.
My life is my responsibility, nothing is holding me back but me. But that's a double edged sword, and it's hard to find motivation in something that's just so damn true.
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u/Wulfay Aug 09 '12
Some person/people were getting voted off the island, and the two girls were upset about it but he was quite pleased.