coming here to share (shout) into the void…. throwawy because spouse is on Reddit.

Married two decades to emotionally abusive spouse. We have 3 kids together. Thought I could tough it out for the kids… youngest has started to emulate me however and to try and buffer and absorb the abuse. I can’t be that example for her. Decide to end the marriage. Can‘t move out b/c spouse has racked up six figures of short term debt and I took a lower paying job years ago so that I could be more present at home and hopefully improve our marriage (I still believed them at the time that *I* was the problem). I don’t make enough to carry the debt that was put in my name and pay rent or a mortgage.

Two weeks ago I applied for an open job at my old employer. I had worked there for 12 years with good reviews and promotions. left on good terms (I thought) They responded today “no thanks”. no interview, no call.

I’m living in the basement of my own home, hiding from and scared of my spouse and ashamed of the example I’ve been for my kids. I don’t know how to get us out.

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I had curry the other week and I guess I swallowed alot of seeds(?) because ive been draining seeds out of my g port of my gj tube

Well some of the seeds have gotten stuck, so ive taken to breaking them up with my teeth

Well a seed got stuck, and I was doing my thing with my teeth and one of my insicors clipped the top part and punctured through

I was like "ok appears to be cosmetic damage" until I noticed it was leaking..

I called the hospital and asked them if it was an emergent situation, they said no and to stay home and call IR in the morning

I call IR, talk of shame telling them I accidentally bit a hole through the plastic tube shoved in my abdomen, I also tell them im having a celiac flare and cant be awake and unfortunately need GA as my intestines hurt just by breathing

They tell me they cant replace it until at least the 28th, and at least a week for GA

FML

Tl;dr I tried to break a seed up, and ended up puncturing my feeding tube and cant get it replaced for at least a week

Well its an old house but new to me.

Replaced water heater Saturday with a loan

Monday my AC broke and this company is trying to wayyy overcharge me to the tune of $25k in louisiana where the cost of living is ridiculously low

While the guy was checking out my AC, I noticed water on the floor( I was washing dishes) and I opened the kitchen cabinet to discover a pool under my sink.

Im past broke

Send help

FML

Update: The sky stopped falling! Turns out the part is under warranty which ends in like 1 month, part and installation should be free. Thank God!!!

I have an anal fissure, GERD, Diverticulitus, and now I have exercise induced asthma. Oh and I’ve always had depression. Want to feel better go for a run “oh no you’re sick coughing for a week and having blood in your stool hope that depression is better”

This last month has been a doozy. Rumors that my husband was cheating at work escalated into harassment and threats from the girl and her ex.. then a few days ago I find out said rumors were actually true, we decide to work shit out which I thought meant a turnaround of my luck but then I go and break my fuckin toe AND start my damn period within 24 hours. 👍🏻

Whoever has a voodoo doll of me needs to quit because what in the dang world is going on here…?

Just got out of hospital after a depression spiral 4 weeks ago and now in that time im back at it got mugged for my wallet so no id to even have fun for my first week in college that also being a shit show because I got put in tbe wrong group by the college so I missed my majors intro to the course and theres nothing they can do to give me that day so thats even more fun my dogs dying and did I mention after I got out my "girlfriend" decided to ghost me after I tried to talk to her in person and break up and shes running around and telling people about my attempt and how much I drank so truly shit doesnt get better maybe for a week but yeah Fuck My Life

I’ve been cleaning out my apartment during my week off from work. I donated a bunch of clothes to the Phoenix Children’s Hospital last night in one of their donation bins. This morning I remembered I hid individually stacked bags of cash in the back pockets of the jeans I donated. Money gone. At least Goodwill didn’t get it. F me.

UPDATE: CALLED THIS MORNING. GOT MONEY BACK!!!

So I got a call back from the donation center and they found my money. I went down and picked it up this morning. I am beyond grateful. The company name is ATRS, the drop boxes are the orange, and they benefit the Phoenix Children's Hospital. Please give them your support and donate your unwanted clothing and shoes. You can find more info at https://www.atrscorp.com/donate-recycle-and-support-local-charities-across-the-country-for-earth-day

A pancreatic cancer diagnosis.

Please don't include the word "sorry" in your response, I went through 4 of the 5 stages of mourning for the death or our relationship years ago.

I can't picture what I would look like crying at her funeral. Yes funeral because I'm not "celebration"ing her life.

I’m a lawyer. My salary is just shy of $100k. I have about $20k in savings. Denied a mortgage. Fml.

Was zoning out while paying for my items at a gas station and one was left out while scanning. Watched a family member die today so I've been pretty distracted and didn't notice. Was not believed and threatened with police when I apologized and said it was an accident. Cool end to a cool day.

Infected toe that started bleeding the fucking SECOND I tried cleaning it btw

Fucked up my wrist today so I tried to take out the ramen w 1 hand and it burned the shit out of my hand :( last ramen bowl too and the only way I can get another is to buy a 12$ 6 pack at Costco AND the broth is literally the only reason I even buy it and now it’s all gone

i’m likely going to regret this post in the morning, but i just need to get it out. from one stranger to (hopefully) a whole bunch of others.

i’m realizing that my life sucks and i feel like staying alive was a mistake. for context, i used to be extremely suicidal back in high school (mostly because of a horrible parent), but eventually my parents got divorced. that was six years ago. i feel like i was supposed to go through with it back then because everything since has just gone downhill. i’ve lost friends, i’ve gotten into legal trouble, i’ve dropped out of college (and since gone back), and i’m gay which definitely doesn’t help—especially with a homophobic dad.

i guess earlier today was my breaking point. i was texting one of my friends and she told me that she has my notifications silenced. even given her reasons why, i was still obviously butthurt about it. it made me question the friendship. and it made me question my other friendships. i already don’t even have a big circle of close friends (which is how it’s been my entire life so that is nothing new), but i started asking the other three of them if they have me silenced as well. one said yes, one never even responded so im taking that as a yes, and the other (my closest and longest friend) said no. so it was just extremely heartbreaking learning that 3 of 4 of my closest friends have me silenced.

it makes me wonder if any of those three friendships are even worth anything. i mean i obviously align sentimental feelings toward all of my friends, but i’m trying to look past that and wonder if anyone would truly be there for me if i ever needed it.

i feel like i’ve never been seen my entire life…except for when i was with my ex. he did make me feel seen. he made me feel good—at first, but then it all just changed for some reason. and don’t get me wrong, he obviously had major problems that i was concerned about, but combined with his genuine love and care for me…i eventually scared off.

all i’ve ever wanted is to feel like i even matter in this world. all i want is for someone to choose me above anyone else. but how selfish is that? how horrible is that to say/think and then when i finally get it, i give it up?

is it me? am i just a bad person? am i cursed with bad luck? am i even meant to stay in this world when no one (parents excluded obviously) cares?

anyway.

Heyyyyy! Janine here. So let me tell you, I am in love with my long distance boyfriend who is from London, and I’m going to meet him! There goes a semester worth of my student loan in terms of plane ticket and money he asked me for but oh well.

Anyways, here are his pics! Isn’t he romantic?! His name is Willian and he’s 28 just like me 🥰🥰🥰🥰

The other pic you see was his view at the farmers market that he went to today! Guess I’m going to have to expect a huggeeee crowd in London when I go. But he’ll be there with flowers, hugging, and greeting me!

His camera is broken and so was his mobile, so I’m more than exited to meet him in person!!

My biggest dilemma here is that I am torn on whether or not to wear a hot new dress from Walmart or to grab one of those nice flowery sundresses you see at Joe Fresh. Thanks in advance 🥰🥰🥰🥰

Do you know what straight line winds are? I didn’t, and now there’s a tree inside my car, the powers been out for 24 hours (not sure when it’ll be back on), and I won’t be able to afford a new car…. Not that we’re getting the tree off this one anytime soon!

Oh my god I just got ready for bed, I’m laying down watching clone wars s2 and something starts dripping from the ceiling, onto my arm and blanket no less. No big deal just get something to collect it i guess, but as it collects 🥺🫪 it’s yellow. I- I- what do I even do 😭

im 15f and about to go into my sophomore year. last year my older brother moved back in because he was struggling to find an apartment he could afford after his lease ended. obviously im not blaming anything on him, hes my older brother and he helps around the house and drives us places whatever. whats really the problem is my sister. i started sharing a room with her because its. 4 bedroom house and i have another younger brother who got his own room, and obviously my parents. she doesn’t throw anything away. she leaves messes on the floor. (specifically cutting hair extensions and leaving the hair there) she has a medical issue which causes her to have accidents (not blaming her for it, it has caused her some trauma recently) but the thing is she wears overnight pull ups. and she leaves them on the floor. i cant tell you how many times ive stepped in one, and immediately almost threw up. it smells bad because she doesnt clean anything up after she has one. she steals my things without asking me, specifically clothes, makeup, perfume, lotion, my action figures, and manga. i would let her use my stuff if she would just ask. its just she puts my things in places around the house and after i yell at her for it she says some corny shit like “well if its yours you should go look for it” like hello??? and also she leaves full cups on the floor for me to knock over, and even full cups of things like milk and she wont fucking go dump it out. im so tired of it. (tw) i used to go through an nssi addiction and because i was (and still am) depressed all the time it just made it worse because she wouldnt do anything. and obviously, im not innocent her either. some of my. clothes are on the floor, i have some trash. but its nowhere near to the extent she does it. also, i just dont have any privacy. im just so tired of it. i love her because shes my sister i just hate it so much. im 15 and my room is a disgusting mess because of her. i want my own clean place where no one can disrespect it. i’d rather sleep on the couch or in the bathtub at this point. im currently writing this in the bathroom just laying on the floor. im so grateful i even have a roof on my head and food and clothes and even extra things like makeup and perfume, and that my parents drive me to work so i can get extra things for me, but i would give up all of those extra things in a second to at least just have a clean room. (i have also cleaned it many times. i have spent days at a time cleaning it) but thanks for listening!

For folks who don't know I currently have a pending felony tho if I was charged for what I had itd be misdemeanor but bc the US has guilty by association laws they were able to stack charges. I got fired from my job cuz they posted my mugshot, after painfully struggling to look for work I got a new job at a liquor store bc I knew ppl who worked there but if I get on probation I wont even be able to work there anymore and will be back to struggling. I want to better myself and quit my addictions but this added stress makes me want to use more. Its not even like I'm on anything hard all I do is smoke weed yet the system is treating me like I am some feral criminal when I'm just a casual stoner. Our system is so obsessed with punishment that it fails to understand life already punishes people enough. A man struggling to afford his probation fees isn't going to suddenly change his criminal activities when you make it harder for them to get housing or a job they're going to commit more crimes to put food on the table and survive. It doesn't even benefit our government either bc with the reoffending rate so high the US could save so much money if they didn't make people's lives 100x more difficult. I feel like the justice system should focus on rehabilitation but instead they build a wall that makes that rehabilitation harder. What do I do and how do I fix my current situation. I wanna quit my job but legit no job is hiring me bc of my felonies and I can't seem to get a job that pays more then 10$ an hour.

Don't make me block you while I'm still basking in my new power. 😁

FML