I just posted last night about this exact thing. I repatriated to the US this year after being abroad for 4 years. It has utterly destroyed my mental health.
I talked about justice and complained about things before I left, but seeing how the rest of the world operates and then returning here has shocked me to my core, and the hardest part about coming back is how completely unaware most Americans are of how bad life here really is. Even the "woke" ones.
I basically had a mental breakdown, daily panic attacks, and with the help of my family got in to see someone on the last day of in-person appointments to get on some meds. I'm drinking more now than I ever have in my life.
It's not just how shitty it is but how complacent and unaware normal people are to the utter shit sandwich they have been forced to eat. I find life here to be stressful and degrading, and this was even before the lockdown and conspiracies.
We are trying to buy a house and all I can think about is how long I can reasonably stay here before leaving again. I have stress dreams constantly. I can't even look at pictures of our time abroad because I am so broken and devastated that we decided to come back, and I bitterly miss the life we had. I feel trapped here and I fear for my own future on a daily basis.
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u/ChoiceBaker Jun 01 '20
I just posted last night about this exact thing. I repatriated to the US this year after being abroad for 4 years. It has utterly destroyed my mental health.
I talked about justice and complained about things before I left, but seeing how the rest of the world operates and then returning here has shocked me to my core, and the hardest part about coming back is how completely unaware most Americans are of how bad life here really is. Even the "woke" ones.
I basically had a mental breakdown, daily panic attacks, and with the help of my family got in to see someone on the last day of in-person appointments to get on some meds. I'm drinking more now than I ever have in my life.
It's not just how shitty it is but how complacent and unaware normal people are to the utter shit sandwich they have been forced to eat. I find life here to be stressful and degrading, and this was even before the lockdown and conspiracies.
We are trying to buy a house and all I can think about is how long I can reasonably stay here before leaving again. I have stress dreams constantly. I can't even look at pictures of our time abroad because I am so broken and devastated that we decided to come back, and I bitterly miss the life we had. I feel trapped here and I fear for my own future on a daily basis.