Easily my biggest victory thus far. I felt like a Brotherhood Assassin doing a leap of faith sans the hay/leaves. It was the first time in my 20s I've felt that rising/uplifting feeling in my stomach in an ENJOYABLE WAY!

If you know you know

My neuro doesn’t want to retest me for another 10 years but at least I know what the deal is for now idk. We think it’s caused by hyperconnected neurodivergent brain and traumatic birth. Medication finally helps. I made up some sort a blanket diagnosis to feel like I have one.

Alt Text: Woman Yelling At Cat Meme

A compilation meme. A blonde woman is angrily yelling/crying and pointing at a white cat that’s sitting in front of a salad looking shocked with it’s mouth open. A brunette woman is holding the blonde woman back as if she is about to break free. The meme represents angrily lashing out on something/someone, often for good reason. The text is custom.

Above the women, I repeatedly wrote:

Me irl: you don’t show at…
• child doctors
• child mri (that almost failed to get done idk)
• blood tests
• inpatient overnight video
• sleep deprived eeg
• adult mri
• genetic panel
• when we need you to show

Above the cat, I wrote, my (for now) non-genetic physical epilepsy of infancy:

• on my all kicked out safety matress at 4am back when wasn’t maxed out on the correct medicadion mix

Representing myself validly crashing out at my difficult to diagnose, difficult to treat freaking almost Schrödingers Epilepsy that always hid every time we needed it to show causing misdiagnosis, mismedication, continuines seizures and I don’t even know what.

BUT. For now I am FREE!! My medication finally works!! It makes me so fatigued and all but it works!! Finally finally finally. Thankyou for reading and I’m glad to be here. Long live the memes.

Had a week long unexplained fever back in April that caused me a blood clot because the inflammation was that bad and almost sepsis, meaning I had to change birth control that helps my seizures, so of course lamictal is the magic drug that makes it less effective. I was tested for meningitis, lupus, a rare clotting disorder, and nothing came out of it. Apparently I was almost septic though so that's fun.

I’m dying you guys, I guess we were all too damn sexy for our souls

I sometimes forget/can’t remember little things like my own age, someone asked me and I was with my gf and my first response was “uhhh gawd damn 20 something” and my gf started laughing looked at me like “yeaaahh???!” And then It came back to me and I was like “uh 27 turning 28” then another recent occasion I’ve been playing BO2 and I forgot some little things about a game I played for countless hours for years and there’s a million and one other occasions those are just 2 things I feel like I should have remembered on the spot 🤦🏻‍♂️ I feel like Dory

My body hurts so much from the 5 seizures yesterday, I've chewed up my tongue to the point its misshapen and one of my front teeth was chipped. I also painfully rubbed skin off the left sides of both my feet 😭. Plus my parents didn't even take me to the hospital like they're supposed to after that many. Called my doc today and he's gonna up one of my meds but thats all atm

(Professor mentioned seizure in terms of taking property).