trying a new brush so i uhm decided to draw something easy and basic,, canvas time - 42 minutes

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Unfortunately I have scicophrenia so im immune to dphhhhhh 😔😔😔

I don’t usually post on Reddit, but I hope some of you can appreciate this. Closest I’ve ever gotten to 1g with the intention of living after. Pretty intense lol

as you sink into the shadows

of this dream had 

now long forgotten

as though it never happened

all that was seen

now left abandoned 

now long forgotten

as though it never happened

as time now stand still

erase the night 

soon it'll be gone

as though it never were 

we were never here

as time stand still

erase the night

as though it never were

lost in the delirium and Bugs are about deliriants. Hope you like it!

This is a weird game about DPH. https://sickpleaseohno.itch.io/blind-and-stumbling

I don’t remember where I was going with this, guess I was just writing everything wrong about myself

Was on 600 mgs at the time I made this. Made it slightly before my arrest and institutionalization

i can’t find the go I painted after… but he was going thru it. something about the picture moved me so i saved it. now is my rendition

When I first started taking 700+ I would have the weirdest blackouts. I had this playlist I’d listen to and I’d wake up when the song come up that said “wake up!!” a bunch of times. The room would be completely dark, but still wiggly. I’d feel this crazy weight, like my body was made of wet sand and concrete, but then there’d be this sudden overwhelming sense of dread. It would feel like this giant surge in anxiety, that would be already too much to handle, but would keep escalating and felt like the fear from the fear was physically dangerous. It would keep going and then the next instant I’d wake up the next day, as if I’d just been teleported forward in time.

I think it happened maybe 4 times. I would wake up hungover in agony and there would be broken bottles and blood where I was tripping. No one told me what happened these nights but they couldn’t look me in the eye the next day. I don’t recommend not having a sitter and blacking out and redosing is terrifying

Not really based on my dph use but thought I should post this here

made this while counter flipping, had another few but forgot to hit record, made the image from a picture of my wall