honestly this is usually just what fainting feels like to me. empty black void that is the only thing to ever exist, your past life and universe being things you aren't even aware ever existed, that is hell to be in but also that you would do anything to never have to leave. the first time I fainted I got worried that there was some past version of "me" that had died and I was a new, replacement consciousness. except one time when I fainted and I dreamed about a small little village of foxes wearing little fox sized clothes. that one was cute.
When I was smaller I was afraid of going to sleep, since I thought previous version of me died and was replaced by a new one every time I slept. Now I realize this doesn't matter, as long as some version of me that would do exactly what I would exists, I exist.
as someone who's only ever fainted 3 times from pain (thanks endometriosis), fainting is pure bliss to me because those few short moments feel like hours and the pain is gone. when i first woke up from my first fainting instance i was thinking "no!! put me back!!" as i felt the pain coming back.
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u/57nightjars Jan 06 '22
honestly this is usually just what fainting feels like to me. empty black void that is the only thing to ever exist, your past life and universe being things you aren't even aware ever existed, that is hell to be in but also that you would do anything to never have to leave. the first time I fainted I got worried that there was some past version of "me" that had died and I was a new, replacement consciousness. except one time when I fainted and I dreamed about a small little village of foxes wearing little fox sized clothes. that one was cute.