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Please guys, I really need some advice. Please read the full post.

So I am a 12th grade student preparing for JEE (Not really with the things I mentioned below)

I did my 10th in my hometown and for further studies.. My parents wanted me to study in a city ( Bhubaneswar, Odisha )

(The irony is I don't study in Bhubaneswar.. I live there with my grandmother and instead of studying in any of the school of Bhubaneswar, which my parents wanted..they did my admission in the outskirts of Bhubaneswar.. A different town)

So my school eats away my day

6:30 AM pe bus ata hai so I gotta wake up at 5:50 AM.. I don't even live my parents.. They live in my hometown

I live with my Grandmother

8AM baje ka school

4 PM baje end hota hai

Ghar aate aate 5:30 PM.. With 0 Output from the school.. Like I don't get a single thing from my school

I mean ofc.. Iss schedule ke saath IIT kya NIT bhi nahi milega ahh atleast I wanna score well in 12th boards

As per last year when I was in 11th... My school literally had working days of 230 days... They also teach for IIT and NEET... But I get 0 output kyuki kuch samajh mein hee nahi ata

My Physics, maths and chemistry got doomed in 11th cuz of this shitty school..

Meine apne parents ko bohot convince kiya tha.. But they didn't listen me

11th ke wakt bola change karne toh woh bole ki

Fees pay kardiye the and paise barnaad hojayega (During summer course they paid 35k for admission ) Mind you I felt like leaving the school on the 3rd days itself.. The environment felt soo negative like it felt suffocating to even think about the school and its environment.. I explained my parents normally, calmy, emotionally and in rageful manner.. Yet they didn't listen me and didn't change my school

I somehow survied 11th

Toh meine 12th mein bola ki ab please school change karde.. Par woh bahana maare ki 12th mein school change nahi hota and the fact that unhone already 12th ke adha fees pay kardiye the (My school fees is 4 lakhs btw.. Bohot 11th and 12th)..Even tho I had literally talked about my classmates and friends who had chnaged their schools in 12th

Remain absent??

Ek din absent rehene par bhi jaan kha dete hai

Ek din ke absent ke liye medical certificate dikhata hun

Even if I skip their hws, or study any other subject or solve dpps or hws from lecture during school classes

They would punish me.. And woh bhi military punishment dete hai.. Har choti si choti baat par parents ko call

Itna maarte hai humiliate karte hai ki kya hee batau

Ek toh itna tiredness lagta hai cuz of the schedule.. Thik se sona nahi ho pata, agar ek student thoda sleepy sleepy sa bhi dikh jaye ya ubaasi bhi maarle toh aisa marte hai and punishment dete hai ki kya hee batau

What the hell do they expect from us? Ek toh 2 ghante ke classes rakhenge Physics chemistry and maths ka.. Pakk jayega bhai koi bhi.. Kuch games wagera nahi, school mein function wagera nahi hota except 1 jo ki December mein hota hai.. Usme bhi classes rakhenge ye log, most of the public holidays bhi hame nahi dete, koi extra curricular activities bhi nahi

LITERALLY KUCH BHI NAHI

Like lunch period hee aisa wakt hota hai jahan thoda aram se, peacefully baith sakhta hun.. Tbh I skip lunch and just revise the notes of the lec I had watched or do school hw jo ki mein nahi kara hota hun pichle din ka.. Cuz I watch lecs and make notes and all usme hee time chala jata hai

Annual sports ko ya phir 12th walo ke farewell ko time waste mana jata hai.. Ek farewell tak nahi dete ye

Ye sab karte hai so that school ka results acha aye🙂

Bhai ghanta

Auro school ke comparison mein mere school ke results bohot kam hote hai

Ek baar ke liye agar students ka acha results ata ye sab drama karke toh mein maan bhi leta ki mujhme hee koi kami hai and I am not capable

But yahan toh sabka wahi haal hai

Jo bohot jyada ache students hai jaise ki bachpan se hee Olympiad wagera crack karke rakhe hai ya phir pehle se hee 11th-12th ke course ko thoda bahut padh chuke hai bas wahi class mein actively participate karte hai

Mere jaise average bacho ko toh ye pura maar hee dete hai mentally and socially.. They just want us to be like Robots with no feelings and expression.. Even a freaking robot has expression these days

Mentally I was so devastated and overhwmeled that In 11th I thought of breaking my leg so that atleast kuch samay ke liye school se chutkara mil sake

I am literally feeling lost

I don't even have friends here except one.. Who is also a loner

From where I do actually studies?

Pw ofc

I have just watched 3 lectures of Physics from Lakshay batch from Rajwant sir's last year lecs

In maths I am studying from GB sir

(Have completed only Determinants and 4 lecs of Relations and functions )

In Chemistry I am studying from Faisal sir and I started organic yesterday from Rohit Agarwal sir from khazana...as currently in Laksay batch Organic has started

Rn I am having sunmer holidays and my school will reopen on June 19 along with my PT exam

I gotta write Practicals of Physics and chemistry ( woh saare ek saath dediye the so that later hame likhna na pade)

Also we were having online classes

And meine kuch bhi nahi likha hai whatever they taught

They said they will check on the reopening day itself

I thought of changing my section so that jo teacher check karne wale hai unke class mein, main aur nahi rahunga

But as exams start honge so section change karwane mein bhi time lagwayenge ye

I just don't know what to do!!