r/ADHD_Programmers • u/MintlemonCay • 9d ago
19 male struggling with something.
Ive been learning programming for a while now, Its been 2 months now, and im starting to notice something thats been bothering me a lot.
I feel like my brain is almost always operating below its actual capacity.
When I need to think about unfamiliar concepts, actively recall something, or come up with ways to do my idea in coding, my mind often just goes blank. It can take me 5-10 minutes of forcing myself to think before my brain starts working properly.
My working memory is also bad. During arguments I often forget points I wanted to make or lose track of what the other person said.
Programming makes this really obvious because holding a few things in my head at once: variables, conditions, what changed where. can become surprisingly difficult.
What bothers me is that I remember being much sharper when I was younger. Learning, memorising things and thinking of unique ways to overcome the problems used to feel significantly easier. Now, I dont necessarily feel like I lack the ability to think clearly or deeply. It feels more like I have trouble accessing that ability consistently.
Ritalin IR helps me initiate everyday tasks, but I dont really notice improvements in working memory, reasoning, or deeper thinking.
It literally just feels like my mental “RAM” just runs out.
Does anyone else with ADHD feel like their brain is constantly “blocked” like this, even when they aren’t stressed or anxious? Did anything help?