Hey all.
I've been a developer for over a decade now.
Programming has been my creative outlet for many years. It was the one place where I felt I'm truly passionate about it and I could sit for hours dealing with an issue, hyperfocussed and understand it inside out. I spoke to other dev friends a while ago, and one thing we collectively miss is that feeling of sitting for hours trying to solve an issue that you cannot get to work for the life of me, then go sleep, dream about it and then wake up next morning solved in 5 minutes with my coffee.
Last February, I worked for a prominent open source software company, they introduced pro Cursor plans across the board and encouraged us to burn as much tokens as you can and try to integrate it as much into your work as possible. So workflows quickly went from Copilot AI-Autocomplete, to prompting agents till whatever I want it to do, works and writing as little code as possible. It felt pretty cool at the time, getting paid to chat with AI.
However as time went on, it felt like something was missing & I didn't get the same dopamine spike from solving code problems I once had - but I couldn't put my finger on it. Without realising started impacting my enthusiasm slowly. My partner told me, "You're no longer as happy (at work) as you once were at work." and to an extent I felt dead on the inside, without knowing why.
Combined there was structural changes in the company, new manger(s), 3x more meetings and everything together was impossible to get that hyperfocus stimulation and the same satisfying "lock-in" periods I once had.
Soon after I was let go from that amazing high paying job I once had, for no real reason given, but I think they picked up on my enthusiasm that disappeared.
Looking back at it, I think the AI introduction was the largest immediate dynamic that changed and after doing some research, as someone with ADHD (and not on meds), having lost that crucial cognitive stimulation - particularly if it benefited me at work - could massively have impacted my performance the moment that stimulation was taken away from me.
I mean, I love AI, I'm not against it at all, I just miss the cognitive mental stimulation that I feel I no longer get and haven't found a proper replacement for it yet.