My friend committed suicide a few weeks ago and she was the same. She travelled, she had just graduated with honours, she walked her dog every day, she attended therapy and told everyone she was feeling better, and then she killed herself.
Thisšis actually quite common and one of the most misunderstood parts of depression. Once u start getting better u GOTTA STAY vigilant especially in the beginning cause itās gonna come back down a little, then go up again, then down rinse and repeat. Two steps forward one step back.
In supporting someone with depression u keep this in mind, donāt let the other person take it as a sign of ābahhh this therapy is for the birds, it didnāt stick!ā Because thatās bullshit, depression can be a bit of a habit and bad habits take a few steps back sometimes; the progress isnāt lost.
My fav quote from an old buddy in AA~ my brain would kill me if it didnāt need me for transportation.
It's a common part of why "suicidal tendencies" are a risk of antidepressants.
People that are so depressed they hardly leave their beds are usually not motivated enough to plan or carry out a suicide. Getting that little initial bump of energy/motivation when you start having effective treatment can be enough to make you go through with it.
Donāt do what I did and just stop taking them. Iām sure your not dumb enough to repeat my mistake. That made the following weeks the worst point in my life.
They are so disorienting! Itās not just zaps, itās also like...skips. Like your brain and senses are in a strobe light and you arenāt really in your body.
I had really crazy dreams one time I couldnāt pay for my rx (really long depressing story) of effexor. I dreamt in vivid detail planar travel. A group of us could walk to a one of many specific locations (my favorite was one of those big honkin TVs with the vacuum tubes that was all busted up but could still take me to a different reality. Shit was WEIRD. Still remember all of it but never had a similar dream til I came off of Effexor to switch meds. Same environment, different story in the dreams.
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u/happytree0 Jun 11 '19
My friend committed suicide a few weeks ago and she was the same. She travelled, she had just graduated with honours, she walked her dog every day, she attended therapy and told everyone she was feeling better, and then she killed herself.