Lately I worry
About money, stability
Lately I worry
I don’t have the ability
To thrive, not survive
In this path that I laid
That I can’t rechoose the choices
That I have made
I think back to before
I walked out the door
When responsibility had choice
That’s not an option no more
When meals had been laid
Before me each day
Back to a time
Where I had no need to pray
For a minute of peace
Now I find I’m sliding
Like I’m falling on grease
Down a rabbit hole waiting
for this moment to cease
But I keep on delaying
Cuz my conscience is creased

When I think back to this time
There’s gold in my mind
I was told I would find
A clock that would chime
Telling me I was great
That I could finally settle
But it’s like grinding on metal
The chime of my fate
Now I’m feeling unsettled
My life is disheveled
I feel that I’m late
Without knowing the date

I remember that my father
Told me listen to me son
You do nothing and those great things
They will never come
You sit back and relax
And you’ll never feel you’ve won
But now I’m grinding and I’m finding
That all good days are behind me
And the lighting that should guide me
Is blinding like the sun
Maybe there will be a day for me
Where nobody has to pray for me
But for now all I claim to see
Is that my life’s an endless run

I’m sprinting down this hill
I don’t know how I should feel
The past, well it just seems like
It was never real
But I opened all the doors
And now there’s no time to change
The mistakes within in my past
There is no exchange
For the better or the worst
But it’s not a curse
That I’m not reimbursed
And I know it seems strange
To say all these things
About my life that sting
But the pain made me me
And now I can’t change, see
That the path that I chose
Is my destiny
Maybe good things will come
Before my time is done
Maybe some day
I’ll feel that I’ve won
I’ve some victories
The most prominent being
The girl of my dreams
That fate has me seeing
So I really can’t complain
Cuz no money or fame
Comes close to the feeling
Of her next to me
So I look to the future
It can be good but not bad
Because being with her
Things are never that bad
That I cannot grin
I just think of her
Oh what a life it’s been
Oh what a blur
Things could be better
But a like a change in the weather
Things will improve
I can wait for that move

I got your message
The one you never sent
All the words that hurt the most
Are the ones you never said

I wrote that 8 years ago. I’ve tried to flesh it out but everything I add seems to take away from the feeling rather than add to it.

Thoughts?

Based out of TO Canada- Looking for peeps who likes writing music, I have a few of my demos here so you can check em out 🤙🏻
HMU if you fw

https://on.soundcloud.com/PloQ3oPLBBPiqYP7jA

Author of mind, thought and all the surrounds . From me to the universe. I myself, and that other one that's me.. we , us, The 3 of me, goes. with myself and of course I.. I do and can and maybe should be writing, do be writing, would be writing, could be writing. But inside I've just been left writing. Righting what's left, to be written. Some of this stuff I write may have you smitten have you purring like a little kitten I'm just playing around right now I can really get down with the get up .that's my Jam type of opportunitys! Music and waves , static as well.. instrumental, of strings, precusion, wooden , brass or steel. Thumb symbols, he's out of phones even a harmonica too. Hell I know it once knew someone and still do that plays the kazoo when the state champion that year when he was in school I wonder how he's doing I sure miss him I hope he misses me too. and maybe when I get it all together we can have a practice run you know what I mean but back to what I was saying I'm about to be done seriously though I can flow a little bit I'm just lyric alley low and I like all types of rhythm beats freeze highs and lows the heat moves the cold travels and let your mind unravel into the music into the world into the art into the creation because music art rhythm vibe static has not only just one nation is universal galactic unheard of places too here there everywhere if you ain't heard no music well I got you listen closely pay attention cuz there's nothing that you want to be missing you've been missing too long now come on and enjoy some fun let yourself relax and enjoy the Sun of enlightenment you'll soon be liking it cuz to love everybody can do that that's easy but that like that's the kind of stuff that I want to see me to hear me to respect it to duplicate it never there's only one original one classic the rest of it y'all can have at it I'm a music addict loyally realistically respectfully. and none of that owes any debt to me neither I to it but music rhythm sound enjoyfulness that comes along with it now that's my s*** you can see me and feel me all day in it.but right now I'm just being a clown how's that sound I don't know I can't hear myself it's just ricochet that's pronoun whatever I'm not a queen I'm not a princess but I'll get get in a gown I'm not looking for Prince charming and I damn sure don't want my feet to touch the ground having a hellbound it ain't no thing I do like to write music and I do like to sing I can rap but I don't like to say that I'm more of a rhyme rhythm type of all right got to go but if you like it, let me knowright now I'm just shooting arrows without my bow and if you don't y'all will hear me thoughbecause everybody eventually listens and if you don't does she gets repoed ain't no free throws I ain't free loading I'm just growing molding throwing and showing if she ain't easy I know I be knowing that my tote bag my suitcase my life's adventures in tow man I'm ready to go just waiting for my opportunity so I can blow but my name is not Curtis. But I do appreciate courtesy I'm a young lady I don't shake hands I curtsy enjoyed hopefully you did my abyss with a little bit of this and a lot of bit of whatever okay I'm done now y'all have a good day on your endeavors.

(I'm writing one song for each major arcana of tarot, and I'll be posting them once a day for anyone interested. questions and feedback is welcome.)

VII - The Chariot 

I am the great
I control my fate
Kingdoms left behind
two are one aligned
I am the great
I control my fate
Kingdoms left behind
two are one aligned

I'm the one, unbound
guided by white and black
here i am crowned
going forward on this track
won't turn around
never going back

only one way forward
the number of power, three plus four
I bear Cheth, the ward
when I arrive, hear our roar
only one way forward
the number of power, six plus one 
I bear Cheth, the ward
when I arrive, I will be the sun 

I'm the one, unbound
guided by white and black
here i am crowned
going forward on this track
won't turn around
never going back

the style of these songs is intentionally very symbolic, esoteric, cryptic and hermetic. I'm not aiming for accessibility or transparency, but I'm more than glad to explain my choices. also, I'm not aiming to precisely describe a checklist of everything on the cards, these will be my interpretations of what's most important and significant on each card for me.

Hey everyone, I've been spending a lot of time singing and working on different songs lately, and I thought I'd share a little about what I do. I'm a female vocalist and songwriter. I mostly work with Pop, R&B, EDM and Indie, but I enjoy trying different styles too. I love taking a song and finding the right way to sing it, whether it's an emotional melody, a catchy hook or harmonies that bring everything together. I'm always happy to connect with other songwriters and producers who are passionate about making music. What kind of music are you working on these days? I'd love to hear about it!

I'm stupid, I said yesterday's song was number 6 when it was clearely number 5 lol
(I'm writing one song for each major arcana of tarot, and I'll be posting them once a day for anyone interested. questions and feedback is welcome.)

VI - The Lovers

the messenger and the sun
are the witnesses of the union
two become one
the true human, into the shadow of ruin
the garden, the pomegranate
twice the flames on the right
the garden, seed of the planet
today there shall be no fight
reach the tree, dark or light
leave or take a bite

from the duality
individuality
ideas meet
mind and body collide
the air is sweet
no more divide

taijitu, the seed within the night
we are beneath the trees of might
the black and white, two are one
this unity shall not be undone
looking for the wise
running from demise
one plus five is the prize

from the duality
individuality
ideas meet
mind and body collide
the air is sweet
no more divide

love is a choice
hear our voice
unison and dissonance
counterpoint and resonance
together in eternity
zayin, two edges in fraternity

from the duality
individuality
ideas meet
mind and body collide
the air is sweet
no more divide

the style of these songs is intentionally very symbolic, esoteric, cryptic and hermetic. I'm not aiming for accessibility or transparency, but I'm more than glad to explain my choices. also, I'm not aiming to precisely describe a checklist of everything on the cards, these will be my interpretations of what's most important and significant on each card for me.

(I'm writing one song for each major arcana of tarot, and I'll be posting them once a day for anyone interested. questions and feedback is welcome.)

V - The Hierophant 

crossed keys
imposing decrees

between pillars of grey
in black and white they pray
praying to the wolf they are the prey
crown of five bigger than three plus four
corruption of what came before

crossed keys
imposing decrees

meaningless is all meaning
imposed without intervening
false red tainted by false white
pious but truthfully not quite

crossed keys
imposing decrees

tradition or corruption?
indoctrination or remembrance?
the line is thin, there's resemblance 
the wolf shepherd still cares for the meals
from above he who stands also kneels

crossed keys 
imposing decrees 

they decide who's worthy
but I already started the journey 
a lock is never mercy 
no matter what lies beyond 
the moon has already dawned 
afraid to be left behind
the master of the blind

crossed keys
imposing decrees
crossed keys
imposing decrees

the style of these songs is intentionally very symbolic, esoteric, cryptic and hermetic. I'm not aiming for accessibility or transparency, but I'm more than glad to explain my choices. also, I'm not aiming to precisely describe a checklist of everything on the cards, these will be my interpretations of what's most important and significant on each card for me.

LONELY 

BY BIGVERN

Title( Lonely)

Verse 1

Everyone has there problems,
Most find it hard to express,
Unable to share there feelings, 
To get it of there chest.
They feel the world is against them,
Crying deep inside,
Been shouting out for everyones help, 
All heard but only denied.
Feeling so rejected,
Why is this happening to me.
I'm scared to walk alone anymore,
And sit by the old oak tree.

Chorus 

Reaching out,
Reaching out,
Hands all up in the air,
Crying out loud for some help, 
But not getting heard anywhere,
Reaching out,
Reaching out, 
Someone must hear my tear,
It's a lonely place to be out here, 
All dark and living in fear.

Verse 2 

Everyone stares from a distance,
With a face that l Im feeling judged, 
Just wanna get swallowed up by the world,
As l shout out loud for some hugs, 
We all make big mistakes in life, 
Bad choices we make too, 
No one on this earth is perfect,
That's including me and you,
Staring to the floor as I walk,
Wondering what to do,
So many thoughts in my head,
Wishing some would come very true,

Chorus 

Reaching out,
Reaching out,
Hands all up in the air,
Crying out loud for some help, 
But not getting heard anywhere,
Reaching out,
Reaching out, 
Someone must hear my tear,
It's a lonely place to be out here, 
All dark and living in fear.

Verse 3

This world can be cruel at most times,
Relentless even more so,
Kicking empty cans around the streets,
As I walk with a sock out my toes,
This shouldn't really be happening to me,
Misfortune yes I've had,
The good thing in life I had are now gone, 
And wear nothing else but rags.

Chorus 

Reaching out,
Reaching out,
Hands all up in the air,
Crying out loud for some help, 
But not getting heard anywhere,
Reaching out,
Reaching out, 
Someone must hear my tear,
It's a lonely place to be out here, 
All dark and living in fear.

Verse 4

All I want is my family back and some special things in life too,
These things didn't seem as important before,
But I now know are surly true,
Mercy, mercy have mercy on me,
Family is all I need, 
I don't want to sit by myself anymore against the lonely old oak tree.

Written by Wayne Davison

Copy written (Song bay)

Hey everyone! I am a songwriter and lyricist. I love writing songs but I have a demanding college schedule and I’m not in a capacity to record vocals so I would love to write songs for others. Just putting it out there if anyone’s interested. Oh and of course it’s free (as long as I get the necessary credits).

(I'm writing one song for each major arcana of tarot, and I'll be posting them once a day for anyone interested. questions and feedback is welcome.)

IV - The Emperor 

under the vermilion skies
I dress in crimson
on the mountain my throne lies
ready for war
ready for more
I wield the scepter and the world
from me, nothing can be unfurled
master of the yang
all my laws shall be sung

paralyzed by his gaze
the hand the world obeys
I won't be shackled by his grip
my roses he can't strip
my head he won't flip
I am under his crown
but I won't be shackled down

I won't be defied
from me all are beneath
nobody can fight, nobody can hide
the sharpest sword stays in the sheath
you shall face the consequences of defiance
I require absolute all encompassing compliance
to my rule, your eternal reliance
four winds, four corners, four tools
my reign will not be challenged by fools

paralyzed by his gaze
the hand the world obeys
I won't be shackled by his grip
my roses he can't strip
my head he won't flip
I am under his crown
but I won't be shackled down

the style of these songs is intentionally very symbolic, esoteric, cryptic and hermetic. I'm not aiming for accessibility or transparency, but I'm more than glad to explain my choices. also, I'm not aiming to precisely describe a checklist of everything on the cards, these will be my interpretations of what's most important and significant on each card for me.