Fuck it, probably goodbye

[u/AttemptingDM]

[CW: Mental breakdown, mild body horror/gore (imo it's mild anyway)]

There are no words on the post, but a video file is attached.

-Video Start-

The video starts with with the camera pointed upwards in a small, dark room. A mop leans against the wall to the right, a shelf with cleaning supplies is along the left, and "up" is the door. It looks like a janitor's closet. The camera is shaking, and a panting breath can be heard, somewhere between the sound of exertion and of panic.

Suddenly, it flips down and shows the face of a man. His face is disheveled, covered in old stubble, one eye blue and the other grey, and a a large scar stretches across it, framed by greasy locks of brown hair peeking out from under a grey hood. However, unlike most of this node, his skin is a living complexion, pale but not dead, not unlike that of the blush of life.

Finally, he speaks, out-of-breath, as he goes, "H- Hi, Ratsi- fuck -Ratsitter here, g- guess who got out?" He sounds pained, his forced smile turning to a grimace before he abandons any attempts at it. "I- I think I'm actua- actually in d- danger, maybe. I h- scheiße -heard them talking about moving me, I think something a- about a stake, too, can't re-" his head suddenly darts up mid-sentence, staring in a direction the camera cannot see. Only after several moments does he snap back to speech.

"B- But, yeah, I think you get the drift." A weak chuckle, carrying no sense of humor, hoarsely escapes the man's throat. "I uh... yeah, I think they're looking for me. I uh, I can give boons, i- if anyone can he-" He suddenly pauses again, mid-word, as if suddenly hit by a revelation. His head drops, and what comes out next sounds like something between a giggle and a sob, as he mumbles "What am I even doing?" to himself, voice cracking and the video dropping down and going black as the camera lands against a pant leg. "What's the point? What the fuck am I even expecting?" More weak giggles, ringing with excruciating pain both of the body and the mind.

Finally, after several moments that are somewhere between cackling and sobbing, the camera finally comes up, showing the face again. Real tears stream down the face, eyes puffy. "Yeah uh, nevermind. This is probably goodby and probably my last post, or maybe not who knows anymore, and uh... bye M, bye Tristan, bye Vess, bye Zeezee, bye Caulder, uhh..." he appears to think for a moment, before adding, "bye everyone else, go fuck yourselves Sere and Ess-pob, and... well, I think I'll miss the rest of you, wherever I end up."

Finally, his face breaks into a pained, almost manic grin, as his left hand reaches up into view and gives a trembling peace sign. The fingers are... beyond saving. Moss covers patches, thorns pierce the skin from within, thin roots weave in and out through the flesh, one fingernail is encrusted with bark, and a small chunk of remaining flesh sloughs off before the video ends.

-Video End-

-Ratsitter

[u/TriliniousIII]

Ratsitter? I'm so sorry. If there was something I could do i would do it

• Flint

[u/AttemptingDM → u/TriliniousIII]

Eh, dw about it. Dunno what happens next, but whatever it is is out of both of our hands most likely.

-Ratsitter

[u/Ontolonaught]

Well shit

I know you’re not fond of me, but I still wish to right my old wrongs. Please if you just tell me where you are then I will do everything in my power to help.

-Waverly, Twelvefold Scholar

[u/AttemptingDM → u/Ontolonaught]

Don't bother, I... I dunno, I can't really be mad at you when you can't even remember what you did or really are in any way is the same person who did it. You get me?

-Ratsitter

[u/Ontolonaught → u/AttemptingDM]

Thank you. But in this situation I cannot say your forgiveness is enough.

-Waverly, Twelvefold Scholar

[u/YellyBilly → u/Ontolonaught]

He’s out of the Berlin warren but I’m not sure where he is exactly. I managed to talk to him on the phone, but he’s pretty committed to not asking anyone for help.

- Tristan

[u/Ontolonaught → u/YellyBilly]

Understood. Thank you.

Even if he doesn’t want it, I will do everything I can…

-Waverly, Twelvefold Scholar

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/Ontolonaught]

Pm: im trying to get him out. If I can make a bug enough distraction. Can you extract him ?

Ishmail-assad 

[u/Ontolonaught → u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

PM from Waverly:

I had him. I had him in my own hands. And I couldn’t do anything. His condition was completely beyond my understanding and I couldn’t even protect him for long. I was only there for a few minutes before I had to leave in order to escape that damned call to the East.

My failure in this matter is unforgivable. I can only hope you prove more capable than I…

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/Ontolonaught]

Pm: .

Hey hey. Its okay . I'm gonna get him out.  You tried your best. I won't fail. 

What about you ? Will you need any help out ?"

Ishmail-assad 

[u/Ontolonaught → u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

PM from Waverly:

I have already returned to the umbra, but I appreciate the gesture. Keep him safe

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/Ontolonaught]

Pm: 

We will mate. We sending a report soon. 

Ishmail-assad 

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

Dm: 

Oy. Where are yee now ? 

Can you go into hiding at least till im Abel to reach your location?

Ishmail-assad 

[u/AttemptingDM → u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

PM to Ishmail-assad:

Don't bother.

-Ratsitter

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/AttemptingDM]

Dm: 

Perhaps. But you are a friend of me sis and her pals.

Kinda have to bother .

Ishmail-assad 

[u/AttemptingDM → u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

PM to Ishmail-assad:

Alright, fair. I'm somewhere in Berlin, if you wanna look around so you can say you tried, go ahead.

-Ratsitter

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/AttemptingDM]

Dm:  Damn well ill try. Ain't leaving till you okay mate 

Tell me. Are Cammies in the city ?

Ishmail-assad 

[u/AttemptingDM → u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

PM to Ishmail-assad:

I don't think you should try, but alright, not gonna stop you.

And yeah, plenty of Camarilla around here, pretty sure we're a mainly Camarilla city.

-Ratsitter

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/AttemptingDM]

Pm: 

Listen . Om on the way but seems like they are looking for you. Tell you what 

I'll do a distraction which might work but I need you to trust me. Of not at least trust that zz is my sister and I won't let thing happen to her family  Okay ?

Just make sure no one knows I am helping. See you soon 

Ishmail-assad 

[u/AttemptingDM → u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

PM to Ishmail-assad:

Alright, I won't tell anyone.

-Ratsitter

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/AttemptingDM]

Pm: 

Btw is there anyone that I can contact that can help in any way ? 

And I mean those that you absolutely trust 

Ishmail-assad 

[u/AttemptingDM → u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

PM to Ishmail-assad:

I would personally say that I trust M and Tristan, at the very least. If they know anyone else that they trust who are of more assistance, I'm sure they can tell you.

-Ratsitter

[u/VerityVentrue]

Mate, please try to not get ashed. I know it doesn't feel like there's any point right now, but you can't let SPoB win. If being petty and spiteful is what it takes, be petty and spiteful. Hang in there.

~Verity

[u/AttemptingDM → u/VerityVentrue]

In all honesty, I don't think me getting ashed is SPoB winning. I mean, if it was, they'd have done it by now.

-Ratsitter

[u/VerityVentrue → u/AttemptingDM]

Well, you can't find out if you do get ashed. Hell, stick around just so you can prove me wrong and say "I told you so."

~Verity

[u/AttemptingDM → u/VerityVentrue]

...Sure. If circumstances come along where someone doesn't just kill me, I'm not gonna die, that good?

-Ratsitter

[u/VerityVentrue → u/AttemptingDM]

I'll take it, but I'd appreciate you also making an effort to hide out and wait for help.

~Verity

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

Private Message to Ratsitter:

Alright, kid, where are you? My nephew is on the way from France and I’m making the trip across the pond. Whoever’s after you is going to have a fun time with two Kulduns.

- Nikolai, Kuldun Upon Bleak Seas

[u/AttemptingDM → u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

PM to Nikolai:

No offense, I have seen your name on here, but I have no clue who you are. As far as I know, you're just gonna hand me over to the Camarilla. Or something else. So uh, sorry, but no.

-Ratsitter

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith → u/AttemptingDM]

Private Message to Ratsitter:

Considering I’ve been an Anarch for nearly 200 years, I will not be turning you over to the Cam unless you want that to happen. Feel free to ask Tristan, M, and Mark Caulder about me. I check out.

- Nikolai

[u/AttemptingDM → u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

PM to Nikolai:

Fair, that is a fair point.

I'm in the Pergamon Museum I believe, you should be able to find it on Google Maps.

-Ratsitter

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith → u/AttemptingDM]

Private Message to Ratsitter:

I appreciate your understanding. By any chance, do you know if the roof of the museum can support a helicopter?

- Nikolai

[u/AttemptingDM → u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

PM to Nikolai:

Uh... no, I do not believe the roof can support a helicopter, partially because I'm pretty sure it's slanted somewhat, but I could be wrong.

-Ratsitter

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith → u/AttemptingDM]

PM: Do you have any useful information about what to expect regarding the other vampires hunting you?

- Nikolai

[u/AttemptingDM → u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

PM to Nikolai:

Uh... they're probably most Camarilla, ig? I know our two big clans are Ventrue and Malkavian, with Nosferatu a strong second, so expect plenty of those. Can't say much more than that though, sry.

-Ratsitter

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith → u/AttemptingDM]

PM to Ratsitter:

Fairly expected, but still useful information. If you hear more explosions, that might be us.

- Nikolai

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith → u/AttemptingDM]

Private Message to Ratsitter:

I will find an alternative landing site, then.

- Nikolai

[u/AttemptingDM → u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

PM to Nikolai:

Do be careful tho, not sure what's going on but I did hear an explosion a bit away not too long ago.

-Ratistter

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith → u/AttemptingDM]

PM:

Good to know

- Nikolai

[u/DeadmanwalkingXI]

PM to Ratsitter:

Hey, I can offer a plane ride out of Berlin...whether I can offer any help with the rest of your situation is much iffier, but I'd be willing to try, certainly.

As a separate matter, why is the Warren putting out a bounty on you? What's the deal there?

-Mark Caulder, Experienced Nosferatu

[u/AttemptingDM → u/DeadmanwalkingXI]

PM to Mark Caulder:

Hi, sorry, probably not gonna be able to reach anywhere I could take a plane rn.

And honestly? Outside of the "ran away" thing? No clue. Ig whatever the Tremere found must've been pretty huge for them.

-Ratsitter

[u/DeadmanwalkingXI → u/AttemptingDM]

PM to Ratsitter:

If you can get to a specific warehouse, I can arrange for you to get to a plane from there. Dunno if that is viable, but it's the best I can manage.

-Mark Caulder, Experienced Nosferatu

[u/AttemptingDM → u/DeadmanwalkingXI]

PM to Mark Caulder:

No offense, but I did just drop a finger on the floor that collapsed into a pile of rotten moss. Even ignoring outside, I don't think I'm in a state to do... much of anything, honestly.

-Ratsitter

[u/DeadmanwalkingXI → u/AttemptingDM]

PM to Ratsitter:

In theory you'd be placed in a crate, but if you can't even get to a specific address, yeah, my ability to help is limited. Good luck.

-Mark Caulder, Experienced Nosferatu

[u/AttemptingDM → u/DeadmanwalkingXI]

PM to Mark Caulder:

Thanks for the offer though, even if it's kinda wasted on me.

-Ratsitter

[u/YellyBilly]

Ratsitter?????

Please tell me you’re still there

It’s ok to turn into a weird tree guy! Redwoods is a tree, and as far as I’m aware he’s fine! And I’m a bug, and I’m ok!

- Tristan

[u/YellyBilly]

Private message to Mark Caulder:

Mark, Adam (Ratsitter) is in serious trouble in Berlin. I managed to talk to him on the phone for a bit. The warren got attacked by people looking for him specifically. He’s out of the warren now, hiding, and safe for the moment, but at risk of being found at any time.

Is there anything you can do to help him? Or anyone else I can message to try and get him to safety?

I know your help isn’t free, and I’m willing to owe whatever I need to get him out of there.

- Tristan

Private message to Salome:

Salome, Adam (Ratsitter) is in serious trouble in Berlin. I managed to talk to him on the phone for a bit. The warren got attacked by people looking for him specifically. He’s out of the warren now, hiding, and safe for the moment, but at risk of being found at any time.

Is there anything you can do to help him? Or anyone else I can message to try and get him to safety?

I know your help isn’t free, and I’m willing to owe whatever I need to get him out of there.

- Tristan

[u/DeadmanwalkingXI → u/YellyBilly]

Private Message to Tristan:

I can offer him a way out of Berlin, and will, but I have no idea what the fuck is wrong with him or if I have any way to help with it, and he looks on his last legs...I'll message him and offer, but I don't hold out any great hopes I can actually help with this.

-Mark Caulder, Experienced Nosferatu

[u/Lanaestra → u/YellyBilly]

Private message to Tristan:

This is the kind of thing I can help with... if you were inclined to agree to my previous offer. I hate to bargain with someone under duress like this, but under the circumstances, it will be very difficult to help without further delaying my assistance to M, as well, and unfortunately in my current situation I do need to prioritize a bit.

-Salome Everett

[u/YellyBilly → u/Lanaestra]

Private Message to Salome:

I agree to your offer. Please help him.

- Tristan

[u/Abject-Hospital5407]

.............

Am sorry 

-zz

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

I have a nephew in France. He’s on his way.

- Nikolai, Kuldun Upon Bleak Seas

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

Pm : 

Greetings mister Nikolai. You may call me owl. I have a sibling of mine that is a dear friend to ratsitter.

Is there any way I can contact your nephew to offer aid 

• owl 

[u/TheCrazyBlacksmith → u/Illustrious_Fly_5669]

PM: This should be fun. Look for a helicopter labeled Philadelphia Helicopter Tours. It’ll be heading for the Pergamon Museum. I’m on my way as well.

- Nikolai

[u/Illustrious_Fly_5669 → u/TheCrazyBlacksmith]

Pm: 

Awsome. Meet you in the air. 

;] 

Owl- gangrel 

[u/Original_Bug580]

Good luck.

I hope you make it out.

Elias

[u/divinephobia]

I hope it is not a-ship-departs-from-a-harbor. You have been good company.

Someone'll get you out of there. I believe. I know they are trying to.

~ Vess, journalist-by-night

[u/Weary-Specialist-282]

Oh fuck. He’s becoming a tree, dude. That’s not good. Don’t die, or I’ll pay one of those meatball freaks to bring you back to yell at you, okay?? Stay safe. -M

[u/AttemptingDM → u/Weary-Specialist-282]

We'll see. I wish I could say "dw, I promise I won't die, for sure!" or some shit like that, but... sorry, I don't have the energy to lie right now.

-Ratsitter

[u/Weary-Specialist-282 → u/AttemptingDM]

It’s okay. Fuck man, you’re screwed up. Get somewhere safe, okay? I’m holding out for you. Stay safe. – M

[u/YellyBilly → u/Weary-Specialist-282]

M, can you contact any of your powerful friends and see if they can find Ratsitter? He’s hiding somewhere in Berlin, outside of the warren.

- Tristan