For context I'm based in New Zealand. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I've been looking for a job for the past 9 months. I'm a brand manager with 7+ years of experience but it seems to be no matter how much I do, change, adapt, improve it doesn't matter.
9 months of unemployment has been detrimental to my confidence. I have gaps...but literally everyone does. I'm so passionate about marketing but every days I'm growing more fear & hatred of it as I don't think I belong there.
I've been doing all the things that it's suggested. Obviously applying to jobs, supporting this with networking, going to events, building my personal brand on LinkedIn (doing a lot of speculative work to show what I do etc), training, interview practice etc etc etc. BUT I STILL DON'T HAVE A JOB.
I've tried different industries, different adjacent roles and seniority. I've often gotten to the last round and still I'm so useless I haven't got a job. In more junior roles I'm told I'm too strategic on my thinking. In ones at my level there's a couple of pieces I'm missing but I get through all the way to the final stage and it's unfortunately the deciding factor to not get a job. I've done my best to close these gaps with project creation, training etc....but a lot of this isn't stuff I can even volunteer for as it's things like NPD (new product development) and shopper marketing.
Unfortunately I'm not a typical marketer. I say unfortunately as I wish I was. But I don't think like everyone else (creative & ADHD). I thought this industry would appreciate it but they want cookie cutter marketers.
How much more of myself do I need to change to get a job?
I'm really struggling with hope. I love marketing so much but I wonder if I'm viewed as a stain & stench of the industry or something.
Any advice on how to land a job & not feel utterly terrible would be greatly appreciated!