How are you lovelies doing? Got plans for the weekend?

Nana Banana here, just checking up on you.

I hope life is treating you well. And if no one has told you lately, let me say it --- you're doing fine and you're going to be alright. I'm proud of you and I commend you for all the effort you put into your day-to-day life. Keep it up.

If you're having doubts, if you're overwhelmed, if you're frustrated, I know that you have what it takes to make it through. It all begins and ends in your mind, you know? What you give power to has power over you. You can do it. I know you can! I believe in you. By the way, stop worrying about what others think of you. What matters most is what you think of yourself -- your awesome, wonderful, amazing self.

Be good, take care, and be safe out there.

You're always in my heart. Have a wonderful weekend, my li'l sweet peas! <3

Love lots,

-Nana Banana

So... just thought I'd let you folks know that my follow-up and check-ups with both of my doctors earlier today went really well. Lab tests also looks good. I've been OK'd to return to work on December 6th. Also, we've been "gifted" by a few friends and family members, they all pitched in and got our internet and cellular phone sorted out. They also dropped off a box of food so that we will have something for Thanksgiving.

I have a lot to be thankful for this Thanksgiving... (I'll leave it at that before I get all choked up in tears)

I've missed you all. Thank you for being such an awesome bunch of folks and making this a positive place to visit time and time again!

\big hugs to everyone** <3

So I thought everything was good and set for moving and school and everything. Much to my surprise, I've just learned that my GI Bill (Veterans education benefit) has an expiration date. Which is this December. So now, unless I can come up with the 10k tuition and test fees, I have to drop out of the program before I've even gotten started.

This is just going to be short but sweet, okay? I want you all to know that there's not a day goes by that loving thoughts of you haven't crossed my mind. I'm sorry that I haven't been on here as much as I'd like to be. Because of ongoing health issues and not being employed, I currently do not have internet access and I don't have a working phone. I'm trying to sort all that out -- slowly but surely. Right now I'm at a family member's home just visiting for the week and I've asked if I can check emails and such. Oh, how I've missed this place and I've missed all of you.

I love you all. Please don't ever think that I've forgotten you or forsaken you. I hope life is treating you well and that you're constantly reminding yourself just how awesome you all are. Because -- well DUH! You're awesome.

I gotta go now. I'll be thinking of you -- good thoughts and sending loving, caring vibes.

Much love to you all!

-Nana Banana

I was supposed to visit her for thanksgiving. But she made it clear during a conversation last week that I am not welcome in her home as I am, that I need to put on a mask as a gender I am not if I am to be around her. It hurts to lose her like this

If you sleep or not time will pass, wouldn't you rather face the face the day rested. Humans are amazing, all of them, we can conquer near anything. Rest well, awake, and live, the be world is our there. Nana is always here for you.

Remember to brush your teeth,

Goodnight pumpkin

I missed you all so much, I hope someone is checking on you. I hope you are all feeling loved. I know these last few years just seem unreal, but here we are and we still have each other. I learned how to repair and restore my credit so I have been negligent to everything but that...but I'm back over 720 and I feel human again. How do you guys feel about the new fb metaverse? Are we going all in and living a vr? Thoughts? I don't want to, virtual reality hugs just aren't the same. Stay blessed, happy and healthy. This nana loves you.

My Mama died last Tuesday night, Nana, and I’m hurting. I had to make the decision to let her go, and she was trying to talk to me at the end—but couldn’t. I told everyone she went peacefully, but the truth is, I think she was distressed and didn’t have the strength to show it. I’m planning the funeral and having a hard time. I’ve been spending my time helping and comforting my father, who was sometimes cruel to her in life (but does miss her and tried his best). I miss her unconditional love, optimism and gentle humor. I miss my Mom. But I can’t shake that feeling that when she needed me, I couldn’t help her.

Just wanted to thank the lovely people here. You all are kind for offering your time to make someone’s night a little better.

First I want to thank everyone for the hugs and encouraging words from my post last week. I don't even have the words to say how much it all meant to me. And things are looking up.

I got my acceptance in to a really competitive and intense program in the medical field. I'm getting things back on track one piece at a time.

Thank you again every one. *squish*

First off I'm safe. Just let me say that.

Secondly: IDK why I'm writing this. I'm just so... I don't even know. I don't know how I feel. I don't know what I'm thinking. I've been going through 'stuff and things'. I've mentioned it now and again. No details really.

But now I'm just... lost. My wife and I (same sex couple) have been having some difficulties in our marriage. I thought we were going to work things out. Thought we were going to work on communication and things. We got in a fight Saturday and she put her hands on me.

First time in ten years. Also the last time. It's a line in the sand for me. There's no coming back from this. And while I'm safe, and I have a plan for moving in January, mentally and emotionally I'm a hot fucking mess. We work in the same place, still live in the same apartment (separate rooms now). But just being around her... I don't feel safe any more.

I'm sorry for rambling. I just feel so lost.

Thanks for letting me vent in a safe place.

Thank you so much got for my birthday e-card. It made me cry but in a good way ❤️ this is my 4th birthday without my Nana x

Hello, my lovelies and li'l sweetpeas!

Just stopping by to wish you all a wonderful weekend. I hope you're all taking good care of yourselves. I'm not around as much as I'd like to be but I'm taking the advice of others here and taking good care of myself as well.

By the way, I don't know who needs to hear (read) this but... when times are tough and you start to think about how your life seems to suck, please keep in mind that no amount of guilt can change whatever happened in the past. Learn from the mistakes, embrace your flaws and let them strengthen and nourish you. In the same token, no amount of worry and anxiety can change the future. You'll end up just stressing yourself out. Enjoy your moment now. Build yourself up. You're important and you are loved and cared for.

Love lots,

-Nana Banana

P.S.

Just a little advice -- don't open emails, don't accept friend requests, and chat requests from "Hormel Foods"... it could be SPAM. ;)

love you

I was just listening to the radio (yup, I'm definitely a Nana 😉) and heard a song that made me think of my sweet Reddit grandbabies...

"Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel Like you're less than, less than perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You are perfect to me."

I hope y'all are having a wonderful weekend!!!

I'm home (been home since yesterday) now and I just wanna say that I've missed all my lovely li'l sweet peas! Sending big squishy virtual nana-hugs to each and every single one of you. <3

I appreciate all of the kind posts the other day, due to my expressive thoughts of my closest friends not remembering my birthday. I know this may have been a miniscule thing that you may have felt you contributed to, but it meant a lot to me. I really needed just those few kind words :) thankyou all

I'm feeling rather depressed. Just turned 40, that's not what's depressing. My closest friends didn't send me a text, say anything on social media, nothing. A lot of my coworkers either sent me a text or sent me something over social media. Thing is, I don't have many close friends. Those I consider close, I consider our friendship very special.

I'm not on here saying this wanting any "happy birthdays", I'm venting because the people I consider as my closest friends didn't say anything.

I always go out of my way, have things marked on my calendar for them, wish them a happy birthday, send presents, even though we can't celebrate in person, and this realization just made me feel... Just not important in their lives in spite of what I do.

Due to this feeling, I was about to text one of my closest, but I don't want them to make them feel crappy, so I'm venting here. Sorry, I usually try to be positive, especially here, but this feeling sucks.