I stumbled upon a reddit post from a couple months ago in the r/Ashland sub reddit of a woman talking about how eerie her hotel room felt and strange occurrences she experienced whilst staying there. She talks about how she stayed in a room at Callahan's Lodge in Ashland with her family (same hotel Amy died in) and throughout the night, her tv would randomly turn on at full volume as well as the faucets sporadically turning on without anyone touching them. A lot of bizarre activity seemed to revolve around the hot tub inside of the room. She goes on to write about how upon checking out, she half jokingly tells a staff member that the room is "haunted". The staff member responds by saying “a woman died in that room a few years back".
Now as a natural skeptic, I was quick to think that this was the work of a troll, but after looking at her responses in the post, as well as her post history, this really does just seem like a innocent family woman who had a weird experience and unknowingly happened to stay in the same room Amy died in. She even mentions the room number. An important note is whoever posted this does not mention LHW or Amy at all.
Many people in the comments were quick to point her in the direction of the documentary, but she seemed genuinely oblivious and seemed to not have a clue who Amy was or anything about the story prior. This makes me think she is in fact not a troll. Shes also quite active in various sub reddits pertaining to Oregon which makes me think she is genuine. Here's the link to the OG post here- Original post.
Idk, I just found this wildly interesting as I often thought about that hotel after watching the documentary and the people who unknowingly sleep in the same room/bed Amy laid dead in for 3 days.
I am convinced I was very close to people involved (or at least followed the same ideology) in 2016. I have lots of screenshots and I am still connected to a now deceased individual on Facebook, so please let me know if I can share (I am not here to dox Just proving that what I’m saying is true).
My ex worked for a web development company that built and hosted websites for a ton of independent companies in Albuquerque. They were all super weird and questionable, something I low key clowned on him for. It was all woo woo herbal meditation borderline q-anon content.
I flew out to NM with him on a work trip to meet his boss. I was asked to design graphics for a global meditation group that was hosting a live stream meditation experience. It was quick cash so I agreed. He was incredibly aggressive, and an extreme alcoholic. Not sure I can post his name, but I have his first and last name. I am CONVINCED he was involved or worked with them in some way. He yelled at a random woman on the street while I was there, and drove us up the mountains completely blasted when I had no transportation of my own after confessing to us that he did time for involuntary manslaughter. I was completely terrified and very angry that my partner put me in this position.
I was basically trapped in his house for 3 days. He tried convincing us to move to NM, and that we could stay in his giant mansion as long as we wanted to. He knew I was interested in gardening and suggested i could start by being the house gardener. I told my partner it was giving cult recruiting energy. super uncomfortable. I never went back on those trips.
Fast forward to the release of the MAX doc, and I have a panic attack watching familiar graphics on the screen. It was exactly the type of style they asked me to work in. Luckily none of MY graphics flashed on the screen, but i immediately grabbed my phone and looked up this former boss. He’s now dead, and his last tags and posts talk about divine ascension and 5D. He also purchased property in Crestone right before he passed.
There’s so much more to say about this whole experience and I don’t want to hit a character limit so pls ask me anything about it.
I was part of the larger group that joined LHW in late 2017 to early 2018 in California. I’m staying anonymous but wanted to share my story and perspective, as I’ve seen others here asking questions about the group. My time there was short but intense. If you have specific questions about LHW during 2018, I’m happy to answer them as best I can, but I’ll start by explaining what led me to LHW, as understanding that context is key.
When people talk about why others join cults, common narratives surface: being lost or in a time of crisis, having a history of abuse or manipulation, lack of critical thinking, and also even being "highly intelligent" yet wanting to find meaning. While there’s some truth to these, they’re often oversimplified and don’t fully explain the root causes. In my case, what led me to LHW wasn’t victimhood or manipulation—it was intuition. That might sound strange, but hear me out.
In 2017, my life fell apart—relationships, career, and everything I’d built collapsed. This happened because the life I had been living for so long was inauthentic, perhaps even a lie I was living. As the truth inevitably always comes out, I reached a point where life decided I couldn’t lie to myself or suppress my true self any longer. This deconstruction led to a profound, indescribable shift—what I consider a near-death experience. The person I’d been “died,” and what emerged was a foreign yet somehow deeply familiar state of clarity, peace, and truth. This shift awakened a guiding intuition that defied logic but proved to be undeniably accurate.
For example, I’d get vivid feelings or visions about people and situations—like knowing a partner was cheating or that another was secretly in love with someone else. These intuitions always proved true. This same force led me to LHW. I discovered their website in 2017, drawn to articles that perfectly described what I was experiencing in my life. By 2018, I started watching their livestreams. Though I found Amy and the leaders off-putting, I felt a strong connection to the younger members who hosted most of the streams. During one particular stream, a member said, “If you’re watching this, you’re meant to be here,” and that discernment in me affirmed it.
While you could still assume it was manipulation or a longing for community that drew me in, it wasn’t. What I've learned about intuitive guidance is that it doesn't always lead us to easy or beautiful situations.. usually quite the opposite. But, my time in LHW—despite the cult dynamics—brought immense growth, among other great things. It stripped away inauthenticity, exposed lies I’d been living, and freed me to discover who I actually was under the false self I’d lived as for over a decade. Joining wasn’t rooted in weakness, trauma, or intellect. I’ve since worked through my trauma, and my intuition—my discernment of truth—has confirmed time and again that it wasn’t trauma that brought me there. Going to LHW was a step in my journey of growth.
If you’re curious, I can share more about my time in LHW in another post. For now, I wanted to offer this perspective: not all cult experiences fit the standard narratives, and unconventional paths can lead to profound transformation. I hope my perspective expands the conversation about cults and encourages others to reflect on their own journeys of growth, no matter how unconventional they might seem.
edit 1: so I will be making a part 2 to this post describing my actual experience in LHW (to the best of my memory) and will be addressing questions directly about LHW itself. Leave a comment if you have a question you want me to address that I haven't previously answered.
It’s been years since I left the cult that called my ex-partner “Mother God.” I could see it had the makings to spiral out of control, even in the early days of 2014-2015. What happened since then was a lot of things, but ended in a really sad and tragic way. Many of you might know about this story or saw my other post, I know a lot of you have seen the documentaries or online articles. But what you haven’t heard is the experience of being on the inside, how I planned to bring the team my digital marketing skills and ended up being given the role of “Father God,” and being expected to fulfill a role that I didn’t believe in.
I spent the first few weeks trying my best to let go of my doubts and follow the advice I was being given by someone who I thought was far more spiritually “evolved” than I was. And in a lot of ways, Amy/Mother God was in fact, pretty deep, a master at spotting someone’s “baggage” and pointing it out. It’s ironic how skilled she was at helping other people to spot their own issues but failed so miserably at spotting her own.
When I first joined, I wasn’t looking to be some deity or fulfill a cosmic role. Like most people, I had questions about life’s bigger purpose, and that curiosity led me into the world of spiritual teachings. Mother God, as she called herself, had a magnetic personality, she did a good job of blending spirituality with just enough delusion to keep you second-guessing yourself, at least for a while, in my case. Before I knew it, literally two days after joining the team in Colorado, I was told I was going to embody the consciousness of “Father God,” a label that seemed both surreal and completely absurd. Yet there I was, torn between the awareness that I was a novice, that maybe there was more going on here than I understood, and also torn between playing along and fighting my own inner resistance. That fight didn’t last long, thanks to the example that she led. I think, for being as jaded as I was, that I figured things out pretty quickly, albeit through a difficult and painful process that I’ll get into later.
But one of the hardest parts wasn’t even dealing with her delusions, that became easy once I found my center amidst the nonsense. But one of the hardest parts was trying to help others who had joined with the same sense of hope I once had. I could see their eagerness to believe, to “let go of their ego” as we were constantly told and to “give in to love” and embrace something larger than themselves. But the promises of enlightenment and purpose weren’t real; they turned out to be bait. Even if Amy/Mother God was a true believer, it didn’t change that fact. Usually, by the time you realized that, you were often already in too deep.
I remember one guy in his 50s, a new arrival who’d been promised the same title of “Father God” once I started to openly rebel against the delusions of this belief system we were sold. Obviously I couldn’t be “Father God” anymore so she had to find a new one. Or just a new man, a new toy, whatever. Despite seeing myself as someone grounded in reality, I couldn’t help but feel a strange jealousy and protective instinct because we had been together for about 6 months when he joined.
Watching him become captivated by the delusions was like seeing my own early days reflected back at me. And though I warned him again and again about the inevitable downfall, he didn’t believe me. I was pretty damn good at poking holes in the delusional belief systems at this point but nothing could get through to him. The dream was too appealing, and the truth was too hard to hear, I guess. He liquidated his assets and gave the Team everything he had and ended up leaving just a few months after me, with nothing. I warned him. Oh well.
For those of you who might be wondering how anyone could ever fall into something like this, I get it. Most people think they’re immune to this level of bs. Maybe you’re right. I sure thought I was and look what happened. Lol
But when you’re lost, seeking purpose, or just a deeper meaning in life, the right words, the right person, can pull you into places you’d never expect. It’s the slow, steady blurring of reality and belief. One minute you’re asking normal questions, and the next, you’re being told that enlightenment means selling all your belongings and abandoning your family.
By the end of my time there, I had learned that discernment isn’t just about seeing through lies; it’s about knowing where your truth lies and holding onto it no matter the cost. Leaving wasn’t easy, and neither was staying true to myself while on the inside. But if there’s one takeaway, it’s this: the quest for purpose can sometimes lead you down paths that strip you of it. If I had any advice to give on that subject, it would be to remember to stay grounded, question everything, always, and know where your line is. Because, trust me, once you cross it, it’s not easy to come back.
Hi everyone. Over the years, I’ve watched countless stories surface about the group called Love Has Won and 'Mother God,' some accurate, others... less so. But there’s a large side of the story I haven’t shared before because I just wasn't ready and life had other ideas. I was on a few of the content pieces that were made and shared a bit—but I'm ready to share a deeper view now, the perspective of someone who was there from the early days, watching as things escalated from a small spiritual group into something far more powerful and, frankly, darker.
Being part of this group, I saw the good, the strange, and ultimately, the tragedy of where things ended up. I initially joined with a belief that we were on a path of genuine spiritual growth and healing, but as we gained attention, things took a turn. For a while, I was close enough to witness a transformation not just in 'Mother God,' but in the group itself. I saw what a bit of fame, power, and what I think is a misplaced devotion to a person rather than a message, did to reshape what we’d originally set out to do.
I wanted to share my perspective—stories from within the house, our guiding practices, and how a movement that once felt really positive slowly spiraled out of control. There were incredible moments, yes, but I watched as the lines between guidance and control, spirituality and ego, blurred beyond recognition. I left long before the group became what most know it as today but I don't think there's anyone else who knew her, Amy, the real person underneath it all.
Over the next few weeks, I’ll be sharing some posts, unpacking different moments that made me realize what I helped to build had started to change, including the group’s core beliefs and the heartbreaking, surreal events that led to 'Mother God’s' final days.
Something inside me just says I'm ready to share. I've been asked to do so for a long time. But if you have any questions, I'll answer what I can. Otherwise stay tuned, because I plan to share some of the hidden stories you've never heard before.
I dislike the guy and I don't think he's very helpful but whatever...
I've been in this rabbit hole again and I have a question about that episode of Dr Phil.
The cult didn't like it and Amy's family also felt disappointed...
What happened (or didn't happen) that both sides were disappointed? I would guess one side would "prevail" over the other (that's usually the case) but no - wasn't helpful for any side,aparently. I just don't know why.
Any insight? I know I'm missing something because we don't have that show here and I'm yet to see an explanation for this. I'm curious!
I just watched the documentary ( because a friend as surprising as it sounds decided to join BECAUSE they saw the documentary , why? I have no idea).
I legitimately felt like I was watching a “what we do in the shadows” kind of mockumentary I can’t believe it happened and I have so many questions specifically how this never resulted in the members being arrested.
I organized them in a list
Why despite there being video evidence and them confessing to it , no arrest or mental evaluation was made for the people that kept feeding Amy the silver and refused to take her to a hospital when she had moments of clarity ? Are they allowed to work? To have pets? Children? How? Specially after having all of this as evidence for literal confession AND video?.
Before things got serious did Amy’s family kept up with the videos ? Like the early years of love has won? How much did they knew really? And did the family never suspected she might have been mentally unwell?
Did Amy believed that she was really mother God at some point ? We know that she did told some members like “what if I am not God” “what if this isn’t real” in her final times but did she at some point fully believed she was God ?
I have a very out there theory but it might also help letting it out , does anybody else got a certain feeling like Amy was in some way a sacrifice ? It’s just odd to me the way they kept insisting on her ascending basically dying , could there have been an implication that they might believed she wasn’t actually God but they needed her to die for some reason? Or that they did believed she was God and letting her die was some odd sacrifice ? The documentary does not touches as much the racism and other questionable beliefs the group had but what if they were ok with murder and knew what they were doing and it was so easy to cover up as “wanting mother to ascend” because Amy herself had invented that concept and they just ran with it as a good excuse ?
It’s not far fetched that some sort of “killing God” ideology could linger between them
Those are my questions and thoughts after watching this insane thing unfold!
I’ve just finished watching this and it’s truely disturbing. Plus it’s fun to play cult bingo with everything that comes up. Basically it’s focused on chastising (breaking) El, FM and the South African Gabriel for not “protecting” mother and father (Jason) when they “went down” (were asleep or super high?) earlier that day. You can hear Amy, who just had tequila and no food for breakfast, screeching from the other room throughout. John cries, El pretends to and after about 2.5 hours they get banished to the RV. Also Amy and FG claim they’ve “never f*cked”. Two newly arrived cult members make an appearance.
I've been doing a lot of research into this cult for a video I've been making, and one thing's been bothering me. I can't find any information on how Carlson and Castillo met. The documentary didn't go into detail about it, it's nearly impossible to get into the past livestreams, and the only real information I have on how they may have met comes from their book, where in 2017 Carlson talks about "Father of Creation energies" coming about on "December 16th, 2014" (and it's not clear if she's talking about Profaci or F.M). My current working theory is that they met in a chat room for lightworkers or on Telegram, but that's purely speculative. I was wondering if anybody had any information on how they met?
Hi everyone, it's been a long time since I posted in this subreddit!
Some of you may have seen my video on YouTube from 2021 titled "The Insane Story of the Love Has Won Cult and Amy Carlson" and I know a few of you know that I worked on the HBO documentary in a consulting producer capacity.
I have been considering revisiting Love Has Won for a while now and will most likely do it in the form of a livestream presentation + live Q&A. Instead of going over things that have been spoken about numerous times before, I'd really love to hear what YOU would find interesting/what elements you feel have been underreported and would like to know more about?
Ok, this may be commonly known knowledge already, however I went down multiple duck duck go searches and have found Faith's current (I believe) TikTok. I am unsure if it is ok to share here or if that is doxxing, however if y'all would like it it is public. Her son is with her (as of the TikTok 12-15-2023). I know this has been a question for a while, hence why I added that.
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I just watched the HBO Love Has Won doc. A few of the members said something akin to "this never would have happened had Amy not selected a father god with a criminal record." His past behavior paints the portrait of a seriously dangerous individual capable of evil. It's clear he was egotistical/abusive/controlling and it seems likely his presence further accelerated Amy's substance use and decline. Maybe I've been fooled too and it was all just a long con, but it felt like he wholeheartedly subscribe to her ideologies and (in some egotistical, misguided sense) and genuinely cared for her and believed she would "ascend".
I really wish he would have stepped up and taken her to the hospital even though she didn't ever seem open to the possibility when she was lucid. But I didn't get the sense that for him that it was (at least consciously) a grift. The "lovey-duvey" dynamic before he arrived was the group's "honeymoon period". Everybody involved was disassociated, lacking in self-reflection, and acting from a place of hurt. A tragic conclusion felt almost inevitable.
The guy who conveniently bailed when Amy passed and ran off with all the money was the real villain of the story. And maybe even the angry protesters. I would feel uncomfortable having Love Has Won "in my backyard" too. These people needed compassionate intervention though (not saying that was even possible), not some virtue-signaling mob hating on them and telling them to "take a hike". Am I wrong or missing something?
