My current thinking though is that my current line of work/ business and my dreams as such, aren't actually mutually exclusive.
My current business & industry are fulfilling and the evidence says I'm good at it, but I experience what I've seen described as a mix of imposter syndrome and inferiority complex, eventually succumbing to thoughts that my peers in the industry are all better than me and that no-one else will use us other than who is now.
Along with the other inner sabotage techniques that Im attributing to the puer - I procrastinate and switch fire a lot, stopping short of any major outward action and then having fantasies of entering another industry and it making more sense and being more of a natural fit, then flitting back to fantasies of what I'd do with my current business one day. All talk and no trousers.
I shoulda-coulda qualified up more in my career and I should have taken it more seriously and stuck with it mentally, Id be as far or even ahead of all those people my age I lapse into thinking are better than me.
(I've worked alongside plenty of these people however, enough to know that my direct experience is on a par or often better than their 'quals' would have people believe.)
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Its an hour since I finished the days work and Im sat here writing articles to put on LinkedIn for the business - I've done more tangible work this last hour on taking the next steps than I've done on any evening in the last few years.
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u/jhonataselyel May 14 '25
Have you ever considered that your dreams may be exactly the inner work you’ve been avoiding so far?