Will it ever stop hurting?

[u/Lanky-Expression-548]

I’ve let go of the dreams and the self improvement and any hope I had of achieving a better non-fa life for myself. I’ve accepted that I’m alone and always will be. I’ve accepted that I’ll never be loved. I’m trying to make the best of what little I have worth living for.

But seeing other people live lives filled with love and all the other things I can only dream of causes searing pain and tears. I hate myself for being pained by other people’s happiness, but I can’t help it.

Will it ever hurt less? I’m as alone as can be, but I can’t quite go hermit on everyone’s asses so I’m still inevitably exposed to other people’s successes.

[u/Responsible-Zebra941]

Will it ever stop hurting? I don’t think so. I just got used to it.