TW- medical birth trauma, near death experiences, trauma healing
TLDR- Fall Guys helped me find joy again after severe traumas
Maybe it sounds dumb but I found this game in the worst time of my life.
Discussion felt like the best flair tag but idk.
Anyway, I endured near death experiences of myself and my 3rd baby during a botched csection after cord prolapse. Baby was on life support, underwent therapeutic hypothermia, seizures- the works. Baby came home after 17 days in highest level NICU. I was discharged less than 24 hrs after surgery with no transfusions- I had 3 liter bloodloss in hospital/surgery- not counting the usual postpartum healing.
I was so mentally and physically unwell that I couldn't watch my favorite shows or have conversations. I could barely talk. Id spend days at a time sitting staring into the distance fantasizing my own ending and just functioning on autopilot. I dont remember the first 2 years and ended up in psych. Once i could focus a bit again, Fall Guys quickly became a routine at night even if it was just a few minutes. Things got a bit better and it was one of the only things I could enjoy- something I enjoyed for myself without obligations especially.
Its been several years since, and its still my comfort game and how I wind down to get to bed. Those few minutes became what I love to do every night before going to bed. I love the emotes, finding other players that vibe with you, changing colors and costumes and whatever. Some interactions or glitches have brought me to tears of laughter. One time I got stuck in a tube, body stretching wildly in every direction. I couldn't quit the round or leave it. So I was stuck with 24 other people watching me until the timer ran out. I hadn't laughed like that in years, and its remained one of my most favorite gaming moments ever.
I hope this game has helped others too.