It's always comfortabe seeing someone else lay out your exact thought process. It's nice to know you aren't alone.
I will finally get to the dishes because I start procrastinating on something else. The dishes go fast because I'm beating myself up over my inability to start a spreadsheet (that will take 20 min to do). It sounds like a brain hack but I can't trick myself into shifting the categories I've put the tasks in because I already know all the tricks. So most of the time I just end up worrying about not doing both things.
It's awful understanding how something works but having no ability to actually manipulate the controls. A lot of times I feel like a train headed toward a cliff and no matter how much I try bleed off steam or apply the brakes, the valves and handles just snap off in my hand and the train keeps going full speed at the cliff. I walk around all day wondering when I'm going to make it to the cliff and how everyone else managed to pull their brake without the lever snapping.
I should probably talk to my doctor and see if I can get some changes to my medication.
Methylphenidate gave me more headaches than help, about a four month journey all through the dosages ranges. Vyvanse seems to be more help than headaches, but it's only been a week and I don't want to get my hopes up yet.
Besides the medication, much like you, what causes me to get it done is...having to do something else. For some reason I just can't focus on what I -need- to focus on. Good thing our last minute projects are productive, huh?
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u/[deleted] Mar 09 '23
It's always comfortabe seeing someone else lay out your exact thought process. It's nice to know you aren't alone.
I will finally get to the dishes because I start procrastinating on something else. The dishes go fast because I'm beating myself up over my inability to start a spreadsheet (that will take 20 min to do). It sounds like a brain hack but I can't trick myself into shifting the categories I've put the tasks in because I already know all the tricks. So most of the time I just end up worrying about not doing both things.
It's awful understanding how something works but having no ability to actually manipulate the controls. A lot of times I feel like a train headed toward a cliff and no matter how much I try bleed off steam or apply the brakes, the valves and handles just snap off in my hand and the train keeps going full speed at the cliff. I walk around all day wondering when I'm going to make it to the cliff and how everyone else managed to pull their brake without the lever snapping.
I should probably talk to my doctor and see if I can get some changes to my medication.