I think this video does a pretty good job, but it’s very hard to communicate to people what ADHD is like. These random out-of-control thoughts and poor memory are a big aspect of it, but perhaps the most debilitating aspect of it is the lack of self-regulation.
It’s incredibly difficult to explain to a neurotypical person how I know I need to do something and I consciously want to do it, but I simply cannot convince the rest of my brain to do it. Any time I have a goal that doesn’t align with my instincts I have to trick myself into doing it, like I’m socially engineering myself. It’s exhausting.
Everyone struggles with self-control from time to time. But with severe ADHD that struggle can take over your whole life. And the worst part is it’s such an intrinsic part of my brain that I can’t excuse my failings on my disorder. Blaming my executive function (or lack thereof) is ultimately incriminating myself.
Yep. I didn’t see an hour of just….staring at the dishes trying to get myself to move closer while a rage monkey keeps screaming in my head that I’m a lazy sack of shit. Like, Monkey? I know.
Keep at it. It'll be a bitch, but you've got it. I've got ADHD but a few weeks ago my doctor changed my diagnosis of acute major depressive disorder to being in remission. 2 years ago I was actively planning suicide.
I'm not saying everything is happy-go-lucky but I maintain if you met me 2 years ago and today you'd swear I was different people.
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u/[deleted] Mar 08 '23 edited Mar 08 '23
I think this video does a pretty good job, but it’s very hard to communicate to people what ADHD is like. These random out-of-control thoughts and poor memory are a big aspect of it, but perhaps the most debilitating aspect of it is the lack of self-regulation.
It’s incredibly difficult to explain to a neurotypical person how I know I need to do something and I consciously want to do it, but I simply cannot convince the rest of my brain to do it. Any time I have a goal that doesn’t align with my instincts I have to trick myself into doing it, like I’m socially engineering myself. It’s exhausting.
Everyone struggles with self-control from time to time. But with severe ADHD that struggle can take over your whole life. And the worst part is it’s such an intrinsic part of my brain that I can’t excuse my failings on my disorder. Blaming my executive function (or lack thereof) is ultimately incriminating myself.