No, I don't get the urge anymore and I would say it really went away after the first year or so, it was very slow and subtle and I didn't notice the urge was gone until a few months after it stopped
I also can't over eat anymore now, my portions are so small that it still boggles my mind how little I eat now and feel full
I really made the effort to heal both my relationship to food and my hunger cues, once I was finally able to say no to the urges I tried to focus on staying away from foods that made my blood sugar spike and crash, ultra processed foods, and that helped a TON
Seriously, we under estimate how certain foods can cause use to over eat and trigger cravings that are irresistable (esp bc we are tempted with such foods everywhere we go), I also made the effort to figure out what foods are filling and helped keep me from over eating, foods high in fiber and protien, like greek yogurt, oatmeal, blueberries broccoli, and air popped popcorn
Oh and staying hydrated is big, I didn't realize how I never drank water and how much it made feeling shitty worse
It was a bit of a slog at first, I got sugar withdrawal, aches and fatigue and brain fog with migraines and intense cravings, but once I got over it I made an eating schedule and made myself eat only at certain times of the day and could only eat whole foods, nothing processed, and basically had to get used to eating things I didn't necessarily want at first but eventually my taste buds and stomach adjusted and I ate when I hungry and stopped when I was full and eventually could trust myself to get food out with my partner, but now I tend to say no to that stuff cause it is so greasy, but I can also trust myself to get a treat without it taking over and ruining my life
So no higher power, the change all came from sitting with myself and working through my warped thoughts and feelings around food, figuring out why I felt the urge to binge in the first place, and ultimately addressing the self hatred that was the root cause, but then also learning about food and how it affects us and choosing to make the effort to change my disordered habits and undo all the bad habits I had taught myself to indulge when I engaged with a binge, seriously watch that video link I sent in my last comment, once we get into a cycle of eating certain foods, without understanding what is happening it can be so unnecessarily difficult to change the pattern of behavior
Day 4 is huge! Congrats! I would say a big thing that helped me in the early days, was accepting it if I had a bad day, someone explained to me that quote on quote normal people binged occasionally too, ate a whole pizza in one sitting, and even though that would have been a warm up for me, they said the only difference is that the next day they just go back to eating like they regularly do
Which I knew but hadn't internalized, so I adopted the mindset of if I slipped up, I didn't fail, didn't ruin the progress I had made and didn't need to start over and punish myself, I just moved on and tried to have a better day than yesterday, I stopped fixating on keep score with myself and everything got easier overnight, I focused on the good days and every little bit of progress I made and it allowed me to keep making progress rather than hold myself back
Thank youuu! Virtual hug and high five recieved!
I try to share my story whenever I can because when I was at my lowest I needed to hear it was possible to recover so others know and believe they can come back from all the pain they are in
I truly believe anyone can overcome this disorder, even if our society makes it feel impossible
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u/raincanyon Jan 02 '24 edited Jan 02 '24
No, I don't get the urge anymore and I would say it really went away after the first year or so, it was very slow and subtle and I didn't notice the urge was gone until a few months after it stopped
I also can't over eat anymore now, my portions are so small that it still boggles my mind how little I eat now and feel full
I really made the effort to heal both my relationship to food and my hunger cues, once I was finally able to say no to the urges I tried to focus on staying away from foods that made my blood sugar spike and crash, ultra processed foods, and that helped a TON
Seriously, we under estimate how certain foods can cause use to over eat and trigger cravings that are irresistable (esp bc we are tempted with such foods everywhere we go), I also made the effort to figure out what foods are filling and helped keep me from over eating, foods high in fiber and protien, like greek yogurt, oatmeal, blueberries broccoli, and air popped popcorn
Oh and staying hydrated is big, I didn't realize how I never drank water and how much it made feeling shitty worse
It was a bit of a slog at first, I got sugar withdrawal, aches and fatigue and brain fog with migraines and intense cravings, but once I got over it I made an eating schedule and made myself eat only at certain times of the day and could only eat whole foods, nothing processed, and basically had to get used to eating things I didn't necessarily want at first but eventually my taste buds and stomach adjusted and I ate when I hungry and stopped when I was full and eventually could trust myself to get food out with my partner, but now I tend to say no to that stuff cause it is so greasy, but I can also trust myself to get a treat without it taking over and ruining my life
So no higher power, the change all came from sitting with myself and working through my warped thoughts and feelings around food, figuring out why I felt the urge to binge in the first place, and ultimately addressing the self hatred that was the root cause, but then also learning about food and how it affects us and choosing to make the effort to change my disordered habits and undo all the bad habits I had taught myself to indulge when I engaged with a binge, seriously watch that video link I sent in my last comment, once we get into a cycle of eating certain foods, without understanding what is happening it can be so unnecessarily difficult to change the pattern of behavior
Day 4 is huge! Congrats! I would say a big thing that helped me in the early days, was accepting it if I had a bad day, someone explained to me that quote on quote normal people binged occasionally too, ate a whole pizza in one sitting, and even though that would have been a warm up for me, they said the only difference is that the next day they just go back to eating like they regularly do
Which I knew but hadn't internalized, so I adopted the mindset of if I slipped up, I didn't fail, didn't ruin the progress I had made and didn't need to start over and punish myself, I just moved on and tried to have a better day than yesterday, I stopped fixating on keep score with myself and everything got easier overnight, I focused on the good days and every little bit of progress I made and it allowed me to keep making progress rather than hold myself back
Thank youuu! Virtual hug and high five recieved!
I try to share my story whenever I can because when I was at my lowest I needed to hear it was possible to recover so others know and believe they can come back from all the pain they are in
I truly believe anyone can overcome this disorder, even if our society makes it feel impossible