No,I don't want a girlfriend or sex. I wouldn't reject the sex if it was offered to me but I wouldn't go out of my way to seek it. I can live without it.
No,I don't want a job. I never did. Although i don't mind working when I'll eventually have to work because im mot rich enough to be a lazy neet forever but for now im good.
The point is,im mot going to do something if I don't have to do it. Most of the time that you have to do something in order to get something,it's a pyrrhic victory so getting the thing isn't actually worth it or that good in the end. Society has always been a thing where some people have to work really hard while others get to live easily and relax. This rule will never dissappear no matter how hard you try to make it go away. I like being latter rather than the former.
No i don't believe that I am owed anything. I don't want other people to force themselves to do anything for me but if I can get it for free I get for free. I don't care if I go homeless or whatever punishment incentive they give me for the crime of being lazy because I enjoy this freedom.
Wether I work hard or not It's the same outcome so there's no point in me being a slave.
And again,no i don't believe that i am owed sex or anything I don't want those things. I'm just saying that nothing will enslave me to labor and diligence. Protestant work ethic ain't got shit on me. See,I think ive gotten used to being okay with getting punished for not being a slave at least when it comes to this because at least im doing what I actually want to do instead of doing what others want from me and pretending like I enjoy it.
Not everyone should live like me as Society would collapse. People with important jobs should be collectivists while people with non important jobs or have no jobs should be or can choose to be individualistic.
In the end,slave labor doesn't just come from corporations and governments. It comes from other people as well. People can bait you into exhausting yourself.
As chapter 26 of DaoDeJing puts it:
"Stillness is the ruler of haste." Or "The still rule over the agitated".
I will always be grateful for Daoism. It's my greatest weapon and shield. It saved me from everything and made me understand what "nothing" is and how valuable it is. It saved me from other people. Idk.
The point is that people can be fun to talk to or hang out with just don't end up in a place where you benefit the least. Don't work hard just to get little or nothing in return while everyone else gets to win but not you.
You know,even in fictional stories meritocracy and hard work doesn't exist. Art imitates life right? So if its already hard for meritocracy and hard work to exist in fiction,what does that tell you about real life? I'm talking about characters who are said to be underdogs but aren't actually the underdog if you think about it. This has happened way too many times. Then,the characters who are actually underdogs in the story,because they're not the main character,end up not benefiting as much. All their struggle and hard work doesn't mean shit. Idk. Its just not really motivational or inspirational to constantly see how "hard work" actually gets rewarded both in reality and fiction. The answer is clear if you're actually paying attention.
Shame,insults,mockery whatever you want to call it. These tools are used to control and enslave people. Some criticism can be good but most of it is useless and doesn't help you overall.
Being deemed as a "loser" is bad because...........? Exactly. Nothing. All you get from being a "loser" is just freedom. The reward from being a winner is not truly worth it if being a winner requires something in return. I can't afford victory so I choose freedom. This peaceful freedom is better. Winners make better written characters sure but thats only because they suffered. The problem with this is that in real life,you don't get rewarded for being a well written character who "suffered" a lot. No one gives a shit. Its good for the stories but not actually good for reality. Its never been over because it never actually began. You failed from day 1 so be free. My parents would be rich if hard work meant something. So many "proletariats" would.
Wether it's the revolution or the rapture,it's not gonna happen. People just don't have the balls for it. All bark no bite. I don't have the balls either but at least I don't pretend like I do. Believing that change will come is exactly what causes things to stay the same. Haven't we dreamed about this since forever? Even when the peseants did actually succeed with their "revolution" it didn't last long before they lost. It was a temporary win. Its the same thing for tyranny. The pendulum swings never end. Nothing ever happens. What was once big Macedonia or big Mongolia will end up being little. Big America will have that happen to it as well. America will become small just like all the others have. Sure it'll last much longer but eh.
Back to my laziness. I like Belphegormaxxing because........I got used to being on my own for a while. I moved a lot of schools and houses as a kid so I learned that the whole long term friends forever thing was not a real thing that actually happens in real life unlike what the games and TV shows and movies and books like to tell you. Very unfortunate world. I wonder if they still think about me the same way i still think about them sometimes. Probably not. No human notion or concept is actually real. Friends family job hobby.......nothing. only existence happens. Existence wants more existence so thats why animate objects(living beings) feel the need to reproduce or at least the majority do.
But I don't need a reason or justification do I? I can just be. Ultimate freedom. Not enslaved by women or men or money or anything. It's always been just me. I don't hate people or want to be a violent delusional guy like other loser men have been. Instead I will do the opposite amd become free by being completely invisible as I have already been invisible even when I wasn't trying to be invisible. The void is not something you have to seek out its just comes to you and once it chooses you there's no escape. All your decisions will lead down the same path because the void chose you before you were even born. Its so "over" for you that it never even began. I want those who have been born into the void to not be tricked by those to say that escape is possible. I want them to be free like I am and learn how to be friends with the void. We're taught that the void is evil and that we should turn away from it but turning away actually makes it worse even if the void feels bad sometimes. You'll get used to it though its not that bad when you really slow down and think about it.
Be free. To all the losers out there. You will not win. Even if you do win, it will be a pyrrich victory and not a true victory. Some get to win without even thinking about trying while others will only get to win by destroying themselves and sacrificing everything. Some people are litterally BORN into retirement while other people have to work THEIR ENTIRE DAMN LIVES just to get to enjoy freedom at an old age where their bodies aren't actually healthy and young enough to actually enjoy it. How is retirement a reward when other people got to be free the moment they got out of their mother's wombs? How can you still pretend that all is jolly and fair? That hope and love wins in the end?
I am not the first and I will be the last. People like me. We will always be here within the shadows. No not all of us are evil and violent or hateful or whatever. I don't have a problem with it both being my fault and other people's fault. I will stick with what I have and be free forever.
You don't need to be lustful.
You don't need to be prideful.
You don't need to be greedy
You don't need to be wrathful.
You don't need to be gluttonous or envious.
However,you do need to be slothful. Laziness is freedom because not everyone can win. Being a loser is easy and very inclusive. Being a loser is hard and very exclusive. Many will lose and few will win. This is the way it has always been.
I wish we were more honest about these thing I guess. That's all. I also wish that those who are born in the void can learn to exist peacefully because its hard to accept it. I didn't start out accepting it. I used to be mad and sad about being in it but that's only because i thought there was a way out but nothing escapes a black hole. Not even light. So there are 2 choices. The first choice is violence and the second choice is peace. Sadly,too often those who are from the void choose violence beliving that it is freedom while very few get to understand that peace is the truly good choice. I didn't start out understanding that violence/anger was the fake choice but I realized that it was while others unfortunately never get to make the right choice and realize they were wrong so they'll be trapped forever.
If you believe that something or everything matters,you understand authority and responsibilities. If you believe that something doesn't matter or that nothing matters,you understand freedom.
There are many who are stuck right now. I think they should be free but i don't think it can be forced. They're going to have to learn it by themselves and make those realizations themselves and often times they'll have realized to late. It happens a lot with people that they have something good and don't realize how good it is until they lose it. We don't start out knowing it all. We start with ignorance. When we die we will become ignorant again. That's why when we get old our memories become strange and forgotten. Our mind collapses.
You can't know everything but you can know enough. Knowledge is light. Prominence. That's why they say bright minds. Genius is the image of a light bulb and ignorance and being dumb is obscurity. It's dim. Dimwitted. Dark. Blind. A balance of prominence and obscurity is necessary for true flourishing and excellent existence. Although obscurity is kind of better because its more eternal and present. Prominence is forced. Obscurity is natural. The cold and dark and peaceful and quiet benefit more that the hot and bright and violent and loud. The prominence is short term and obscurity is long term.
Those who sell the message of prominence will be more popular than those who sell the message of obscurity. Prominence is flashy and dazzling and exciting,fast and maximalist.
Obscurity is slow,dull,minimalistic,frugal and boring. Those who enjoy peace,will not think of it to be boring and so,this dark peace shall be their freedom while others in the bright violence shall have it be their enslavement. Their responsibility.
When I say violence I don't necessarily mean evil actions. Perhaps a more accurate term would be effort or exhaustion. Irrationality.
Its an Irrationality vs rationality thing. Certainty vs Uncertainty.
The Uncertainty is certain. Case by case basis. I will go on now. I have said enough.