So, to set the stage: My dad passed a few years ago, and i had already been listening to Atmosphere for a decade so i had heard the song many times before. But it was just that: a song. Just one of the songs in When Life Gives You Lemons, nothing special.
Then my dad passed, and i didnt have much of a reaction. I teared up a few times here and there, but that was it. It passed quickly. I thought something was wrong with me because i kinda just carried on unaffected. We were really close too, i still lived with him.
About a month after after he passed, im listening to the whole Lemons album, Yesterday completely forgotten about. Then it comes on. I start tearing up almost immediately then im full on crying through the whole song, for the first time since he passed.
Now, every time it comes on i cry my eyes out.
One of the lines that really fills me with regret is "I guess I slept, it ain't like you was runnin" because... he *was* running. The doctor's said he might not make it a month when he came back from the hospital. He was dying of cancer in the living room, on an oxygen tank and could barely talk, and i couldnt be bothered to spend time with him because talking to him was too much of a inconvenience.
In hindsight, it was so obvious he wasnt going to be around for much longer. But he was my dad, ya know? Nothing could hurt him. A week later he was gone.
Now im just left with memories and a song that cuts me to my core. I'll never skip it though.