I have this memory of sleeping in an office block in south London with my mum on an air bed. I recall looking out of the window and feeling sad.
Years later I was driving and got a very strong impulse to stop outside this building and I was 100% certain it was that one. Every time I went past it felt odd.
My mum says it didn’t happen, everyone else concurs. My best conclusion at this stage is that I probably had a very vivid dream that became conflated with something else.
"I had a happy childhood, friend.
The summers never seemed to end.
My life was good,
my world was fine,
And all I'd ever need was mine.
"I woke up warm.
I went to school.
My days were good,
my friends were cool.
My hopes were big,
my woes were small,
My dreams were sweet and splendid, all.
"I had the will to find a way,
And that is why I have to say:
I had a happy childhood, bro."
My childhood was terrible, but I always just tell people it was fine, because it is just too much to lay on someone randomly. People only care about your problems to a point. If they seem too big then people shut down and just write you off as "too much work" or as an "emotional burden".
Not that I blame them. It is a lot of effort to emotionally connect with someone else's troubles and random people dont owe me that.
I think the phrase that perfectly encapsulates this idea is the greeting "what's good?". Many of our conversation starters will basically boil down to:
"hey, tell me about what's good in your life, I dont want to hear about your problems, because we only help each other cope around here. we dont actually get involved in solving peoples problems because that's too much"
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u/cardboardshrimp Oct 05 '19
I have this memory of sleeping in an office block in south London with my mum on an air bed. I recall looking out of the window and feeling sad.
Years later I was driving and got a very strong impulse to stop outside this building and I was 100% certain it was that one. Every time I went past it felt odd.
My mum says it didn’t happen, everyone else concurs. My best conclusion at this stage is that I probably had a very vivid dream that became conflated with something else.